Smile, forever.

Stop & Stare? How bout Skate & Fall? :D

"... ... Cause every time I hear your voice, smiling becomes an involuntary reflex."

Is this considered not safe for work?

Some of the people I've been hanging out with.

When you have someone who is out of love near fire, it turns purple.
As if.

When will I see your face again

Here I am, everyday,
since you said, you'd come again,
But it's not fair, cause you're not here,
I wait in vain, but nothing has changed.

I'm a flower, soaking in the rain,
If I could wish one thing, I'd hear you call my name.

Little thing, like the rain coming,
she looked at me a certain kind of way,
tell me girl, where are you now,
cause I don't know how much longer I can wait.

I'm a dreamer, waiting for the sun,
when you're coming in, I know my life's begun,
tell me girl...

When will I see your face again?
when will you touch my life again?
when will I breathe you in again?
I think I love you, will I see your face again?

You know that all my life I've been waiting,
waiting for someone, someone like you to love me,
you can't come by like an angel, into my life,
and then fly away.

When will I see your face again my friend?
I think you got to let me know...

Can't believe I went to SSDC at 8a.m. but the slot I booked was actually 8p.m. What's wrong with me, this isn't the kind of mistake I would make. Maybe I left some part of me there...

Lie to me once again

I think the problem with me is that I've been too truthful, that I haven't lied enough.

I feel so numb. Like I can't feel love no more.

Went skating at East Coast Park. Was more fun than expected. Guess its all these little outing with friends that made life easier. Isn't it funny when you haven't seen someone for just 7 days and it felt like months?

Nature is never bad

Why do I feel that there are lots of rich man's son out there attracting all the chicks, leaving none for the poor me? Low self esteem )': haha.

Anyway, went Palau Ubin today. It was fun, we'll be back.

I've so much to say, but can't seems to find the right words, the right time and the right place. Guess I don't got the right to be saying anything in the first place.

I'm angry now

Don't play, play, I'm a Health Care Assistant :D

I want to work! I'm so mad tonight cause they told me I was scheduled to work on Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday on Tuesday, but it turned out I wasn't! I won't be working on Friday and have to wait to see if I'm needed on the weekends, fucked up!

You can't feel anything what your heart don't want to feel. Well, I get the best feeling in the world when this girl looks or even laughs at me because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed her mind. Haha, I still feel bitter at times, but you're right my dear friend, I'm better than this. I'm better than feeling bitter and depressed over things like this.

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Save me...

I realize I have been very unhappy since... I can't even remember. Nothing seems to bring joy. Nothing. I've lost it all. Even the only thing that I thought could make me happy seems to bring more sorrow than joy.

I think I'm suffering from depression. Is this how depression is? Like everyone has forsaken me, nothing seems to fit, everything feels so meaningless and pointless. When someone talks, it feels like flies buzzing around my ears, irritating me. And every other minute, I'm thinking of a reason to make myself feel worst.

Happiness, where'd you go? Cause I'm on the verge of giving up on life.

Way I Too Feel This

Happy Birthday Qing Hui!

Just a simple steamboat at Bugis.

Me too. I often find myself looking for reasons to my feeling, asking myself why am I holding on to something that don't seems to care so tightly. That cheerfulness somehow offered me the ability to love even from afar, so unconditionally.
No... The truth is that there is a tiny bit of my heart hoping for something in return. This love is funny, it drains me of sadness and at the very same time fills me with sorrow.
"I've got a heart full of love, yet I don't feel any. So why, in the world do I still care?" -

The Final Act

Communicating do tear down walls. I guess certain things can never change, haha!

I wouldn't say I'm wholeheartedly happy, but still glad because my friend said she will take care of herself and... ... Haha, whatever, but remember, a promise is a promise.
Although I find it hard to believe, but I'll stand by this word called trust cause to me, you are just you, nothings ever gonna a thing about it.

: )

Its a good day

And the most miserable part is whenever I think of her, I have to tell myself that she already belongs to someone else.

Be gone

They say a woman in love looks more radiant and beautiful. Its true afterall...

If I can have 1 wish right now... Just 1 wish, no matter how unreal, impossible and ridiculous... ...
I wish that all the feelings I have for her to disappear the next time I wake up.

Filling up my empty days with red wine
Wonder what you think of me?
Lying in the grass alone & wasted
Nothing's how it used to be

I wanna be the first to call and tell you
yesterday I heard the news
I hear you ought to be congratulated
So I guess that's what I'll do

I'm so happy for you
I could cry
Yeah, I'm so elated
Cross my heart and hope to die
I don't think about you everynight
before I close my eyes.
I'm so happy for you baby,
I could cry.

Listen to the sound of my head pounding
Wish that it was make-believe
Praying for the skies to open up and
Wash away your memory

I can walk around with a pretty face on
Even when I'm black and blue
What's the point in telling everyone
I'm not over you.

Enlistment Letter, in! & Prawning

Prawning! Other than the sense of accomplishment when you hook those damn prawns up, its nothing much really. Maybe its more meaningful if you have a girlfriend that eat prawns like crackers, haha. Anyway we paid $29 for 2.5 hours but managed to steal an extra 30 minutes, cause the person in charge was chilling with his friends and forgot the time, haha.

Thats right, only managed to catch 8 pathetic prawns, these are part of them.

Check out those eggs! And I think pregnant ones are more aggressive.

Cook!

Cooked. But I think we didn't cook them well, kinda watery.

Caught in act! Hahahaha! Its an interesting way the HDB uses to protect the citizens, ahahaha!

Enlistment letter received! 24th July 2009, Friday 1pm! I'm be going to Tekong for 7 weeks! But only undergoing Modified BMT. Yeah, Modified sounds cool, but its actually for non-combat fits ahaha! Not to be exact, I'm left with 3 months... Sounding so far, feeling so near.

Wonder what you think of me

Caught Sniper the other day. Was a ok movie, could have been better. Strangely, I don't find Edison as cool as I used to think he was haha!

Fast & Furious 4 is awesome! I think its better than the previous 3 episodes. I like the way they create a storyline that revolves around cars and races, yet not making these 2 the main point of the film. And the actors in it, they are all hot. Hahaha!

Left with Taken and Knowing to go! And when is my enlistment letter coming! Haha, not that I wanna enlist as soon as possible, just that I want to get it done and over with. Moreover... There isn't much left for me to say and do...

Live life like how it should be

Today is a wonderful day! Although not so wonderful to begin with. We balled for about 40 minutes in the morning before a huge rain disrupted our game... But its ok, we chilled around before heading home at noon.

Those people that know me probably always hear me say I'm dining home, my mum's cooking today, blablabla... So today, I shall share my dinner right here :D ahahaha!

This is it! My healthy and green dinner!

First, we have seaweed with minced pork soup! Its one of my favorite home-cooked soup.

Next! I don't know whats the name of the green vegetable, but the yellowish stuffs are definitely eggs, ahaha! Stating the obvious ('-')"

Sampal Kangkong! One of my favorite vegetable! Not too spicy though, can't take the heat!

Ok, thats all for the day, hope the rain won't fall tomorrow morning, else I'll have to kill somebody :D haha.

& I somehow found faith through this obscure moment. Thanks, I'm back.

2 out of 4 new shopping malls cleared

I finally understood the song, "You're beautiful, its true. I saw your face, in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do, cause I'll never be with you..."

Anyway, went to Tampines 1 on its first day(Thursday) of operation with Kenneth. It was pretty crowded, guess its because Good Friday falls on the next day. They have quite a number of stores, ranging from fashion boutiques, accessories, restaurants, IT, etc. Basically anything you want. Uniqlo is probably the ace shop of the mall. The queue was ridiculous. We queued for about 15 minutes before we get to enter the shop. Got to be the price & quality that attracted people from all walks of life.

This picture only shows 1/20 of the people.

While loitering around today, we came across the new shopping mall at Bugis. The exterior should be no stranger to most.

You can actually see words moving across the mall.

The design of the ceiling.

They have Manhattan Fish Market!

The view from the arcade.

And check this out! UFO Catcher, what a name... And you can grab Tamiya's 4WD! Ahahaha!

Are you effing serious? 6 tokens?!

What a name! Otaku! Ahahaha!

Its a nice mall overall. They have a cinema at the top level too. And we saw this K-suits which is not opened yet, wonder what it is... The fashion there is alright, the usual kind you'll find around Bugis(not Haji, haha).

The warriors of the day! Without Xing Lun that is, he is an east side ranger.

And isn't this cool? Ahahaha! Well, at least to me...

I'm lost tonight, last night & probably every other night.

I really need you here tonight

Its funny. I'm feeling heart broken from a love I never had. I thought about it the whole of last night and decided that this bullshit can't go on, this meaningless and exhausting struggle within myself. But today, along this route, I somehow find it hard to smile. I don't know what to do... I just hate it when some people make things look so easy... Maybe I need mercy from above.

Gran Torino is a good show, do catch it. Several movies that I wanna watch are out, but can't find the right moment to catch them.

And we randomly bought a 猫山王 durian. I thought that dude said $10 per kg, so I said ok, but it turned out to be $18/kg. Haha, so we ended up paying $45 for it. What a joke.

Finding someone you love is easy. But finding one who loves you back can be harder than a 1000 miles run. Well, at least for me. I just can't help but feel sorry for myself. I'm beginning to hate myself alittle, beginning to lose faith in everything...

Why the fuck do I have so little pictures on these days...

The truth, the lies & the silly heartaches

You said you kept it from me to save me from all the pain and silly heartaches. But I wonder why am I feeling worst than what could have been bad...
Am I just an unworthy fool, or perhaps a coward, who can't withstand and accept this bitter truth to those eyes? Heh... I think I am. For the fact that the air smelled sour and bitter at the very same time.

Chalet was great. I treasured every moment, may talk about it another time.

Fallen, & trying hard to get up

Tonight, I feel weak. Weak in the heart and mind. Thoughts of inferiority & insignificancy, along with unpleasant reveries pulled me down. I need an answer to my unspoken question, I need assurance and affirmation to protect me from this absurd insecurity that I have been feeling since last week.
... And the only place I can find them is either in a place that don't belong to me, or one that I can never reach.
Bitterness steps up to greet me & jealousy, you are my greatest foe.

I was wrong. There is no paradise on earth. Or rather, anywhere is paradise, as long as you're there with me.

I know an angel

How can I ever miss this...

Happy Birthday Wan Jun!

I was worried in the morning due to the rain, but it kinda stopped by the time we reached East Coast Park. Thanks for the grace. I always knew the nature is good. But cycling was pretty tough, I got a freaking sore butt the next day. It felt like blue-black, major blue-black!

Cycling is fun, only with a comfortable seat.

A successful & meaningful day!

I need to go Redang! Laguna Redang Resort is having this real attractive promotional package, but its ending on the 31st of this month! They better have something nice for April, else... I won't know where to go! Ahahaha!

Love & Life, Albert Einstein

A little wordy, but every line counts. Take the time. Give a damn, at least for once.

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man you love but with the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but ever too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.

You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn’t mean you failed in love.

Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life: One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive. No past so bitter that love cannot accept and no love so little that we cannot start all over with.

Freak, I am.

I finally know the reason for my insomnia! Regarding the solution... I'm still trying to figure it out :D

Its not my relationship, but I feel the pain.

And thanks god its Monday.

Just another scary post

Nothing much happened these few days. Went to the IT Show and it was total congestion man. I bet it will be suffocation on weekend.

Was looking through the photographs of 2008 and I never thought this feeling will hit me again. You know that, when you feel lost, empty and starts thinking bout the past, kind of feeling?

Well, at least I know I've met someone who I can never forget this lifetime :]
But... When will I matter? I guess never.

Starry Starry Night

Hi, I've decided to blog in this lonely hour. Tonight was great, except for the wait of our 4 musketeers. I understand that a man should stand by his principles, but a real man will act according to circumstances. Know what I'm saying? No? Doesn't matter, cause its not the highlight of the day.

Well, guess I missed walking so much that I had to take this stroll tonight. Maybe alittle too long for my wounded feet, but nevertheless, a pleasant & enjoyable one. Its just wonderful knowing that you and I are looking at the same starry sky :] hahaha!

Start watch Boys Before Flowers everybody! Its never too late! Korea F4 rocks! Oh, Defiance and Enemy At The Gates are nice too! Do check them out if you're free. For now, let's sleep, had enough of late nights...

Monsoon, you're late

"If it is possible, would you like to know the day you are going to die?"

My answer is yes. I just need to, so that I can make the necessary amendments to my life before dying. I'm a man of regrets. Well, I wouldn't say all the regrets I had so far are serious, just caused me few weeks of sleepless nights and few days of impractical depression.
You're right, I'm a coward who can't make changes.

I can't remember when was the last time I have no oral ulcers. They have been bugging me for months, re-surfacing at different locations... And my body, I feel weaker day after day. Fever, flu and sore throat are regular. Sigh... I've been as healthier as I can, except for sleeping at 2am occasionally. I'm feeling feverish right now... & it got to be the weather, got to be...

Bloody cold.

"Make love! Not war!"

Many times in life, we find ourselves asking what love really is? Well, at least I did. And believe its an absolutely profound question. So I gave it a thought and decided that maybe love is: from the moment you wake up, till you fall asleep, that person never truly left your mind; you'll somehow find yourself relating everything you do to them; you wonder what they are doing every minute of every day; and late at night, while lying on the bed, you'll get too carried away from thinking about the future you 2 can share(though there may be none) that you forget to sleep.
Oh dear... Hope I'm not in love :(

Watched Tears of the Sun moments ago. Its an excellent movie! I just love war films, not because of the mournful death toll, but the act of brotherhood, the will to live and the fight for freedom, justice and peace. I've watched We Were Soldiers, Black Hawk Down and Saving Private Ryan so far, there may be more but these 3 left the deepest impressions. Behind Enemy Lines next, but its kinda late now, so... We'll see.

And the recovery of my feet is progressing well! I can walk, or rather limp, without crutches already! But I'm worried that it may worsen if I do that too much. Sigh... Looks like they are right, time heals all wounds... All I need is time, and maybe a little bit of that specific love ( : peace.

Zhao Yi's birthday @ Sembawang Shopping Centre

L is for the way you looked at me. I wished.

I shall blog tonight since I'm feeling a little over the moon :D and if you're wondering why, well, its partially because I officially went out today! It was Zhao Yi's birthday!

Happy 20th Birthday Zhao Yi!

For the other reason(s)... We'll talk about it next time. Ahahaha! And to anyone out there who cares, if there is any, my feet is recovering well, walking shouldn't be problem in a week or 2's time (hopefully).

I haven't been on the best of luck lately. First, I hurt my feet 1 day before holidays, screwing up all my plans.
The second shit happened last night, when I reached home at around 3:30am, all the lifts kinda jammed and I had to call my homies back to help me go all the way to the 11th floor and get the lifts down. What a thing to happen when my feet is hurt, haha.
Number 3 happened a while ago. Just when I needed to withdraw some cash, all 3 ATMS at the same place went out of service. Maybe I need a lady luck in my life, hahaha!

And talking about love... ... Actually there is nothing to talk about. Ahahaha!

You know, when we always stone around random places, wondering where to go, what to do next, those are the little moments I enjoy. Everybody just crowd around and crap, rather than in restaurants with long ass tables, where communication is close to impossible at both ends.

Tonight is beautiful. But I don't want it to last forever, until you're here with me.

让我心动的人

已好久没有你的消息, 好久都没有和你谈心,
好想念你总爱对我说, 你近来痘痘怎麽那麽多
如今你是否还留长发, 你是否仍每夜迟回家,
你是不是还爱咬指甲? Oh girl 我今夜好想你...
梦, 若和你的一切都是梦, 那为何我会心动
谁, 为了谁, 为了谁心动在分分钟...

Secrets

Does sharing secrets with someone makes us closer? For example, I have this secret that I keep from everyone but only share with this person. It does, right? Yes, it does, I'm positive.

Anyway, I hurt my left wrist and ankle from basketball. Looks like I won't be doing shit for some time. No gym, no motorbike, no basketball, no sentosa, no shits! Let's hope its just serious sprain. If swell don't subside in a week or 2's time, I'll probably need to get a X-ray to see if my bones are fine...

Looks normal?

Compare it with my right feet.

After 24 hours. Ahahaha looks funny.

How does it feels to be special to someone? I want to know.

Bi-birthday!

Hi, I just brushed my teeth cause there were remains of duck meat I had for dinner between my teeth. Ok, that was random, hahaha! Anyway, check this picture out!

I killed it with Gatsby Ice-Type Deodorant and asthma inhaler! Ahaha! Not to be mean, but it pissed me off during my crucial study moment.

Well, had a long day yesterday, Quality & Reliability paper in the morning, LAN through the noon, and celebrated Jolene, Kam Chuen's birthday at Fish & Co, The Glass House in the evening.

Happy Birthday to Jolene and Kam Chuen!
(Pictures MAY be upload.)

Some headed home for whatever reasons and the rest, including myself, took a midnight stroll around Dhoby Ghaut & more LAN actions before heading home before dawn. I found myself at Dhoby Ghaut at least 4 out of 7 days recently. The cheap LAN gaming rates over at Parklane Shopping Mall is just too attractive! Ahaha!

Today was well wasted! I needed this boring Saturday to slow down my life. The exams I had last week was driving me crazy. Just 1 last paper to go on Monday and everything will find their way back.
And I realised I'm alittle over budget this month. Looks like I'll have to lay low till March!

February 14th

Its not that I don't care, its just that I can't; to spare everyone that little bit of misery.

Happy Valentine's Day. Hope you had a great day.

First paper in 42 hours. I've been trying to study since Thursday, but haven't got anything into my head till this moment. Sigh... I'm just alittle too screwed, alittle too bored, and alittle too not over you.

For now; and the future

Its just gonna be another wordy post. Chinese New Year will be officially over as today is the last day. If only all 15 days were holidays... That would be too sweet. Hahaha. & I've been suffering from stiff shoulders and neck. Any hookups? Massage or whatever, I just need to get this off me! It'd been bothering me for months! Argh....

Anyway, this week is gonna be a hectic one for me! Labtest tomorrow, FYP final presentation on Wednesday and BMD presentation on Thursday. I'm so unprepared for all 3 & is still taking things too easy. I do feel the pressure, but the drive is just not there! No motivation or shit to look forward to. Ok, maybe a water bottle :D ahahaha!
Papers start on the 16th and end on the 23rd. I better start my chill-studying tonight. & Chill studying means taking a 15 minutes break from every 3 minutes of studying. Hahaha!

And I received a letter, saying I've been graded PES C9 L3 from the original A. In other words, I'll probably be serving a 8am to 5pm national service. It'd be great if I have a girlfriend, but I don't. Hahaha! Hmm... Some say its good, cause I get to chill and stuffs. But I think it kinda sucks cause my pay will be low and its gonna be boring work. Being in the Army means carrying guns and trekking in forests! Not pens and air-conditioned rooms!

I'm totally not looking forward to graduation. Friendships will drift apart and you know, people move on. Some get hitched, and their life revolves around family and work, while others busy dating the mate of their dream.
Therefore, I hereby urge everyone to get a partner ASAP, before you find yourself chilling out at your parent's home all day! Ahaha! Gosh, I should be speaking for myself...

心花朵朵开 finally came to an end! I learned 2 things from the drama: money always solve problem! & happy ending comes a long way... Haha!
Wow, all these chunk of words, if anyone made it here, give yourself a pat on the shoulder.

"You'd be like heaven to touch, I wanna hold you so much"

New Year visitings

Lie to me, to hide the hurtful truth.
Lie to me, to hurt the truthful me.

I swear I've never gambled this much in my life. Blackjack all the way, starting from Min Yi's to Kenneth's then mine and Alvin's. Hahaha, well, much was lost and gained. So I guess its pointless to talk about the outcome. But we had fun. The little peeks we stole, hoping for that pair of cards to victory, the excitement was off the roof! And it was the first time in 10 years I had this many guests at home! No joke.

Looking at the countdown timer on the right, semester exam is just around the corner. But I'm more worried about other shits now. Report for BMD project dues on Tuesday and my members seem to be idling more than ever. MIT lab tests on Wednesday & I know nuts about it... But its ok cause I know there can be miracles when I believe. Thanks Mariah and Whitney. Ahahahaha!

This same dream have been coming on for nights. Maybe its because of the recent happenings that I've witnessed and heard. All I can say is that its heart wrenching. Sigh... That explains the regular heartaches these few nights... I hope its just some illness that medicine can cure. But deep inside I know its not. We know.

NAPFA - Cleared!

NAPFA today. Not too bad, did better than expected. Just uncertain about the 2.4km run. I saw 12:18 when I reached the finishing line, not sure if the marker took it down though.

Talking about uncertainties, I do have lots of them. And I think about them every night. I'm lost, dying to understand. Even though I tried, I can't let go. This must be a bad dream. God, I need to wake up, or at least let me be "Kenny Almighty".

31st January... I wonder what shits await me. Hmmm... When did I become so negative? Hahaha... ...

Wanna be in his shoes.

Have you ever asked yourself why it hurts like this? I mean this pain is like no other and you know the only thing that will make it stop is something you can never have.

Cold

我爱的人, 不是我的爱人,
她心里每一寸, 都属于另一个人...
她真幸福, 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人, 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神, 说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

Happy Lunar 牛 Year

Sigh... Is it my chest or heart? Cause it really hurts.

Can't trust no more.

It's Chinese New Year next week! Haven't bought any new year clothes... Nothing caught my eyes and I didn't intend to get anything but my mum said it's essential. Wearing new clothes on new year means more blessed! I know... Nothing great happened to me all these years, I'm just worried shits might get worst if I didn't listen to her. Haha.

Hardworking okay?! Wahahaha!

3 more weeks to semester exam. I want to be ready. Seems to have so much to do but I'm still laying back. Guess I've got poor sense of urgency, haha! Cleared 2 quizzes this week, BMD project with presentation and several lab tests left.

Was supposed to have NAPFA this evening but guess I chickened out :D ahaha! No lah! I have been coughing these few days and thought it'd be pointless since its an obvious fail. Another reason was because I was released at 12 and afternoon classes were canceled. Which means if I were to go for NAPFA, I had to wait for 5 and half hours! Fuck no I'm gonna do that...

Anyway, my truthful friends and I ended up at Suki Sushi, Cine for a sinful meal. My first ime there, service was great, food decent. And free flow drinks!

Yum, yum, a sumptuous meal indeed.

Whenever I patron restaurants with good food, I can't help but think of the glutton people I know. Had always been my dream to... So much unspoken words never meant to be said.

And I need to know what to do when I'm losing faith.

Sentosa does rocks

Random

Went to Sentosa with my gay brothers today! Ok, they're not really homosexuals. Ahahaha! There were lots of Caucasians! Man, those Europe chicks are all freaking slim! But nevertheless, they've got a special charm :D

How is my tan line? Ahahaha! I know... It sucks!

Benjamin sneak attacking me!

And this is what he gets! Ahaha!

Owned!

Ehhh... We're definitely not gays, I was just kidding back there.

Trust me, she is damn hot. I've got more... ... Muaha!

This is the way I live, little boy still chilling with sand.

And we played frisbee!

Raymond and I went off early, he had to attend his 21st birthday dinner. Anyway, Happy Birthday bro Raymond! I met Zhao Yi and Kenneth at Vivo City. They checking out some stuffs. Then we hanged out abit before heading home.

Haha looks funny to me, its like I'm stuck between the pole in the reflection.

Hoo-ray!

The 15th was bad.

• I actually bothered to copy notes with my new G2 for the first time this semester and I couldn't find it the next lesson.
  
• Then we went to LAN for Left 4 Dead and was "cheated". The rate was $2.80/hour and extension for student, an additional $1.50/hour. We booked 2 hours straight and was charged $5.60 because the second hour was not an extension. What the fuck is this?
  
• Couldn't complete "Death Troll" on advance mode in 2 hours.
• Had prata and my plaster sucked. I don't know if its my appetite or it really sucked.
• Lost in "or-ya-bei-ya-som" and had to bring the money to casher.

Well... I should be glad thats all.
And I'm back!!! Let's rejoice for I'm back! No more emo fuck shit what so ever. Its just gonna be another regret cause there are so many things we could have done together & they are never gonna be happening anymore.

You're beautiful and all I ever wanted. Yes, LIFE, you're beautiful!

Knocked down.

I don't know, I'm feeling very lost and don't feel like doing anything. Don't feel like doing FYP report, start on my project, do revision, study for exam, workout, hangout. I just don't feel like doing anything. And the saddest part is that I know, nothing is gonna change even if I continue not doing any of the above. As a matter of fact, nothing will change even after typing all these shit, nothing will change even if I drink all the alcohol in the world... Nothing will.

Sigh... I just hope all the lovers out there don't take their partner for granted. Cherish them, for you never know, the girl/guy you're holding now, may be a dream of another who can't do shit but watch, hope and wait for something they know might never happen.

And for those who didn't cherish what they had (provided the partner is a bitch, slut, bastard, SOB), serve you right, you don't deserve him/her.

And I tried Left 4 Dead today. All I can say is that killing zombies had never been more fun.

Its the end!

"Somethings gotta change, cause I've been losing faith... I love you but I can't wait here forever... How did you get so far, so far away from my heart... Don't you realise I'm here too..."

Spinnovex people from DBE/FT/3B01!

I'm so glad Spinnovex is finally ending... Tomorrow is the last day, but its gonna take up the whole of my Saturday, which sucks. But it'd been fun so far. Plenty of interesting stuffs to check out, chill outs with old and new friends, hmm... It's not that bad actually, hahaha!

& I have been 38 degrees through the week, ultra-sore-throat and some coughing acting up now. Its like uncontrollably inhaling too much air for the lungs and having to cough out the excessive.

But I'm still a happy child tonight, cause I'd seen the one person whom I find it forever so hard to part with. The giggles, the smiles, and the look in the eyes. Too much to handle, too little to savor :D

And Ong Bak 2 sucks.

Never been more true

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night? Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?

Have you ever been in love, been in love so bad, you'd do anything to make them understand? Have you ever had someone steal your heart away, you'd give anything to make them feel the same? Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart, but you don't know what to say and where to start?

Have you ever found the one you dreamed of all your life, you'd do just about anything to look into their eyes? Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to, only to find that one won't give their heart to you? Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there, and all you can do is wait, for the day when they will care?

What do I got to do to get you in my arms? What do I got to say to get your heart, to make you understand how I need you next to me? Got to get you in my world cause baby, I can't sleep...

Spinnovex -no good.

It's Spinnovex week. Spent half of my day in school today setting up our station and stuffs. Tuesday will be another hectic day. EEE Director will be checking out the stations. Wednesday is the industrial panel judging day and official Spinnovex exibition will start on Thursday, all the way to Saturday. I can't survive.

I don't feel so good. There isn't anyone to share my anxiety, my woes. Well, maybe there is... But isn't exactly who I needed. I don't even know why am I doing this. What have become of my sanity...?

Its just hard when you don't communicate with your heart for awhile... Harder to breathe, harder to think and harder to love.

Rubbish

If I could, you know I would... but the try would be in vain.
So I cry,
I can't stop the rain

It has been an empty new year for me till now. There hasn't been any specific thing I want to do or feel like doing. I don't seems to care about things so much anymore... No... Maybe I still do, just acting like I don't. Sigh, I know... Sitting around won't get me no where.

Have you ever been so determined about something, and only to have your will shaken the moment you see a smile, hear a laughter or even by just a thought? I guess it just means that there is alittle bit of you, still missing alittle bit of them, haha.

Feels like I've just typed a load of rubbish... But its the only way for me to touch on things I can't convey through the power of speech to others. Sigh, why must life be filled with sorrow...?

If only certain things are as clear as the sky.

New Year's Eve!

Its finally 2009. My mind isn't working well now, probably due to fatigue, so I'm gonna keep things as short as possible. Just caught "7 Pounds" a moment ago, was an awesome movie, the perfect film to start the year with.

New Year eve was spent at Sophie's place! Thanks for everything! So... These are the things we did!

Played Guitar Heroes from Phil.

Wii from Sophie. And I was quite surprised by how tiring the boxing game can get!

Twister from Ser Chin. This game is the most exhausting shit ever! Guess I shall not post the other pictures :D

And we rotted/chilled/slacked! Ahaha!

Drank.

Drunk.

And that's all for the long day! Thanks Sophie and everyone who made it happen! Peace.

The night is real silent now; both in reality and virtually. People say it takes 2 hands to clap... How true. & I'm really tired of all these attempts, no, should I even call them attempts? Or mere wishful thoughts that you and I know can never happen right from the start? I don't know. I'd like to hold on, but you're closing down on me with every step I take.
Maybe I just don't have what it takes.