The Final Act

Communicating do tear down walls. I guess certain things can never change, haha!

I wouldn't say I'm wholeheartedly happy, but still glad because my friend said she will take care of herself and... ... Haha, whatever, but remember, a promise is a promise.
Although I find it hard to believe, but I'll stand by this word called trust cause to me, you are just you, nothings ever gonna a thing about it.

: )

Its a good day

And the most miserable part is whenever I think of her, I have to tell myself that she already belongs to someone else.

Be gone

They say a woman in love looks more radiant and beautiful. Its true afterall...

If I can have 1 wish right now... Just 1 wish, no matter how unreal, impossible and ridiculous... ...
I wish that all the feelings I have for her to disappear the next time I wake up.

Filling up my empty days with red wine
Wonder what you think of me?
Lying in the grass alone & wasted
Nothing's how it used to be

I wanna be the first to call and tell you
yesterday I heard the news
I hear you ought to be congratulated
So I guess that's what I'll do

I'm so happy for you
I could cry
Yeah, I'm so elated
Cross my heart and hope to die
I don't think about you everynight
before I close my eyes.
I'm so happy for you baby,
I could cry.

Listen to the sound of my head pounding
Wish that it was make-believe
Praying for the skies to open up and
Wash away your memory

I can walk around with a pretty face on
Even when I'm black and blue
What's the point in telling everyone
I'm not over you.

Enlistment Letter, in! & Prawning

Prawning! Other than the sense of accomplishment when you hook those damn prawns up, its nothing much really. Maybe its more meaningful if you have a girlfriend that eat prawns like crackers, haha. Anyway we paid $29 for 2.5 hours but managed to steal an extra 30 minutes, cause the person in charge was chilling with his friends and forgot the time, haha.

Thats right, only managed to catch 8 pathetic prawns, these are part of them.

Check out those eggs! And I think pregnant ones are more aggressive.

Cook!

Cooked. But I think we didn't cook them well, kinda watery.

Caught in act! Hahahaha! Its an interesting way the HDB uses to protect the citizens, ahahaha!

Enlistment letter received! 24th July 2009, Friday 1pm! I'm be going to Tekong for 7 weeks! But only undergoing Modified BMT. Yeah, Modified sounds cool, but its actually for non-combat fits ahaha! Not to be exact, I'm left with 3 months... Sounding so far, feeling so near.

Wonder what you think of me

Caught Sniper the other day. Was a ok movie, could have been better. Strangely, I don't find Edison as cool as I used to think he was haha!

Fast & Furious 4 is awesome! I think its better than the previous 3 episodes. I like the way they create a storyline that revolves around cars and races, yet not making these 2 the main point of the film. And the actors in it, they are all hot. Hahaha!

Left with Taken and Knowing to go! And when is my enlistment letter coming! Haha, not that I wanna enlist as soon as possible, just that I want to get it done and over with. Moreover... There isn't much left for me to say and do...

Live life like how it should be

Today is a wonderful day! Although not so wonderful to begin with. We balled for about 40 minutes in the morning before a huge rain disrupted our game... But its ok, we chilled around before heading home at noon.

Those people that know me probably always hear me say I'm dining home, my mum's cooking today, blablabla... So today, I shall share my dinner right here :D ahahaha!

This is it! My healthy and green dinner!

First, we have seaweed with minced pork soup! Its one of my favorite home-cooked soup.

Next! I don't know whats the name of the green vegetable, but the yellowish stuffs are definitely eggs, ahaha! Stating the obvious ('-')"

Sampal Kangkong! One of my favorite vegetable! Not too spicy though, can't take the heat!

Ok, thats all for the day, hope the rain won't fall tomorrow morning, else I'll have to kill somebody :D haha.

& I somehow found faith through this obscure moment. Thanks, I'm back.

2 out of 4 new shopping malls cleared

I finally understood the song, "You're beautiful, its true. I saw your face, in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do, cause I'll never be with you..."

Anyway, went to Tampines 1 on its first day(Thursday) of operation with Kenneth. It was pretty crowded, guess its because Good Friday falls on the next day. They have quite a number of stores, ranging from fashion boutiques, accessories, restaurants, IT, etc. Basically anything you want. Uniqlo is probably the ace shop of the mall. The queue was ridiculous. We queued for about 15 minutes before we get to enter the shop. Got to be the price & quality that attracted people from all walks of life.

This picture only shows 1/20 of the people.

While loitering around today, we came across the new shopping mall at Bugis. The exterior should be no stranger to most.

You can actually see words moving across the mall.

The design of the ceiling.

They have Manhattan Fish Market!

The view from the arcade.

And check this out! UFO Catcher, what a name... And you can grab Tamiya's 4WD! Ahahaha!

Are you effing serious? 6 tokens?!

What a name! Otaku! Ahahaha!

Its a nice mall overall. They have a cinema at the top level too. And we saw this K-suits which is not opened yet, wonder what it is... The fashion there is alright, the usual kind you'll find around Bugis(not Haji, haha).

The warriors of the day! Without Xing Lun that is, he is an east side ranger.

And isn't this cool? Ahahaha! Well, at least to me...

I'm lost tonight, last night & probably every other night.

I really need you here tonight

Its funny. I'm feeling heart broken from a love I never had. I thought about it the whole of last night and decided that this bullshit can't go on, this meaningless and exhausting struggle within myself. But today, along this route, I somehow find it hard to smile. I don't know what to do... I just hate it when some people make things look so easy... Maybe I need mercy from above.

Gran Torino is a good show, do catch it. Several movies that I wanna watch are out, but can't find the right moment to catch them.

And we randomly bought a 猫山王 durian. I thought that dude said $10 per kg, so I said ok, but it turned out to be $18/kg. Haha, so we ended up paying $45 for it. What a joke.

Finding someone you love is easy. But finding one who loves you back can be harder than a 1000 miles run. Well, at least for me. I just can't help but feel sorry for myself. I'm beginning to hate myself alittle, beginning to lose faith in everything...

Why the fuck do I have so little pictures on these days...

The truth, the lies & the silly heartaches

You said you kept it from me to save me from all the pain and silly heartaches. But I wonder why am I feeling worst than what could have been bad...
Am I just an unworthy fool, or perhaps a coward, who can't withstand and accept this bitter truth to those eyes? Heh... I think I am. For the fact that the air smelled sour and bitter at the very same time.

Chalet was great. I treasured every moment, may talk about it another time.

Fallen, & trying hard to get up

Tonight, I feel weak. Weak in the heart and mind. Thoughts of inferiority & insignificancy, along with unpleasant reveries pulled me down. I need an answer to my unspoken question, I need assurance and affirmation to protect me from this absurd insecurity that I have been feeling since last week.
... And the only place I can find them is either in a place that don't belong to me, or one that I can never reach.
Bitterness steps up to greet me & jealousy, you are my greatest foe.

I was wrong. There is no paradise on earth. Or rather, anywhere is paradise, as long as you're there with me.

I know an angel

How can I ever miss this...

Happy Birthday Wan Jun!

I was worried in the morning due to the rain, but it kinda stopped by the time we reached East Coast Park. Thanks for the grace. I always knew the nature is good. But cycling was pretty tough, I got a freaking sore butt the next day. It felt like blue-black, major blue-black!

Cycling is fun, only with a comfortable seat.

A successful & meaningful day!

I need to go Redang! Laguna Redang Resort is having this real attractive promotional package, but its ending on the 31st of this month! They better have something nice for April, else... I won't know where to go! Ahahaha!

Love & Life, Albert Einstein

A little wordy, but every line counts. Take the time. Give a damn, at least for once.

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man you love but with the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but ever too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.

You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn’t mean you failed in love.

Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life: One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive. No past so bitter that love cannot accept and no love so little that we cannot start all over with.

Freak, I am.

I finally know the reason for my insomnia! Regarding the solution... I'm still trying to figure it out :D

Its not my relationship, but I feel the pain.

And thanks god its Monday.

Just another scary post

Nothing much happened these few days. Went to the IT Show and it was total congestion man. I bet it will be suffocation on weekend.

Was looking through the photographs of 2008 and I never thought this feeling will hit me again. You know that, when you feel lost, empty and starts thinking bout the past, kind of feeling?

Well, at least I know I've met someone who I can never forget this lifetime :]
But... When will I matter? I guess never.

Starry Starry Night

Hi, I've decided to blog in this lonely hour. Tonight was great, except for the wait of our 4 musketeers. I understand that a man should stand by his principles, but a real man will act according to circumstances. Know what I'm saying? No? Doesn't matter, cause its not the highlight of the day.

Well, guess I missed walking so much that I had to take this stroll tonight. Maybe alittle too long for my wounded feet, but nevertheless, a pleasant & enjoyable one. Its just wonderful knowing that you and I are looking at the same starry sky :] hahaha!

Start watch Boys Before Flowers everybody! Its never too late! Korea F4 rocks! Oh, Defiance and Enemy At The Gates are nice too! Do check them out if you're free. For now, let's sleep, had enough of late nights...

Monsoon, you're late

"If it is possible, would you like to know the day you are going to die?"

My answer is yes. I just need to, so that I can make the necessary amendments to my life before dying. I'm a man of regrets. Well, I wouldn't say all the regrets I had so far are serious, just caused me few weeks of sleepless nights and few days of impractical depression.
You're right, I'm a coward who can't make changes.

I can't remember when was the last time I have no oral ulcers. They have been bugging me for months, re-surfacing at different locations... And my body, I feel weaker day after day. Fever, flu and sore throat are regular. Sigh... I've been as healthier as I can, except for sleeping at 2am occasionally. I'm feeling feverish right now... & it got to be the weather, got to be...

Bloody cold.

"Make love! Not war!"

Many times in life, we find ourselves asking what love really is? Well, at least I did. And believe its an absolutely profound question. So I gave it a thought and decided that maybe love is: from the moment you wake up, till you fall asleep, that person never truly left your mind; you'll somehow find yourself relating everything you do to them; you wonder what they are doing every minute of every day; and late at night, while lying on the bed, you'll get too carried away from thinking about the future you 2 can share(though there may be none) that you forget to sleep.
Oh dear... Hope I'm not in love :(

Watched Tears of the Sun moments ago. Its an excellent movie! I just love war films, not because of the mournful death toll, but the act of brotherhood, the will to live and the fight for freedom, justice and peace. I've watched We Were Soldiers, Black Hawk Down and Saving Private Ryan so far, there may be more but these 3 left the deepest impressions. Behind Enemy Lines next, but its kinda late now, so... We'll see.

And the recovery of my feet is progressing well! I can walk, or rather limp, without crutches already! But I'm worried that it may worsen if I do that too much. Sigh... Looks like they are right, time heals all wounds... All I need is time, and maybe a little bit of that specific love ( : peace.

Zhao Yi's birthday @ Sembawang Shopping Centre

L is for the way you looked at me. I wished.

I shall blog tonight since I'm feeling a little over the moon :D and if you're wondering why, well, its partially because I officially went out today! It was Zhao Yi's birthday!

Happy 20th Birthday Zhao Yi!

For the other reason(s)... We'll talk about it next time. Ahahaha! And to anyone out there who cares, if there is any, my feet is recovering well, walking shouldn't be problem in a week or 2's time (hopefully).

I haven't been on the best of luck lately. First, I hurt my feet 1 day before holidays, screwing up all my plans.
The second shit happened last night, when I reached home at around 3:30am, all the lifts kinda jammed and I had to call my homies back to help me go all the way to the 11th floor and get the lifts down. What a thing to happen when my feet is hurt, haha.
Number 3 happened a while ago. Just when I needed to withdraw some cash, all 3 ATMS at the same place went out of service. Maybe I need a lady luck in my life, hahaha!

And talking about love... ... Actually there is nothing to talk about. Ahahaha!

You know, when we always stone around random places, wondering where to go, what to do next, those are the little moments I enjoy. Everybody just crowd around and crap, rather than in restaurants with long ass tables, where communication is close to impossible at both ends.

Tonight is beautiful. But I don't want it to last forever, until you're here with me.

让我心动的人

已好久没有你的消息, 好久都没有和你谈心,
好想念你总爱对我说, 你近来痘痘怎麽那麽多
如今你是否还留长发, 你是否仍每夜迟回家,
你是不是还爱咬指甲? Oh girl 我今夜好想你...
梦, 若和你的一切都是梦, 那为何我会心动
谁, 为了谁, 为了谁心动在分分钟...

Secrets

Does sharing secrets with someone makes us closer? For example, I have this secret that I keep from everyone but only share with this person. It does, right? Yes, it does, I'm positive.

Anyway, I hurt my left wrist and ankle from basketball. Looks like I won't be doing shit for some time. No gym, no motorbike, no basketball, no sentosa, no shits! Let's hope its just serious sprain. If swell don't subside in a week or 2's time, I'll probably need to get a X-ray to see if my bones are fine...

Looks normal?

Compare it with my right feet.

After 24 hours. Ahahaha looks funny.

How does it feels to be special to someone? I want to know.