Last day of November

Have you ever felt like you are stuck in your current life? Like every expectation has been set. Oh well, just a random thought.

Been a great week so far. On second thought, there isn't any unique happening either. Oh wait, maybe just Thursday. It's amazing how a single day, or rather a single moment of that day, can make the entire week feels so awesome, hahaha! I guess Friday night was alright as well, chilled out with my dear cousins. They said, "cousins are usually the first friends we have as children...". Real fortunate that I have a tight bunch of cousins. Blessed I'd say.

Cousins night out!

So... It'll be December tomorrow. It's scary how fast these 11 months of 2013 flew by. When will I get employed? Hahaha! Someday in the very near future I hope. Oh, and results were released few days back. Guess I can consider myself a graduate now... & if any of you out there who didn't manage to clear all modules, fear not, because there is little (other than appeal) you can do about it other than simply "grit your teeth" and see it through. I'm sure there will be supportive people around to aid/encourage you. (People like me... If you are worthy :D hahaha!) Peace.

True or false? Difference between love & lust.

"It is easily and often confused for lust. It’s hard to differentiate between feelings, since they’re usually all bundled up and packaged into one little body that can’t make sense of things. But love and lust are different in one key respect: love puts the other first, lust puts the self first." - The Truth About Everything by Brianna Wiest.

http://www.kobobooks.com/ebook/The-Truth-About-Everything/book-WfM2weQpmE2JTnsABFnIDQ/page1.html

Playing with fire

It's 2am & I don't feel sleepy at all... My mind is filled with stuffs that shouldn't be there.

Don't you wish that we can speak our mind and offend no one, do whatever you like and not be judged, or simply love whoever we want to love & not think about the consequences, outcome or who is going to get hurt, by who? We'd all like to say yes, but probably never find the courage to. Due to society or circumstances.

In the end... We're just living. Just living...

Not bulking, just living.

Was at the gas station earlier on and....

Aunty: "how old are you? Are you eighteen?"

Me: "Twenty-four."
Aunty: "Really? You look young ah."

Me: "Haha... Thank you. Hahaha..."
Together: "Haha... Hahaha... Bye."

Damn! Looking young isn't something men should be happy about right? We need to look mature and firm! Probably due to my height :/ oh well, can't be helped.

Gosh! I've been eating so much recently! Totally failed to stick to my 1 week pre-beach vacation diet plan! You'll see why. And this is only a fraction of it.

Last night's dinner at Sakon Thai. Pretty decent I must say, but it just doesn't feel right eating Thai food in Singapore when you know you can eat the same dishes at much lower prices and maybe better taste at Thailand!

One of the classic Thai dish: Minced pork.

Pad Thai! Nothing to rave about.

Need no further introduction.
I like this, very authentic Thai taste.

Pandan Chicken. Prefer Ah Loy Thai's.
But I was greatly disappointed by
their service sometime back.
So I try not to patron Ah Loy...

MUST EAT! Mango Sticky Rice! I can eat 50 of this!

Bored after dinner moments ago and decided to try out another cafe. Penny University along East Coast Road. Been awhile since I had pie/cake for dessert. In fact, I don't even have dessert that often. Maybe that was why these tasted so good...

$5.50 for this Muddy Espresso.
Real small serving, I could've finished it in 1 sip.
I like how it was served in a jar though.
Little things like this fascinates me :D

French Apple Cake. Tasty!
$6 I think.

Banoffee Pie. $6 as well, I think.
Again.

Approximately 2 days from now. Let's go!

"I don't want to run, just overwhelm me"

Hi, how is everyone copping with post-examination life? (Asking as though I'm expecting a reply, hahaha!) Hope y'all are enjoying it so far! I personally am not. The first thing that comes to my mind everyday when I open my eyes is (other than my love ones, or one), "not another day! I need a freaking job!" I don't know what's the rush, but I can't stand it no more. I can't stand spending time at the gym or any other things. Everything seems to have lost it's flavor.

The only interview offers I received via my employment agency so far are sales and administrative positions, which I aren't too keen on... Starting to think if I should just go for them instead of being all picky :/ I did apply to some jobs that I'm interested in through job search websites, but I guess they aren't too interested in me, hahaha!

Ahhh... That moment when a certain song plays on the radio... That instant nostalgia that probably sent your heart skipping a beat. Or drew a smile across your face. Or did you frown? Haha, music... Is indeed powerful! Can't help but wonder if there is a song that will remind you of me? I wonder...

P.S. Yes, by saying "you", I mean you! Go figure :D
& I created a tumblr for fun! http://hopelesslomantic.tumblr.com hahahaha!

"If you want extraordinary love, you need to fight for it".

Below is an extract from an e-book (The Truth About Everything by Brianna Wiest) which I recently (also accidentally) purchased. She is also a writer with the Thought Catalog. Do purchase this e-book if you like her work. I know it's a wall of text, but I'm sure you'll bring something out of it after reading. True or false, for you to decide. Enjoy :D

"The tides of life won't always bring you back ashore - sometimes, you have to row yourself over. Often, nothing changes until you change it. Nothing is better until you make it that way. There's nothing you're not responsible for. Just waiting around for something to happen, lamenting that it isn't, wishing, hoping, praying for it to change, doesn't always ensure that it will. Go, move, act, speak. Your days are slipping by you, and every day you spend in the mediocre is another you miss in the extraordinary.

If you're seeking the miraculous, keep seeking. Life is unimaginably short and passes even faster than that; there will be enough average things in your life. Don't let love be one of them. Because it's unconditional, life-changing, mind-altering, madly-passionate-sometimes-extraordinarily-difficult-but-none-the-less-just-plain-extraordinary love that you find yourself inherently invested in with every bit of your heart, if it's the person who is there beneath the layers of your heart that you've calloused over through the years - you need to go be with that person. Be with who uproots you and makes you realize you didn't know how deeply your soul could stretch. Be with who loves you. Who really, actually, genuinely, truly, madly, deeply, passionately loves you. And to whom you reciprocate the feelings to as well.

This does not mean be with the person that you most easily get along with. Sometimes, extraordinary love isn't easy (it usually never is) but in one way or another, it is always worth it. So don't mistake the extraordinary for what you're settling for. I know this is an extremely difficult thing to do most times, because when there's nothing really wrong with your relationship there's no reason to wreak havoc and go... except, there is. And that's because the extraordinary is waiting for you somewhere else. In the words of Cheryl Strayed, have the courage to break your own heart. That's awesome if you really like each other and even if everything is swell but yet, somewhere you know, this person doesn't absolutely rock your world, you need to go.

Because you need (and deserve) love that is something of an other-worldy connection, that you can't really make sense of in your mind. Mind-blowing-life-changing-heart-stopping-blood-rushing-miraculous love. Don't settle until you have it, if that's what you want. There is no time for love that isn't miraculous. Get up and leave. Move. Go. Don't hold on because you think you'll never find someone else. If you're even a little bit unsure, leave. Your uncertainty should tell you that at the very least, you need to explore other avenues. And if those roads lead you back, great, if they don't, great. Wanting to leave is enough reason to go. And believe me, one way or another, you will eventually wind up where you're supposed to. Whether it's with some cool new person or back into the arms of the person you left, you won't ever have to question whether or not you should be with them."

- The Truth About Everything by Brianna Wiest.

“Your Perception is Everything"

"I once heard someone say that in writing, and in life, there’s only one story-line, and it’s that nothing is ever as it seems. Sometimes I wonder if this is because everything is malleable. Everything is someone’s perspective of it, most often your own. No two people see everything the same way, so how is there anything definitive, when it’s all a matter of perspective?

It’s the root of fear vs. hope, failure vs. triumph, and so on. Because what is failure other than our own assertions that we’ve failed? And where do those assertions even come from? The ideas of other people? Because their ideas are just perspectives too."
- The Truth About Everything by Brianna Wiest.

Restlessness is getting to me

I can't keep still. I want to go out, but don't know where to go, or what to do. Thought I'd enjoy a laid back day after 3 days of work. But I seems to be feeling extremely restless.

• Read my book at a cafe? Nope, I should stay away from caffeine at night. But it really depends :D
• Longboard again? No, once in a while is okay... Too much spoils the fun! Besides, it's not really that fun playing alone...
• Jog? Nope, it's not even enjoyable, hahaha! (Unless it's with someone special that is...)
• Workout? Already did earlier on...
• Go eat ice cream? Who the fuck goes to an ice cream parlour & eat ice cream alone? No offense to those who actually does though :D

Anyway, took my phone for a swim today. Haha, I wasn't being narcissistic, just trying out the underwater capability of my phone :D or maybe I was. Yeah, I probably was.

This is my SSDD face.
In case you didn't know,
it means "Same Shit, Different Day".

Using my phone in the pool made me feel like a boss! Alright, that's all for today. Going to look for something to do now. Just hope that this is not how I'll be spending the rest of my days before I find a job. Peace.

First weekend since "academic freedom"

Went to Sembawang Park on Friday night because I said that it'd been renovated & we couldn't think of anywhere else to go. The park is so bright now compared to few months ago. No longer creepy, hahaha! Come to think of it, I do have lots of childhood memories in this park. My maternal family used to BBQ there once every few months in the past... Guess everybody is busy in our own way these days. & of course, not forgetting the 2 birthdays I celebrated there... As well as all the crabbing sessions. Good times.

Check out the new playground! It was fun! Especially the slide!

Happened to have some Halloween party that night.

A view of the playground from within.

Cupcake. Or calories & sugar from my POV.

No wonder I look round these days.

The "obstacle course" to the slide.

I love the slide of the playground. It's the tunnel type and approximately 4m high. Yes, I love to be on high grounds: Baiyoke Sky, Taipei 101, love them all! Too much effort to climb up though... They built the path to the slide in a manner of an "obstacle course".

Didn't do much on Saturday. In fact, I didn't do anything worth mentioning. As for today... I found myself reading a book at a cafe that I shall keep a secret because it seems to be getting too crowded for my liking these days (don't mean to be selfish). Oh wait, it's not like people actually read this blog, hahaha!

Just feel that I should continue where I left off (the book I'm reading)... And I plan to continue on from there. I seems to have developed this hobby of reading recently. Especially those that allows me to look at the world through the mind of another. Their experiences, thoughts, values and everything else that they penned down. May not necessary come in the form of a book though. The internet does provide a huge library of reading materials that can satisfy this need. But I really shouldn't look at the screen too much, haven't been taking care of my eyes ):

Alright, that's all for now. Remember to start crafting your resume & have them sent! "Time & tide wait for no man". Peace.

If I could steal you away I would... & I will steal you away