"This is what every girl wishes they could say to their greatest heartbreaker"

This is a marvelous piece of work from the Thought Catalogy. I'd like to say these words to my heart breaker too, does that make me a girl? Haha. What a cold and windy Sunday, Brrrr... Suddenly feel so sick of all the lies people had told me, even if it's for my own good. Or was it to protect their own skin? I don't know, & better not to.

"I think you know how you broke my heart and how much pain you’ve caused. I was too scared to admit that you almost broke everything about me. I actually didn’t have time to think about your feelings when we broke up. I was busy trying to bounce back, living one day at a time. I’ve seen this a thousand times. I’ve seen how girls broke down after a painful breakup.We were friends and you know my story. I was the happy go lucky girl who didn’t believe in commitments, labels, promises, all those things they say about falling in love. I was skeptical about everything.

I built this very high wall to protect myself. I had all kinds of girl issues! All these things changed when I met you. I allowed you to affect me. I let you label me (as a girlfriend). I obeyed you. I agreed to your terms. I compromised. I settled. You became my life. My love.

I was so sure about us. I was so ready to make everything right this time. No more walls, issues, and setbacks. I was determined to never commit the same mistakes again. I loved you so much. I allowed you to be part of everything about me.

So when things didn’t work out, my world collapsed. From Day 1, I decided to fight for you. You were a lot to lose, like I told you, so I just waited. I believe I was never the clingy-needy type so I just waited for you on the sidelines, waiting for you to come back. But you didn’t. You moved on without saying a word. It was so hard for me to recover. I didn’t think I would still have a chance to be extremely happy. The hardest to let go were the memories: our laughter, our sweet nothings, our adventures, and misadventures. I believe we had so much fun together. The hardest part was accepting that you’re gone and we won’t have that much fun anymore.

I guess I really loved you too much that I forced myself to cut everything and just let you be happy. I let you move on. I just trained myself to accept everything wholeheartedly. I tried to be happy for you. Well I did become happy for you, in the long run. I was okay, in the long run.

Looking back, I still believe everything was worth it. I was happiest to be with you. I wouldn’t change anything. So I still want to thank you. Thank you for all our adventures and misadventures, everything I learned from you. Everything was worth every tear. And thank God I learned to get a hold of myself even if my world was crumbling to pieces. You made me realize that I still love myself. I also hope you find the peace, success, and love you deserve."  - By REJ TANAEL