Lost in myself

I can't believe I got retrenched. Looks like they don't need anymore silly health care assistants. Don't know if I should describe my life as carefree or empty and bored. Except money and love, there really isn't anything else to worry about, in fact, I shouldn't even be bothered by what love bullshit. I'm too lazy, unmotivated and uninspired to do anything.

I'm losing control of myself. I know I shouldn't be like this, but just can't help it. I can't look into those beautiful eyes no more.