"Love is one big illusion, something I should try to forget..."

I wanna ask her out! I wanna speak to her! I wanna walk by her side! But I'm a wuss! Ahahahaha... I guess I'm unwanted by her ) :

Lost and so confused

I have fallen, fallen into this deep lake. I tasted the sweetness in it and I can't seems to get enough of it... Today, I'm out into the ocean... Feel so lost without the smile... We are so far away, one in the east and one is the west... I miss the sweet little smile ( :

Ahhhh I'm crazy! I don't know what I'm talking about! Ahahahaha... Hmmm, my dream life is probably like that: going to school everyday, and if school ends at 12, I'll go hang out with the person I like, have dinner with her, send her home at around 8, go basketball court play abit... Shoot shoot ball... Go home at 10, watch abit of TV, sleep. If school ends at 5, then it'll have to depend one the special one :D Thats my dream live! Hahaha so sweet right... Alright lets sleep ( :

With Love

The feeling is so strong!!! ( : I'm falling in love with you everytime I see your smile! I'm falling in love with you everytime you speak to me! I'm falling in love with you everytime I come near you! Hahahaha... Well, even thought all the above didn't actually happen, but... I'm just so glad! Hahahaha... Actually... I don't know why I'm feeling so happy, I shouldn't be feeling so! Good night people! Oh yeah, Happy birthday to doggy You Lun and Kenneth! Damn... 17 already... Dahaha!

Life hasn't been bright these few days... Watching all those people walking pairs by pairs, hand in hand... And here I am, falling deeper and deeper into this dreadful 'manhole'... Well, before I conclude on anything, I guess I'll just wait a few days or so... People do live a busy life after all.. ( :
Oh, I also realized that "not fair" is quite a crappy word so I'll try not to use it as much as possible. Haha, I guess I'm kinda slow but I finally know that the world was never made fair... So... Yeah, I'll cut down on using that crappy word...

Anyway, there is school tomorrow! Ahhhh! Its kinda bored... Listening to all those crappy stuffs... And to make matters worst, I don't have a motivation to study... All I do everyday I daydream in classes... Damn! I found out everything I talk about will lead me to the same old topic again! Crap!

Ahahaha... Tomorrow is Lakers VS Suns in the 2006 Playoff! All the best Lakers and Kobe, I believe in you even thought I don't hold high hopes :D hahahaha! Nights ( :

How's school?

School... Hmmm... Should be considered very cool ( : My classmates are cool, the lecturer are cool and the school environment's cool! Ahahahaha! Get to know most my friends during the orientation... We went to play pool on flag day! Ahahaha!

School started on Monday and the lessons are kinda boring... Sitting around, can't seems to beable to absorb... Maybe I'm still in holiday mood...

Anyway, today's maths lesson was freaking boring and I decided to switch on my lappy... I appeared offline in msn and I saw this special person coming online... I observed for a while and noticed that "this person's" status didn't become busy or be right back. This was kinda encouraging as "this person's" status is usually busy or be right back so I decided to chat with "this person"(since the maths lesson's boring :D). But the moment I changed my status to online, "this person" became busy straight away! WHAT THE FUCK!? Could this be pure coincidence or is it something more...? Well, it's a fact that I rarely message "this person" when "this person" is busy or be right back so... Maybe "this person" was avoiding me... Well, I don't know... And certainly hope not cause I'm quite sure that this special person still helds a special place in my heart ( :

"It's hard to watch the person you love not love you back, but it's even harder to watch them love someone else."

Weakling me

Ahhh I was acting stupid again! Normally, when you and I see a friend, we'll probably wave our hands or call their name as a signal, saying "hi" or any other greetings. But then... I somehow can't do a shit when this special person appears! She just freeze my heart and I can feel butterflies in my stomach! Ahahahaha... I don't even dare to look at here lor... Damn! But I'll work on it...

Anyway, school, I mean orientation, was pretty cool... Made lots of new friends, almost the whole class. However, I just can't accept the fact that there isn't hot girls or there is just so little females in the class!!! Damn!!! I can't accept this!!! Ahahahaha... But the class was overall great...

( :

Freak I am!

I think I, myself is a freak! Hahaha... I'm weird... I feel so freaky all out of sudden... I don't even know what the fuck I want!? Isn't that funny?! Ahahaha...
Well, it goes like that:
I love you, but doesn't have the courage to claim you, therefore I'm retreating, trying to forget. After afew weeks, I found out I can't... You still have my heart... But I believe we ain't meant to be... But again, I have the urge to wanna be with you... ... Ahahahahaha! I'm crazy!

"Why limit yourself to a pond of guys when there is a ocean out there."

You slew my will with a phrase,
marked my destiny with a move &
make me wanna die with your existence.

I'm so sad... Everyone I cared about have left me... I'm all alone. The person I loved had forgotten about my existence... Maybe I should die.

Ahahahaha!!! April Fool Joke! HAHAHA!

Ok, I know that is
LAME.

Hahaha... Yup, time is passing so fast. A quarter of 2006 had past... Kinda missing the old days in school... We can crap with our friends, be with the people you love and on and on... There is so much love in school! Hahaha... Nothing much to say...
May the people I love be happy forever and ever ( :