If I were to be a clothing brand, I'd be Undefeated.

So I went for my first interview today. The first step into the "real-world"? Maybe not... Now that I'm here, I actually wished that my "real-world" started on the day I received my O-level results. Oops, no more talks on "regrets"! Haha... My point is that I was too short-sighted in the past. So young ones, remember, it's always good to have goals, but "a goal without a plan is just a wish". (Can't wait to impart all these wisdom to my children, if I'll ever have any that is, ahahaha!)

Back to the interview: got to admit that I wasn't prepared, & of course, got owned. Haha, didn't expect interviews to be like this though. Well, I'm fresh and green, or rather I was, because I definitely gained some insight from this experience... However, being fresh & green is a bad excuse for this failure, I must buck up!

Still level 1, but I'm on my way there.

I guess it's good to meet some tough interviewers at the start (maybe they aren't tough, just that I'm too noob, hahaha). And I know there are tougher ones out there, but at least I now roughly know how to react next time if meet with similar situation.

Got to man the fuck up! It's a cold and harsh world out there! Hope I can manage the next one... Good thing I have awesome and supportive friends who I know will always get my back, especially those who provided me with valuable advices, aided me with my job search & wished me luck! Thank you all! (Particularly the clovers, big thanks) ;D - Why did I sounded like I already secured a job? Hahahaha! Long way to go!

Do nature really take its course?

Sometimes I really wonder why do I write down my thoughts and shits here. I mean it doesn't solve anything right? Oops, that's my realism acting up again. Haha, guess everybody needs to rant sometime, be it to another or at some place.

Realised that I tend to get excited over little things before further clarifications. And this has probably lead up to much of the disappointments I had in life. Maybe I'm overly optimistic... Haha, didn't know being optimistic can be a bad thing. Oh wait, overly is the problem! Remember? Too much of anything is no good! Haha... Actually, I'm not even sure if I'm an optimistic person to begin with :D

Sigh, I'm so confused. Things could've been so much simpler... Oh well, "could've been", "if only", screw these words! I shall grab myself some coffee! ... Maybe not, else I might end up counting cows tonight :D

"Life's a game made for everyone. And love is a prize."

It's over

So it's finally over. Took my B2B paper this afternoon. Feels easy, but I'm not sure. I mean we can never be too sure in life can we? All I can say is that shit happens. Haha.

So what's next? Find a job, work, earn some money, then what? Travel the world, buy nice cars, maybe a house few years down. Then what? All these mean nothing if there isn't someone worthy to share it with. A soul mate, a companion who we can share our happiness & joy, sorrow or grief with. Reminds me of the song "If I ain't got you" by Alicia Keys :D

Don't know why I'm having all these thoughts all of sudden. What does it takes to know if someone is truly "the one" for us? I guess it isn't simple & time is probably the only way. The risk involved is huge though, because time, once gone, will never return. But that is what growing up is about right?

Seems like I still have lots to learn & experience in life. How naive & silly (:

Is boredom all that awaits me?

Alright, we're done with Strategic Marketing. Left with B2B, which will be on this coming Tuesday. Not much confident with my Strategic Marketing though... Insufficient time and I hope my answers weren't too descriptive (considering that the professor is expecting analytical answers). Oh well, what is done is done. B2B... Sigh, feels equally lost.

I really wonder what awaits me on the weekends after all these are over. The thought of it makes me feel so lonely... But thinking back, wasn't I on my own for around 21 years of my life?  Haha... Yes I was & still am. So I guess I'll be just fine... Maybe I should stop thinking so much. Who knows, my job might requires me to work on weekends, or I'll have colleagues to hang out with! Hoo-ray! Or I might just run into the girl of my life tomorrow. Or the day after tomorrow. Or the day after, after tomorrow. Or the day after, after, after tomorrow... Or the day after... ... ... ... ... ... ... Wait, why am I sounding like I have no friends? Hahaha!

Approximately 23 days away from paradise! Can't wait!

"Sometimes in life when you get what you want, you end up missing what you left behind."

What do you do when you feel like crap?

What should I do when I feel like shit at such hour?

• Drown myself with whiskey?
• Go for a night jog, walk or cycle? - No, it makes me feel more alone.
• Ask friends out to chill? - No, it'd be weird cause I have nothing to say.
• Study? - No mood. I know, we won't accomplish anything if we only work on days we feel good. I know.
• Write a FB/Twitter status? - Haha... I'd like to. But it's pointless. 90% of the people doesn't care & the other 10% are glad that I feel like shit. Is that it? Haha... Although I still do sometimes... & I should stop...
• Cry? - Later when I'm on my bed, cry myself to sleep. Haha.
• Write a blog post? - Yes, I need to rant, complain, confide, whatever you call it, to this cyber space because it won't give me any advices that I already know. Maybe you are thinking why don't I make this private? I don't know either, should I? Maybe some part of me wants to share my thoughts and feelings... Or simply because I need some fucking attention. Yes, it must be the case cause I realised that I didn't blog much when I had the full attention of someone until few weeks back, which was when this blog came back to life.

& why do I feel like shit? Cause I kind of took a ride down memory lane today. Too many places for me to handle in a day I suppose...

I didn't really think of myself as a victim. I just see myself as a man who lost something valuable & I don't blame anyone for it. I just wish that I can feel/be as happy as I was before I lost that something... That's all. But how is the question... (I know, we don't get what we wish for, we get what we work for.)

Anyway, went to Yahava this afternoon for some quality flat white. You don't find flat white in Starbucks or Coffee Bean because it's originated from Australia & New Zealand (the other 2 from the USA - duh).

Haven't been there for awhile...

Went to this Ssikkek Korean Grill BBQ located at the basement of Novena Square for dinner. An impromptu decision. Yes, I know I'm tight on cash, but... I still went ahead anyway, haha... Was $28 after GST and service charge. Decent place I must say... Reminded me of that time when we had the Hotpot Culture at Marina Square.

First round.

Sliced beef!

Wrap the meat, apply the sauce & yummy!

I know, this doesn't look appetizing at all.

Chicken wrap. Yes, looks like crap too due to my poor wrapping skill.
But the chicken is very well marinated.

Don't know what meat is this... Just eat!

Cooked beef slice. I know, looks like tree bark or skin of some reptile...
Probably due to my poor photography skill this time.

Cook this rib-eye medium rare. Taste great.

Was a real quick day for me, over in the blink of an eye... Oh well, nothing else to say, goodnight.

First time in 3 years.

Today is the first time in 3 years that I did not see her for an entire week or 7 days. Oh well, there is always a first time for everything right?

Why do I still think about stuffs like this? Have I not gotten over it? Sigh... Guess it's not as easy as I thought. Feels so pathetic...

Moving forward but still miss the past a little

10 days to Strategic Marketing and 16 to Business to Business Marketing papers. I am so not ready. Hope I'll be by then. Can't believe I missed out on some of the reading materials, will be going back to school and have them printed tomorrow.

Was digging through my drawer just now and found this Neoprint.

Hahaha... Brings back memories don't it? Remember this was taken during a Chinese New Year shopping trip at *SCAPE. Seems like what I posted few days back was true.

"Most of the time, I let myself forget, because it's easier. But then I find something... ... And the full weight of what's been lost comes crashing down on me."

Well, I'm sure I have moved on because this feeling is very different from what I felt few weeks back. Like when I see people post stuffs on FB about Taipei or some places we had been to, I do think about the moments when we were there. But I don't feel sad. I just... Kind of miss those moments, and at the same time glad that they happened. It's like a bitter sweet emotion I guess...

To be honest, I'm kind of afraid... Afraid that I'd go back to those days before I met her. Those empty days... Just living... Haha, guess it's good that I know of this 'fear' right? Then at least I can do something about it (:

Current priorities: Clear the examination! Get a job with decent prospect! Make it to and back from Boracay!

It's worth it.

Woooo! My Ultimate Ears Mobile Boombox is here! Time to enjoy some quality music :D

Last lecture of Bachelor Degree

 "It might be the final lecture, but definitely not the final lesson in life."

So today marks the end of my journey as a student. Well, it's not exactly the end, still have examination for 2 modules and 1 project to clear. But on 10th of October 2013, I attended the last lecture of my university life. From here on, we should only cherish the memories we had, the laughter, the fun and the little moments. From here on, we should keep moving forward. The endless opportunities out there awaiting us, seize them all! (:

Great picture. Stay tight!

We've come a long way my friends. Oh wait, 2 years plus aren't that long right? Haha... Guess I'm real fortunate to have met all these great people out of the entire cohort. Or maybe I didn't know them well enough to see their dark side? Hahahaha! Just playing...We all have a good heart. We do. May everything goes well for all. Peace. (:

New phone: Xperia Z1

So I finally got myself a new phone. Still trying very hard to get used to it. Feels great to have a larger screen! But it's kind of bright, despite adjustin the brightness to the lowest. And I'm writing this post with it! Haha!

So switching to android means goodbye to the game I used to play, Hayday. It wasn't just a game for me though. It was a bridge between someone very special and me. But I guess it's time to move on... And not forgetting Sims 3 of course :)

Somehow I miss the feeling of how I used to crack my head every Saturday and Friday nights, trying to think of places to go & things to do... But still ended up hanging out with our friends, doing nothing but chill in the neighborhood most of the time... Yeah, thinking back,  guess I was quite a failure, haha...

I want to sleep, but I can't... Bio clock is so screwed up... And this stupid fullstop button is so near to the space bar button, making me hit on the dot so much! Haha! & I seriously need to stop using my phone in the dark!
(oops, title didn't quite fit, only 1 paragraph out of the 4 is about the phone, ahahaha!)