"Not telling you"

I want to move closer to you

I've wanted to get to know you since I met you

My heart pounds when I hear your voice

Since the day we first met, I've been absently daydreaming

As soon as I got introduced, I wanted to say hello

But as soon as I couldn't see you, my heart became mixed up

You disappeared, I’m worried to death

Will you be okay? Do you have someone to take care of you over there? I don’t know 

I nearly forgot to breath when you came close

At just your smile, my whole heart pounds

I want to tell you so you can realize the things in my heart 

But I don’t know if telling you right now would be moving too fast

I still don’t know how you feel

If I tell you those words, and your answer is no

If it’s like that, you’ll probably run away 

It’s perfectly enough already if I have you near me

I can hear your voice, I can take care of you from afar

I’ll keep my secrets in my heart

However much it gets to be, I refuse to speak them 

I want to tell you so you can understand my heart

Seriously, I want to tell you those words

But I’m so scared that I’ll be upset

If you can’t accept them, you’ll probably refuse to forgive me for those words 

It’s so frustrating, I have to keep it inside

It’s frustrating, I’m afraid that if I say it, I’m afraid I’ll be upset 

I’ll keep it away until I reveal my heart

I’ll wait for that day, the day I’ll be certain that you think I’m the one

And you’re ready to listen to the things I have inside 

I’ll tell you I love you so you can hear it closely

I’m telling you my love, do you hear me?

If it’s still not clear, you can listen to it again

Do you hear that I love you with all of my heart

- Backroom Audio

"If you want extraordinary love, you need to fight for it".

Below is an extract from an e-book (The Truth About Everything by Brianna Wiest) which I recently (also accidentally) purchased. She is also a writer with the Thought Catalog. Do purchase this e-book if you like her work. I know it's a wall of text, but I'm sure you'll bring something out of it after reading. True or false, for you to decide. Enjoy :D

"The tides of life won't always bring you back ashore - sometimes, you have to row yourself over. Often, nothing changes until you change it. Nothing is better until you make it that way. There's nothing you're not responsible for. Just waiting around for something to happen, lamenting that it isn't, wishing, hoping, praying for it to change, doesn't always ensure that it will. Go, move, act, speak. Your days are slipping by you, and every day you spend in the mediocre is another you miss in the extraordinary.

If you're seeking the miraculous, keep seeking. Life is unimaginably short and passes even faster than that; there will be enough average things in your life. Don't let love be one of them. Because it's unconditional, life-changing, mind-altering, madly-passionate-sometimes-extraordinarily-difficult-but-none-the-less-just-plain-extraordinary love that you find yourself inherently invested in with every bit of your heart, if it's the person who is there beneath the layers of your heart that you've calloused over through the years - you need to go be with that person. Be with who uproots you and makes you realize you didn't know how deeply your soul could stretch. Be with who loves you. Who really, actually, genuinely, truly, madly, deeply, passionately loves you. And to whom you reciprocate the feelings to as well.

This does not mean be with the person that you most easily get along with. Sometimes, extraordinary love isn't easy (it usually never is) but in one way or another, it is always worth it. So don't mistake the extraordinary for what you're settling for. I know this is an extremely difficult thing to do most times, because when there's nothing really wrong with your relationship there's no reason to wreak havoc and go... except, there is. And that's because the extraordinary is waiting for you somewhere else. In the words of Cheryl Strayed, have the courage to break your own heart. That's awesome if you really like each other and even if everything is swell but yet, somewhere you know, this person doesn't absolutely rock your world, you need to go.

Because you need (and deserve) love that is something of an other-worldy connection, that you can't really make sense of in your mind. Mind-blowing-life-changing-heart-stopping-blood-rushing-miraculous love. Don't settle until you have it, if that's what you want. There is no time for love that isn't miraculous. Get up and leave. Move. Go. Don't hold on because you think you'll never find someone else. If you're even a little bit unsure, leave. Your uncertainty should tell you that at the very least, you need to explore other avenues. And if those roads lead you back, great, if they don't, great. Wanting to leave is enough reason to go. And believe me, one way or another, you will eventually wind up where you're supposed to. Whether it's with some cool new person or back into the arms of the person you left, you won't ever have to question whether or not you should be with them."

- The Truth About Everything by Brianna Wiest.

All you ever want to say to an ex you really love

It's probably too small to read, so I typed it all out below.

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"Hey, I know we haven't seen each other or even talked, in a long time... 
But I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I want you to know that I miss you. 
Not like "I regret what happened" or even "I want to see you again." 
Just... "I miss you." Full stop.
It's strange to think that someone I used to know so well is now a total stranger... 
That I sometimes go entire days without thinking of you even a little. 
Most of the time, I let myself forget, because it's easier. But then I find something... 
An old letter, or a picture you drew, slipped in the pages of a book I haven't read in years... 
And the full weight of what's been lost comes crashing down on me. 
But this isn't regret. We had reasons for ending it, and they're as valid as ever... 
But back at the start, we didn't need reasons for anything. It all just happened. 
We didn't have common interests, or similar goals... We didn't even really get along that well. 
But we didn't need a reason to fall in love. We just did. 
The reasons came at the end, and everything that's happened since has been all about reasons. 
And that's good. It means one day I might find someone I won't have to say goodbye to. 
But a part of me misses just loving someone, and knowing they love you back, and that's all. 
I guess what I'm saying is, I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great. 
I hope you found a love that's all the things ours couldn't be. And I hope I find that too. 
But a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons..."

This brought a lump to my throat. Haven't felt that for a while... Guess things can never be the same. It's a strange feeling, like I've moved on, but still miss her. Or does that means I have not?

Guess we had a rather unhealthy relationship

"Wanting to spend time with your partner is wonderful. If you didn't want to spend time with them, there would be a problem with your relationship. But, a relationship isn't exciting when you don't have new things to share with your partner. When you spend time apart, you are able to come home and tell your partner about your day. But, when you spend every moment together, you have nothing new to share with each other. You may also notice that the joy of spending every moment with each will begin to wear thin. This is because each partner will enjoy different things. Yes, you will have common interests, or you wouldn't be together. But, women may want to watch chick flicks, while men want to restore and old car. The time you spend apart will be rewarding. But, if you don't spend time apart, you could ruin what you have. To put things simply, you have to be able to have fun on your own before you can begin to enjoy having fun with someone else. Depending on someone else for your happiness is not healthy.

Okay, now that I've explained some of the downsides of spending too much time together, let's move on to what you can gain from spending time apart. First of all, spending time apart allows you to never take your partner for granted. When you spend time apart, you have time to actually miss your partner. Even if you just work at different jobs, it will be rewarding for your relationship. When you get home at the end of the day, you will have so much to share with each other. There is an old saying, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." When you spend time apart, you ache for your partner. You long for the next moment that you'll be together. This is something that can only be achieved through spending time apart." 
- Amy Brantley

Going to school, attending lessons together, hang out with same group of friends, seeing each other at least 5 days a week, doing every shit together... No wonder... Feels kind of pity & unfair, but... Oh well... Wish I can turn back the hands of time... Haha... Guess her next one might just turn out pretty well  (,:

The right wrong person

“We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way.

But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems—the ones that make you truly who you are—that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person—someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have.”

–Galway Kinnell

Under or overvalued

2 methods to find Book Value (or Net Assets Value)

Method 1
Market capitalization / Total equity
= (Current stock price X Outstanding shares) / Total equity
= Book value

Method 2

1. Book value per share = Total equity / Outstanding shares
2. Price-to-book ratio = Current stock price / Book value per share

"A P/B ratio of less than 1.0 can indicate that a stock is undervalued, while a ratio of greater than 1.0 may indicate that a stock is overvalued."

We only live once

Down with Marketing Communication, 3 more to go! AMCA is seriously a pain in the ass... 

Anyway, I read the article about Dr Richard Teo. Got to admit, I didn't know about his existence until last night when I read the article and it has probably gone viral by now; over Facebook and the net.

Do read up the article or passage, whatever you want to call it, if you see it on your wall, can even do a Google search, totally worth the time.

Towards the end of the article, he quoted this, from the book, "Tuesday with Morries",

"Everyone knows that they are going to die; every one of us knows that. The truth is, none of us believe it because if we did, we will do things differently. When I faced death, when I had to, I stripped myself off all stuff totally and I focused only on what is essential. The irony is that a lot of times, only when we learn how to die then we learn how to live."

The hard truth. 

RIP Dr Richard Teo.

Act of Valor

"So live your life that the fear of death can never enter your heart.
Trouble no one about their religion;
respect others in their view, and demand that they respect yours.
Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life.
Seek to make your life long and its purpose in the service of your people.
Prepare a noble death song for the day when you go over the great divide.
Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend,
even a stranger, when in a lonely place.
Show respect to all people and grovel to none.
When you arise in the morning give thanks for the food and for the joy of living.
If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself.
Abuse no one and no thing, for abuse turns the wise ones to fools
and robs the spirit of its vision.
When it comes your time to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled
with the fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep
and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way.
Sing your death song and die like a hero going home."
- Tecumseh

F U-nny PEOPLE

Tonight, I shall sacrifice my reading time to talk about people. There is a minority of us who always act like others owe them big time. Taking advantage of people whom they know will go their way, throwing tantrum at least 20 times a week over little things.

And when people ask them to stop being so fucked up(nicely), they simply push the blame to other things like this or that screwed their day up, etc. But please get this straight my dear(s), NOBODY FUCKING OWE YOU(ALL) FOR WHAT YOU(ALL)'VE BEEN THROUGH! IT MAY BE SOMETHING UNFAIR, BUT IS IT FAIR FOR YOU(ALL) TO ACT ALL BIG FUCK AND CAUSE UNHAPPINESS & INCONVENIENCE TO OTHERS!?

And the best part is you(all) said that nobody cares for you(all) cause no-one actually asked why are you(all) acting like this. BUT WHAT THE FUCK MAN!? Like hell we know whats going on if you(all) don't say!? SEE! THIS IS THE PROBLEM, YOU(ALL) EXPECT PEOPLE TO GO YOUR WAY AND NOW EVEN TO READ YOUR THOUGHTS!?

Then if you(all) want some sympathy from your friends or whoever, please act like you(all) deserve it. Like, if you(all) need company cause you(all)'re feeling bad, why get all boiled up just because they can't be there at that point of time and do shit that pushes them further? Please be more sensible to understand that they may have something to attend to at that time.

Lastly, I want to clarify that this entry is not directed at any individual(s) or group(s). Its purely for self-realization & enlightenment purpose. But if you feel otherwise, then I think its time you(all) wake up your fucking ideas. Peace.

What does NS mean to you?

National service may be nothing but a waste of time to many. As a recruit, you'll have absolutely nothing. Everything is controlled; meals time, pee time, sleeping time, basically everything. So girls out there, don't ever fucking break up with your boy during his BMT days, do it after that.

NS is filled with "first times", and at the same time probably the last. Trust me, NS is the only place you will ever eat biscuits with your hands full of camouflage cream and mud. Its the only place you get to throw live grenade, carry a rifle and fire live rounds. Its no-doubt a valuable once in a life time experience.

What I've gone through is nothing compared to many others, but it can't be explained with mere words, one has to serve to understand. NS taught us to be punctual, work as a team and be responsible. Although I've always been a punctual person, but in NS, it doesn't mean a thing for 1 man to be punctual.

NS allow us to meet many different people from all walks of life. You'll meet true friends that will always cover your ass no matter how much it stinks. But at the same time, you'll meet fuckers that you know you'll disappear from after BMT. You'll probably also discover how small Singapore is, how people are related to one another.

So what exactly what does NS mean to me? Simple. It means stepping out of my comfort zone, become a more responsible man and acquire the relevant skills to protect my country when required. Although my role in the SAF may not be very big, but SAF itself is made up of the effort from every individual, regardless huge or small.

So if I were given choice, I will still choose to serve.

Love & Life, Albert Einstein

A little wordy, but every line counts. Take the time. Give a damn, at least for once.

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man you love but with the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but ever too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.

You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn’t mean you failed in love.

Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life: One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive. No past so bitter that love cannot accept and no love so little that we cannot start all over with.