Just came back from gym and should be having dinner but! I am too full to eat!!! Ahahahaha! I know I shouldn't be eating out but then I was so freaking hungry and can't resist the tasty food at 921! Hahahaha...

And just to add on, WHAT THE FUCK! I THINK THE "FEMALE" LAVENDER I BOUGHT IS A MALE! My god... I guess I just wasted $13 on a weakass fish which I though I can spawn with my male... This sucks!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

My "new" fishes at second week!


"I'm not in water... I'm floating in the air~"



"Why is my tank so dirty!!"



"Huh?"


Still trying hard to take better pictures, I think luck is pretty much needed :D ahahaha! Oh! Bought a female lavender for my male lavender! Can't wait to spawn them! But my female is kinda small, maybe I should say young. She is barely 2cm! Maybe 1.8 or .7 hahaha! Guess I'll just have to wait for a few weeks ( :

Exams' finally over! Time to rot! Ahahahaha!

"I wish I could carry your smile in my heart, for times when my life seems so low, It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring..."

Was reading through the testimonials we shared in friendster and my old posts here and the feeling is just not-so-great. Relationship really sucks to stay unmoved and ever worst when it widens.

) :

Triple S: Sour, sick, sucks.

Do you really still feel for this person when you see her with other guys hanging out 1 to 1 at certain places and then you get this really... Sick feeling, not the kind of sour jealousy, just wondering why is that guy not you... Hahaha. Sometimes its really really really hard to let go, even if you know things won't work out you wanted, you just can't forget everything and let go...

Today is my PEEE exam. Suppose to go study at 10 with Andrew and Adrian but my "bed-sticking" disease is getting worst :D hahaha, woke up at 8:15 but just keep cuddling around until 9:30... Bad, bad, bad, got to kick this habit...

Anyway, reached Khabit Mac at around 10:30 and then study just that little bit before heading to 848 for lunch and then talked cock all the way until Irwin arrive. We're having gym section today! Hooray! Ahahahaha!!! Oh, he brought a piece of news too, someone special is at MacDonald! And is with someone with weird/crazy/stylish/whatever you call it, hairstyle. Really disturbs me a lot... Meet Alvin at the overhead bridge and head to gym.

At gym, we saw this gay ass who always ask people for money at 761 basketball court! Dude, this guy is hella gay, trust me... He just go around the gym looking at guys and then giving that freaky smile... He sucks and Irwin, please stop saying he's my best friend cause he is yours! Ahahahaha!!

After gym, we went back to Mac to meet Andrew and Adrian cause we(SP people) have got a exam to catch! Ahahaha... And that special one is still there, of course with that guy hahaha...
Found out that they are actually from the same sporting club.

"From the moment that I meet you, it was so damn real"

Ahhh really need to cut down on my expenses nowadays... Spending way too much! Banked in some money on 18th and already spent $80+ by 20th... What the hell is wrong with me!? Ahahahaha!

Bettas rocks!!!

Well, I bought some fish and traveled to quite a number of places to look at bettas (bettas are also known as fighting fish). Jalan Kayu sure have a decent number of fish farms. Went to Katong after that and found Sincere Aquarium. Its a new shop and have good quality and quantity of fishes. And the fishes are on sale! 40% off! Bought 2 for $30, a lavender and orange black. The uncle is a nice guy. He gave kC and me some knowledge about breeding and the fishes themselves. How I wish I have unlimited spaces to keep fishes... Haha.

My cute little lavender. (Argh, my camera/camera skill's too weak!)



Another shot.



This is my orange, the black isn't that obvious, just a little bit at the outline of the fins and tails.


Orange ( :

Will try to spawn them as soon as I get my hands on a suitable female ^^

Noooo! My female betta died!!! How can that be!?

I'm so sad... Poor fish...

There are many kind people around and I don't know who to love :D

Life hasn't been good. Its pretty damn boring, but then again, maybe its not. I guess I'm crazy, I'm a goner. I've got no motivation to study, all I think about is to have fun and fun and whenever I think of not being able to have fun, I'm like a... Whatever you call it.

I seriously need a time machine... Or a mind washer. I need to set somethings right, I need to forget all these lies. Things that should have been said, things that wasn't meant to be in my head.
I really hate the feeling that I get when I listen to certain songs, they really make me emotionally unstable. Yet, I want to listen to them. Haha, how weird can humans get... ...

"But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you."

Just read a mail about the four candles, Hope, Peace, Faith and Love. It really reminded me how important HOPE is. ( :