4 random things and many kites

1) I think humans need to be more compassionate. Like myself, I don't feel much sense of sympathy unless shit happened on myself.

2) Everytime I hear the phrase, "holding his hand", images flash through my mind like passing traffic. Images that I have no desire to see.

3) I've been a Los Angeles Lakers fan since 2000 and I know they are going to be the champion again this year! Game 2 tomorrow, hail Kobe!

4) I just completed all 4 movies of Rambo and I wish I'm him. He is brave, righteous and sexy.

After balling, we sat in the coffee shop and Andrew suggested we go kite flying at Marina Barrage. With his impressive skill of persuasion, which I believe he used to win the heart of countless girls, or cheat in some cases, whatever, we decided to head there.

The weather is so fucking hot that we had to cover ourselves with the picnic mat while waiting for shutter bus. Now I know how having a car brings you chicks @#$@&

Went for snacks and AC the first thing we did.

I think there were about 30 to 40 kites in the sky that day. A wonderful sight.

Setting up; Andrew with his "train-kite".

"2 KTs spotted! I repeat, 2 KTs spotted!"

The idiotic ballers that decided to come. I love the sky, its as beautiful as you.

Ya, ya, continue laughing at me, I know I'm a joke.

I'll make a great dad.

A bird, a plane or... Probably just a kite...

This is what I call chill!

I'm glad you can't read minds,
else you'll find me hating you more and more each day.

Realism at its best

This world is real, and fucked up and the saddest part is we have to live it. Deaths are real; people die and never return. Money is real; you can buy almost everything. Feelings are real too. & I'm stupid enough to have only understood it recently.

- For example, when you tell a girl to take care of herself because there's this stupid flu around recently, she will probably say, "thanks, you take care too" or pull some joke out of it. But in her mind, she must be thinking, "are you nuts? As if I give a damn bout your words and that bloody flu."
On the other hand, when the guy she has a crush on tells her the exact same thing, her reply might be the same, but in her mind... Its definitely, "awww so sweet! He actually cares for me!"

Hahaha, well, I guess not everyone is like that. Probably just 20% of the population... ... Are not :D

You're so beautiful June.

"Eventually, through porn, we discovered what we like, what we don't like, and shit we thought we didn't like, but secretly do."

Yeah! The 2nd batch of DBE cohort has officially graduated! That includes me of course. Haven't received my diploma though, got to find time to collect from school.

It finally rained today after 1000 hours of hard warm sunshine. Getting lazy and lazier each day... The only thing I'm looking forward to is probably enlistment... & maybe all the interesting shits along the way :D hahaha, ok, what I just said didn't make sense.

I just read something which is so damn true!

"When given the choice, most girls would rather spend their night with their man, doing something together than hanging out with their girlfriends. Sure, it’s fun to hang out with your girls once in a while but I’d say that the balance is about 80/20 in favor of spending time with their man.

Guys on the other hand, are 50/50 when it comes to choosing between spending time with his girl or his boys. If a guy really really likes a girl, it might be 51/49 in her favor."

Whoever don't agree, please wash your face with water from toilet bowl cause its so effing real!

Oh, and I tried running while listening to Rocky Balboa's OST, it fucking works! Or maybe its because I've watched Rocky I, II, III and IV. A truly inspiring series of films.

Happiness is not to be, until...

Its June. 2009 is half way there. & tonight, something came to me, and made me wonder... You see... I was wondering... Just wondering... If she thinks of me sometime.

So when you're happy, remember me. Because when you're happy, I am too, I am happy...
For you.

I can't remember when was the last time I laughed till I cried.
He is right. When things get competitive, people will be happy no more.

Bye.

Urban mirage

Black tiny shorts, slim white top and a patterned sling bag. Seemed like a perfect replica of a familiar figure, one I haven't seen in awhile. I hasten my steps for a closer look, but the crowd forbids me. Managed to steal glimpse between shoulders and spotted a bangles clouded arm. I was certain, but those fine wavy hair made it hard to judge. My heart raced like a speeding bullet as I dug through the human waves but she seemed like an unreachable intention. & it didn't take long before she faded away into the crowded street...

Grumble bubble

I went for a 60 minutes massage at JB and its only RM$65, do the math yourself to find out how fucking cheap it is.

Crabbing at Sembawang park has become my favorite chill out activity. But walking on the shallow shore, catching crabs with a pair of tongs, that is the bomb. Can come across some cool creatures too.

Sembawang park has real clear water during high tide. Check those horseshoe crabs out man, making love on our northern beach, under the sparkling stars, lovely! :D

The work of itchy hands and legs. Those stings can be fatal.

Up close! Kinda freaky...
Wikipedia: "the horseshoe crab has blue blood, as it uses copper rather than iron as the base of its system."
Now, thats what I call COOL!

Took my graduation photos today at Pixal Culture(do check it out) today. Its basically a studio you can rent for photo taking.

Well, if anyone been wondering, thank you, I'm fine, life's fine. I've yet to find a soulmate, a lover, but it feels like I've everything else. I have awesome friends to hang out with, plenty of time before serving the country, a warm family, I'm healthy and well-built(kinda short though), someone to take me out at night for little outings. Oh, money, thats something I lack. but you know they say money is never enough? Its true. Guess I'll just live with what I have for now.

Hmm... Maybe I need a car. I realised that a car is totally essential. It bestows you the ability to bring people(probably chicks) out for good food or chill out. This conveniency will definitely make things easier, imagining getting to places without changing between MRT and bus or 20 different buses. Its like half the time, triple the ease. Therefore, the higher the conveniency, the easier to hook up chicks. Haha sounded like what I wrote during science classes in primary school.

Ok, I think this is enough for a night of self-condolence and bitterness. Peace out.


P.S. I'm still not over you.

Adventure ride @ Pulau Ubin

Ubin was fun! It was insane and definitely not for the weak. Slopes more than 50 degrees are everywhere in that insane bike trail! Don't be surprised to find yourself steering pass rocks and cycling at the edge of a cliff.

Raindrops keep falling on my head...

"Aiya, take a pee relax first la"

Where it all begins...

This can easily be passed off as a more gentle slop in the trail.

Deadly down slope.

Thats right, fall through these grass and you're fucked.

The trail goes around this quarry.

Check my kicks! Urban ninja :D ahaha!

And we had Hiang Peng crashing. Don't misunderstood, he's one hell of a rider. The reason for this accident is because he has too many balls to spare.

Check those marks of a warrior(or rider in this case) out! I honestly don't mind having some, ahaha!

Then we made our way to the nearest exit to the main road, and I'm glad we found it. Chilled out a little at the hunt.

And we're made our way to dinner!

Look! I ain't emo tonight!

The weather is so effing warm these days. But its okay, I enjoy summer time, lying on a beach bench by the pool side, with that glorious sun all over me, yum, yum. If anyone been wondering what I've been doing, well... I skate, cycle, crab, workout and enjoy! Sometimes I really wonder if I'm living my life without worries or I had been worrying too much that I gave up doing it.

Night At The Museum 2 was alright. I've watched too many actions and thrillers & this movie came just about time to get me laid back a little. Anyway, its really an alright film, do catch it if you're as free as me. Some parts are real funny while others a little draggy and lame. But I guess its the kind of mood we should bring into the theater; lame and fun.

I don't believe in males, I don't believe they have the ability to love. I feel that all of us are just looking for somethings that can only be found in the opposite gender, something that can cure that loneliness, something physical. Maybe I'm just bitter; maybe I've lost faith in love. You see, that's the problem with me, having too much doubts and uncertainties about insignificant things.

Heading to Ubin again tomorrow, we're gonna conquer the forest, drift through hills and embrace the nature! FTW!

When we don't know who to hate, we hate ourselves.

You're not unforgettable; you're just stuck in my head.
Its time to accept the fact that people will walk into your life, be nice to you, until the time they find someone nicer than you to be nice with.

我恨自己，恨自己太痴情。

Is chastity still important to woman of the 21st century? That's something to think about.

Lost in myself

I can't believe I got retrenched. Looks like they don't need anymore silly health care assistants. Don't know if I should describe my life as carefree or empty and bored. Except money and love, there really isn't anything else to worry about, in fact, I shouldn't even be bothered by what love bullshit. I'm too lazy, unmotivated and uninspired to do anything.

I'm losing control of myself. I know I shouldn't be like this, but just can't help it. I can't look into those beautiful eyes no more.

Smile, forever.

Stop & Stare? How bout Skate & Fall? :D

"... ... Cause every time I hear your voice, smiling becomes an involuntary reflex."

Is this considered not safe for work?

Some of the people I've been hanging out with.

When you have someone who is out of love near fire, it turns purple.
As if.

When will I see your face again

Here I am, everyday,
since you said, you'd come again,
But it's not fair, cause you're not here,
I wait in vain, but nothing has changed.

I'm a flower, soaking in the rain,
If I could wish one thing, I'd hear you call my name.

Little thing, like the rain coming,
she looked at me a certain kind of way,
tell me girl, where are you now,
cause I don't know how much longer I can wait.

I'm a dreamer, waiting for the sun,
when you're coming in, I know my life's begun,
tell me girl...

When will I see your face again?
when will you touch my life again?
when will I breathe you in again?
I think I love you, will I see your face again?

You know that all my life I've been waiting,
waiting for someone, someone like you to love me,
you can't come by like an angel, into my life,
and then fly away.

When will I see your face again my friend?
I think you got to let me know...

Can't believe I went to SSDC at 8a.m. but the slot I booked was actually 8p.m. What's wrong with me, this isn't the kind of mistake I would make. Maybe I left some part of me there...

Lie to me once again

I think the problem with me is that I've been too truthful, that I haven't lied enough.

I feel so numb. Like I can't feel love no more.

Went skating at East Coast Park. Was more fun than expected. Guess its all these little outing with friends that made life easier. Isn't it funny when you haven't seen someone for just 7 days and it felt like months?

Nature is never bad

Why do I feel that there are lots of rich man's son out there attracting all the chicks, leaving none for the poor me? Low self esteem )': haha.

Anyway, went Palau Ubin today. It was fun, we'll be back.

I've so much to say, but can't seems to find the right words, the right time and the right place. Guess I don't got the right to be saying anything in the first place.

I'm angry now

Don't play, play, I'm a Health Care Assistant :D

I want to work! I'm so mad tonight cause they told me I was scheduled to work on Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday on Tuesday, but it turned out I wasn't! I won't be working on Friday and have to wait to see if I'm needed on the weekends, fucked up!

You can't feel anything what your heart don't want to feel. Well, I get the best feeling in the world when this girl looks or even laughs at me because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed her mind. Haha, I still feel bitter at times, but you're right my dear friend, I'm better than this. I'm better than feeling bitter and depressed over things like this.

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Save me...

I realize I have been very unhappy since... I can't even remember. Nothing seems to bring joy. Nothing. I've lost it all. Even the only thing that I thought could make me happy seems to bring more sorrow than joy.

I think I'm suffering from depression. Is this how depression is? Like everyone has forsaken me, nothing seems to fit, everything feels so meaningless and pointless. When someone talks, it feels like flies buzzing around my ears, irritating me. And every other minute, I'm thinking of a reason to make myself feel worst.

Happiness, where'd you go? Cause I'm on the verge of giving up on life.

Way I Too Feel This

Happy Birthday Qing Hui!

Just a simple steamboat at Bugis.

Me too. I often find myself looking for reasons to my feeling, asking myself why am I holding on to something that don't seems to care so tightly. That cheerfulness somehow offered me the ability to love even from afar, so unconditionally.
No... The truth is that there is a tiny bit of my heart hoping for something in return. This love is funny, it drains me of sadness and at the very same time fills me with sorrow.
"I've got a heart full of love, yet I don't feel any. So why, in the world do I still care?" -

The Final Act

Communicating do tear down walls. I guess certain things can never change, haha!

I wouldn't say I'm wholeheartedly happy, but still glad because my friend said she will take care of herself and... ... Haha, whatever, but remember, a promise is a promise.
Although I find it hard to believe, but I'll stand by this word called trust cause to me, you are just you, nothings ever gonna a thing about it.

: )

Its a good day

And the most miserable part is whenever I think of her, I have to tell myself that she already belongs to someone else.

Be gone

They say a woman in love looks more radiant and beautiful. Its true afterall...

If I can have 1 wish right now... Just 1 wish, no matter how unreal, impossible and ridiculous... ...
I wish that all the feelings I have for her to disappear the next time I wake up.

Filling up my empty days with red wine
Wonder what you think of me?
Lying in the grass alone & wasted
Nothing's how it used to be

I wanna be the first to call and tell you
yesterday I heard the news
I hear you ought to be congratulated
So I guess that's what I'll do

I'm so happy for you
I could cry
Yeah, I'm so elated
Cross my heart and hope to die
I don't think about you everynight
before I close my eyes.
I'm so happy for you baby,
I could cry.

Listen to the sound of my head pounding
Wish that it was make-believe
Praying for the skies to open up and
Wash away your memory

I can walk around with a pretty face on
Even when I'm black and blue
What's the point in telling everyone
I'm not over you.

Enlistment Letter, in! & Prawning

Prawning! Other than the sense of accomplishment when you hook those damn prawns up, its nothing much really. Maybe its more meaningful if you have a girlfriend that eat prawns like crackers, haha. Anyway we paid $29 for 2.5 hours but managed to steal an extra 30 minutes, cause the person in charge was chilling with his friends and forgot the time, haha.

Thats right, only managed to catch 8 pathetic prawns, these are part of them.

Check out those eggs! And I think pregnant ones are more aggressive.

Cook!

Cooked. But I think we didn't cook them well, kinda watery.

Caught in act! Hahahaha! Its an interesting way the HDB uses to protect the citizens, ahahaha!

Enlistment letter received! 24th July 2009, Friday 1pm! I'm be going to Tekong for 7 weeks! But only undergoing Modified BMT. Yeah, Modified sounds cool, but its actually for non-combat fits ahaha! Not to be exact, I'm left with 3 months... Sounding so far, feeling so near.

Wonder what you think of me

Caught Sniper the other day. Was a ok movie, could have been better. Strangely, I don't find Edison as cool as I used to think he was haha!

Fast & Furious 4 is awesome! I think its better than the previous 3 episodes. I like the way they create a storyline that revolves around cars and races, yet not making these 2 the main point of the film. And the actors in it, they are all hot. Hahaha!

Left with Taken and Knowing to go! And when is my enlistment letter coming! Haha, not that I wanna enlist as soon as possible, just that I want to get it done and over with. Moreover... There isn't much left for me to say and do...

Live life like how it should be

Today is a wonderful day! Although not so wonderful to begin with. We balled for about 40 minutes in the morning before a huge rain disrupted our game... But its ok, we chilled around before heading home at noon.

Those people that know me probably always hear me say I'm dining home, my mum's cooking today, blablabla... So today, I shall share my dinner right here :D ahahaha!

This is it! My healthy and green dinner!

First, we have seaweed with minced pork soup! Its one of my favorite home-cooked soup.

Next! I don't know whats the name of the green vegetable, but the yellowish stuffs are definitely eggs, ahaha! Stating the obvious ('-')"

Sampal Kangkong! One of my favorite vegetable! Not too spicy though, can't take the heat!

Ok, thats all for the day, hope the rain won't fall tomorrow morning, else I'll have to kill somebody :D haha.

& I somehow found faith through this obscure moment. Thanks, I'm back.

2 out of 4 new shopping malls cleared

I finally understood the song, "You're beautiful, its true. I saw your face, in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do, cause I'll never be with you..."

Anyway, went to Tampines 1 on its first day(Thursday) of operation with Kenneth. It was pretty crowded, guess its because Good Friday falls on the next day. They have quite a number of stores, ranging from fashion boutiques, accessories, restaurants, IT, etc. Basically anything you want. Uniqlo is probably the ace shop of the mall. The queue was ridiculous. We queued for about 15 minutes before we get to enter the shop. Got to be the price & quality that attracted people from all walks of life.

This picture only shows 1/20 of the people.

While loitering around today, we came across the new shopping mall at Bugis. The exterior should be no stranger to most.

You can actually see words moving across the mall.

The design of the ceiling.

They have Manhattan Fish Market!

The view from the arcade.

And check this out! UFO Catcher, what a name... And you can grab Tamiya's 4WD! Ahahaha!

Are you effing serious? 6 tokens?!

What a name! Otaku! Ahahaha!

Its a nice mall overall. They have a cinema at the top level too. And we saw this K-suits which is not opened yet, wonder what it is... The fashion there is alright, the usual kind you'll find around Bugis(not Haji, haha).

The warriors of the day! Without Xing Lun that is, he is an east side ranger.

And isn't this cool? Ahahaha! Well, at least to me...

I'm lost tonight, last night & probably every other night.

I really need you here tonight

Its funny. I'm feeling heart broken from a love I never had. I thought about it the whole of last night and decided that this bullshit can't go on, this meaningless and exhausting struggle within myself. But today, along this route, I somehow find it hard to smile. I don't know what to do... I just hate it when some people make things look so easy... Maybe I need mercy from above.

Gran Torino is a good show, do catch it. Several movies that I wanna watch are out, but can't find the right moment to catch them.

And we randomly bought a 猫山王 durian. I thought that dude said $10 per kg, so I said ok, but it turned out to be $18/kg. Haha, so we ended up paying $45 for it. What a joke.

Finding someone you love is easy. But finding one who loves you back can be harder than a 1000 miles run. Well, at least for me. I just can't help but feel sorry for myself. I'm beginning to hate myself alittle, beginning to lose faith in everything...

Why the fuck do I have so little pictures on these days...

The truth, the lies & the silly heartaches

You said you kept it from me to save me from all the pain and silly heartaches. But I wonder why am I feeling worst than what could have been bad...
Am I just an unworthy fool, or perhaps a coward, who can't withstand and accept this bitter truth to those eyes? Heh... I think I am. For the fact that the air smelled sour and bitter at the very same time.

Chalet was great. I treasured every moment, may talk about it another time.