A quarter of the year, a fraction of a lifetime

It's so hard to want something so much, but at the same time know that you will probably never have it. And you just don't feel like giving up without a fight because the pursuit of happiness is really what living is all about.

I do not know what am I chasing after. I do not know what I'm trying to accomplish. I am so afraid... Afraid of the passing time... Because once gone, we're never going to get it back... I guess liquor don't always make you high and all. It sometimes make you think... Think about love, about life... About how are you going to spend the rest of your life, and who are you going to spend it with... 

Will feelings & love fade with the hands of time? I'd witnessed couples who couldn't end their unsatisfying relationship because of commitments and responsibilities like children or simply a marriage certificate. But through the recent passing of Mr Lee Kuan Yew, I learned about the undying love between him and his wife. And time certainly did not fade a tad bit of that love which they'd shared. 

This showed that true love does exist. This kind of love will never erode with the passing of time. It will never waver despite great distance between both. And this kind of love, once you'd fallen into it, can never get out in a single lifetime.

Passing of the Greatest Man I have ever known

23rd of March 2015 will be a day for Singaporeans to remember. Mr Lee Kuan Yew, Singapore's very first Prime Minister, passed away today. All the words have been said by many, so I shall keep it short. Without Mr Lee, we definitely wouldn't be where we are today. His contributions to the nation and to every of our lives cannot be described through mere words. Let's march on together and carry his legacy for as long as we can as one nation & one Singapore. Thank you for everything & rest in peace.

Feels like I'm losing the adventurous spirit in me. Have been slowly shifting my investments to less er risk & higher dividend yield counters like REITs. Oh well... Shall try hogging some cash for a few months & see if any interesting opportunities arise.

"We're not friends, we're not enemies... "

I read this quote the other day, "We're not friends, we're not enemies, we're just strangers with some memories" and I couldn't agree more. It made me think a little too. Relationships between humans are indeed complicated. Many refer it to porcelain vases; once broken or chipped, even if pieced together again, will never be the same. Ok, just some random thought.

Woke up this morning and found the place a little hazy. Let's hope the haze is not here to stay, else it might disrupt my jogs. Oh, let me rephrase, my once in a blue moon jog. Hahahaha!

A strange kind of feeling

"Have you ever get in those moods where you don't feel like reading, & you don't feel like being on the internet, & you don't feel like watching a show, & you don't feel like sleeping, & you don't feel like existing in general... But you want to do something!?“

We can't please everyone & sometimes we just have to let people down. We can't live up to everyone's expectations all the time, & can't hold on to something not for us to keep.

Animals using WhatsApp

This is how a conversation between a naughty pussy cat & a silly dummy dog looks like on WhatsApp.

So numb

Have you ever laid 1 side of your face on the pillow until it turned numb & you still can't sleep? Well, both sides of my face are numb and I still can't sleep. Haha!

"Today is a gift. That's why it is called the present"

Gosh... My stiff neck is back... Not sure if it's due to the pillow which I'm currently sleeping on or the building up of stress at work. So much to do, so many responsibilities... Oh well, I guess sometimes we just got to step up and get shit done. Things will probably get better by mid April. "Tough time don't last, tough man do"! 

Ultra Music Festival Bangkok on the 12th of June and Bali on the 25th of September... Should I? I'm actually looking forward to a romantic honeymoon get away... Oh wait, I'm not even attached! Hahaha! 

To be honest, my life has been pretty awesome lately... Shall not elaborate too much. But if you feel that you might be the reason, then you probably are :D 

Someone asked me if I find the thought of becoming strangers with someone whom we used to be real close with scary. My answer is no. It is not scary, but pure heart-wrenching. I believe that we have all lost a few friends along the way, maybe some lovers, but time will heal all wounds... That's what I believe. So stop thinking about depressing things, follow your heart and wonderful things may unveil themselves. (Geez, I wish life was this simple, hahaha!)

Let's just live for the moment. Because we have to work out the present before we can embrace the future. Peace. 

Double standard is a standard

Somebody asked me, "won't I feel tired after a long day at work?" I guess it really depends on the situation. I mean, if you're asking me to go straight for a second job, my answer is yes. Or if you're telling me to help my mum with groceries, yes, I will be tired, but I'll still do it since I'm a good mommy's boy. 

But... If it's about spending time with someone who is far more important than feeling tired or getting rest, then the answer is no. For that someone, I'm willing to move every single muscle of my damned body, or travel a thousand miles and all these will still feel like it's so god damn worth it.

Why? Because sometimes, for that special someone, everything is worth it.