Posting out from SOA

I got posted to Pasir Laba. Hope the reporting time won't be so early, I really want to wake up abit later in the next 1 year 7 months of my life. I got 47 out of 60 for my retest's MCQ, all I need is 3 more marks from the essay, guess its safe to say that I passed, haha... Man, I'm going to miss all my friends from SOA especially those from Raven Company, Platoon 4... We've come a long way.

Left 4 Dead 2 is fucking tough... Can't believe we can't complete a campaign in Advance mode... Sight... Well, its the challenge that will makes it more interesting right? :D

I'm so tired now... Been awake for 21 hours and the distance I covered today is close to the whole of Singapore, haha... Alright, I shall sleep now, tomorrow will be a better day!

Its good to have something to admire

I just watched 2012! Its a real good film man, don't get why some people think its horrible. Anyway, here's a review:
Like most movie, if you see it with a non-fictional point, it will never ever make sense, for example the escape from LA, haha. The whole movie was quite a thrill ride for me, was trying to anticipate whats going to happen next the whole time. Not much scientific terms used and quite a few scenes touched me :D haha! Do catch it if you have not, worth the time.

I'm done with all my projects and tests, there is a retest waiting for me. Will officially post out on the 4th of December, going for on job attachment the following week. Wonder where will I be posted to... ...

& I need some new photos in my facebook! It'd been dead since... the end of August! Actually, there isn't much photo posted here as well, ever since I changed to a camera-less phone...

Oh! Oh! And Left 4 Dead 2 is out!!! Looks like I need to assemble a team real quick to exterminate some zombies :D

Lastly, I still love 소녀시대! If you know whats that :D

A day with weird shits

The first thing I saw this morning when I arrived was 2 monkeys; a mum and kid, trapped in the cage. Seriously, I don't understand why they want to catch the monkeys which are all over the hill. Anyway, the 2 monkeys disappeared after we got back from "excursion". Think SPCA got them.

The second thing is that a tree had fallen down, crushing part of the fence, haha, pretty funny.

Then there was this lizard hanging from the ceiling air-con. It then fell straight onto the ground, like a 3 meters free fall, twisting its head haha. But its still alive, so some of us put it into a emptied green tea bottle, calling it our pet. Hahaha!

This is probably the last week we'll be in school, posting out for attachment next week. A new phase of NS life will soon begin, wonder what awaits...

<3 소녀시대
Jaebum is pretty hot too :D (me ain't gay though)

I own a "lagtop"!

This is my girl, aren't she cute? :D

I call my laptop, "lagtop" because its so fucking lag. 1 test down for the week, another tomorrow and last on Friday.
Damn... I'm late for sleep.

New layout

This is for y'all, Lucas & Samuel, the 2 fags of SOA :D

2 more months to 2010!

Happy Halloween people!

This retro song is 10 times more emo than "All by myself". Its so emo that I actually find it amusing. Haha, but still... :D ahahaha.

Ocean Deep by Cliff Richard

Love, can't you see I'm alone
Can't you give this fool a chance
A little love is all I ask
A little kindness in the night
Please don't leave me behind
No, don't tell me love is blind
A little love is all I ask
And that is all
Oh love, I've been searching so long
I've been searching high and low
And little love is all I ask
A little sadness when you go
Maybe you'll need a friend
Only please don't let's pretend
A little love is all I ask
And that is all

I wanna spread my wings
But I just can't fly
As a string of pearls
The pretty girls go sailing by

Ocean deep
I'm so afraid to show my feelings
I have sailed a million ceilings
Solitary room

Ocean deep
Will I ever find a lover
Maybe she has found another
And as I cry myself to sleep
I know this love of mine I'll keep
Ocean deep

Now , can't you hear when I call
Can't you hear the word I say
A little love is all I ask
A little feeling when we touch
Why am I still alone
I've got a heart without a home
A little love is all I ask
And that is all

I'm so lonely, lonely, lonely
On my own in my room
I'm so lonely, I'm so lonely, I'm so lonely...

Haha, champion already! I played Bejewelled for 2 hours and can't freaking get beyond 200k but the moment I played with another laptop using my neice's account, I got 245k. FML. I think its because my laptop is too laggy. Everytime I get massive explosion it hangs. This is not an excuse :D haha. Oh c'mon, this laptop is like 4 years old! Time to retire.

Materialistic is the new LOVE

4 more tests before all come to an end(may still have 4 weeks of outfield though)! Apparently, I don't have any leaves left this year. Guess I'll just have to wait for the 14 days next year. But I really, really, need a holiday, even a chalet will be great. Even a weekend hotel/stay over chill out is good. Even a... ...

I realised NS isn't taking too much of a toll on me. I think its mainly, or you can say totally, because I don't have a girlfriend. Everyday is just a repetition of yesterday, nothing to look forward to, nothing to hope for. I know its sad, but what to do? If you're taking pity on me, just transfer a few hundred bucks to my bank account, it'll certainly be of some help, since the world is so materialistic :D

My mum often ask me why didn't I choose to born under a rich dad. Haha, if there was a choice, every kid would be born in a silver spooned family and those wooden spooned families will never be expecting no matter how hard they fuck.

It really hurts to see people not appreciate what they have. So if you feel like complaining about your life today, come talk to me, I will tell you how fortunate you actually are (:

Can't wait for Sonia & Janice's new cover :D

I need help

Everyday, I long for the arrival of the weekend, but when its here, it only reminds me of how lonely I really am. My life really is motherfuckingsucks.

Anyway,

Happy Birthday Samantha.

Janice & Sonia rocks!

No shit, you guys got to check this out! Totally melt my little heart! :D



Sweet! Dinner time :D and I fucking failed a test today! Was hoping for a boarder line pass so badly but he just had to read out 46 for me, fuck!!!

And this morning on the way to camp, this little girl, around 7 or 8 years old sat next to me on the bus. She kinda fell asleep & leaned on me. Haha, a primary school girl leaning on a solider? Quite an amusing sight, but sweet at the same time :D

Not so bad Saturday

I finally watched Fame today and its real enjoyable! An interesting movie with awesome songs. Had dinner at ILUMA, The Asian Kitchen. Their roasted chicken is good. I had a plate of ordinary tasting prawn fried rice and avocado ice blend. Went to check out Colosseum, which is located at Level 7. They're having this promotion in October, play 2 hours and get 1 free! And there were girls at the entrance acting as "promoters", walk near and they will approach you, asking if you're interested to play. Okay la, the chicks don't look bad :D

Want to play Gran Turismo on PSP so much but errors keep occurring... But its okay, I'll try harder tomorrow, in fact, I've already started, haha.
I'm so in love with "I will follow you into the dark" by Death Cab For Cutie! The starting verse just keeps repeating repeating repeating in my head!

Sian ah! There goes the second Saturday of October. When can I... Be with the girl of my life... :D

I know you can show me

The monkeys raided the room we keep our bags yesterday. Stuffs were all over the place; lunch boxes opened, rubbish bins toppled, haha. I'm amazed by their intelligence; they actually managed to open the door, open zips and lunch boxes!

Anyway, I get to relax tonight cause the next test is on Friday. It a fucking 10 chapters test, which means I'd better get started tomorrow, haha. And I took some time to worked out alittle just now, cause I feel fat. Haven't been to the gym for 2 weeks.

I have this method of washing hair. Start by shampoo-ing your hair, for me I use cool mint from Head & Shoulders. Don't wash away the foam, instead, use a comb and go through your hair serve times, combing away the foam. Let it stay for a minute or 2 before washing off, you'll get this ice chill sensation on your head/hair! Hahaha, well, at least for me.

And in case I forget, do remind me to tell y'all some interesting stories my superiors told me when there's a chance.

Have fun my friends.

Firstly, I want to wish Andrew and Kenneth, who will be enlisting on Tuesday and Wednesday respectively, all the best and have fun in BMT.

Went to this Korean restaurant recommended by Sophie at ChinaTown today. Although I'm not a fan of Korean cuisine, I would say that the food is decent; compared to other shitty places. Price range pretty similar to typical restaurants like ThaiExpress, etc. Well, actually it doesn't matter what I'm eating, as long as its with my beloved friends, it'll be enjoyable :D haha!

New week ahead! And gosh... Its October already. With everyone's busy schedules and activities, this is probably the period where our friendship is put to test... ... Ok whatever, I'm suffering from mental block now, which means its time to sleep and wake up at 5:20am. Anyway, what I wanna say is, let's just catch up once in awhile and not take this friendship for granted, we've come a long way... ... ... Fine, the truth is I'm so fucking lonely, empty, pathetic and that I need company! Okay!?

Love of mine, someday you will die, but I'll be close behind, to follow you into the dark...

I've never been to me

Mariah Carey's new ablum, Memoirs Of An Imperfect Angel is not bad, like her, "I Want To Know What Love Is".

Everyday when I'm in uniform, I long for the weekends. But when the weekend is here, I often find myself stuck between the decision of heading out or staying home for some quality rest. I feel so lost... Got nowhere to go, nothing to do, no-one to hang out with.

Today is Lantern Festival. I still remembered how we used to burn whatever we could find; lanterns, twigs, candle boxes and tons of candles haha, those were the days! But this year, the feeling just aren't there no more.

When I close my eyes, it feels like there are grains in them. Every fucking day, thats how tired I am. & I figured that I've problem being myself at times. Haha, whatever, time to sleep, another hectic week ahead.

I'll be there for you if you should need me, you don't have to change a thing, I ---- you just the way you are.

Wishing you were here.

I said I need to stay home to study some stuffs for tons of up-coming tests and Hiang Peng called me an emo-kid. I really wonder why...

My weekdays are filled with endless lectures and tutorials with 2 or 3 tests every week. I have to start reading the course-ware the moment I reach home till the moment I sleep. Sigh... Many tiring days ahead, but I kinda find it fulfilling. At least I'm learning and accomplishing something, unlike the older days, when I just slack through the hands of time...

Sometimes I really wonder what are some of my friends doing at that particular moment in time. Well, I could have asked, but I didn't cause I couldn't find a reason to. We're so far away.

Oh, and I think my entries are lacking pictures. Guess not having a camera phone does make a difference.

Life goes on...

I wonder how love works, but guess it can never be explained. Its like, I can love her so much yet all she sees is him. She loves him. & here I am, puzzled...

Well, regrading my current life... Its simple. Getting up real early, like fucking 5am, take a rough 1 hour bus ride to camp/school, slack my day away and somehow reach home at 7pm for dinner. And this is probably gonna last for sometime.

I wish I have this girlfriend that will call me every evening to complain about how guys stared at her, the food court aunty with attitude problem or simply politics & gossips in school. Haha, dreaming, just dreaming :D

Fri Ends

This is it, the part where everyone breaks out of the circle that we've been in for the past few years. Let's all get on with our lives, find the one you love, get married, don't even look back and friends? Just let them be part of your memory, acting as stepping stones, helping out through your teenage life, making it easier and more fun; but forget all these, just move on, its over.

Modified BMT 240709 - 070909

My 7 weeks of Modified BMT is officially over. Although 7 weeks is a short time, a new bond was forged. I can still clearly remember how everyone were strangers on the first day; there were still much ice to be broken. But after a personal introduction session, we became friends and begin talking shit to each other. As days go by, our relationship became something real strong, as though we'd known one another for years.

Everyday when we sang our songs to the cookhouse or any particular places, it meant nothing much but entertainment while marching. However on the last day, when we took our last march as a platoon, singing the same usual songs towards the ferry terminal, I actually felt something. Its hard to describe that feeling with words. I think I'll miss Tekong together with the people and everything that happened during that 7 weeks.

All those enlisting these few days, all the best and have fun. I can say as much as I want, but its never more real than going through it yourselves.

I'm surprised that it still hurts after all these time. It still affects me, makes me feel down, darken my day and make me lose my way. I need a soulmate, a companion, a someone to hold when I'm all alone. I'm empty.

What does NS mean to you?

National service may be nothing but a waste of time to many. As a recruit, you'll have absolutely nothing. Everything is controlled; meals time, pee time, sleeping time, basically everything. So girls out there, don't ever fucking break up with your boy during his BMT days, do it after that.

NS is filled with "first times", and at the same time probably the last. Trust me, NS is the only place you will ever eat biscuits with your hands full of camouflage cream and mud. Its the only place you get to throw live grenade, carry a rifle and fire live rounds. Its no-doubt a valuable once in a life time experience.

What I've gone through is nothing compared to many others, but it can't be explained with mere words, one has to serve to understand. NS taught us to be punctual, work as a team and be responsible. Although I've always been a punctual person, but in NS, it doesn't mean a thing for 1 man to be punctual.

NS allow us to meet many different people from all walks of life. You'll meet true friends that will always cover your ass no matter how much it stinks. But at the same time, you'll meet fuckers that you know you'll disappear from after BMT. You'll probably also discover how small Singapore is, how people are related to one another.

So what exactly what does NS mean to me? Simple. It means stepping out of my comfort zone, become a more responsible man and acquire the relevant skills to protect my country when required. Although my role in the SAF may not be very big, but SAF itself is made up of the effort from every individual, regardless huge or small.

So if I were given choice, I will still choose to serve.

So Amazing

Today was well spent, lunched at Manhattan Fish Market @ Northpoint, sang at Thomson CC, L4D at Downtime and pooled at OCC.

POC in 2 weeks time, can't wait! But looking at the long run, I still have approximately 2 years to go. Learned quite a bit the other day at the Army Museum. I've got no idea that commissioned officers can be called back for service up till the age of 50 and NCO or specialists up till the age of 40! Haha, was really an interesting trip. Company's Night and outfield to clear, hope all will be fine.

I found out that 2 activities that girls are constantly engaging in. I call it double S, sex & supper. Hahahaha!

Half Way Through

I fired live rounds, the first and probably the last time in my life. Built basha(tent), more to come on week 5 during outfield. Throwing live grenade next week.
Army had been fun so far, guess PES C is derived from C = Chill :D

"It's true. Relationships encounter all sorts of bullshit problems. Maybe you left the toilet seat up, maybe you accidentally grabbed her best friend's ass, whatever the case may be...just know that sex solves everything. All you have to do is grab her by the tits and bang the shit out of her. Bang her so senseless that she forgets what the two of you were fighting about. It works every time." - Yosho