What does NS mean to you?

National service may be nothing but a waste of time to many. As a recruit, you'll have absolutely nothing. Everything is controlled; meals time, pee time, sleeping time, basically everything. So girls out there, don't ever fucking break up with your boy during his BMT days, do it after that.

NS is filled with "first times", and at the same time probably the last. Trust me, NS is the only place you will ever eat biscuits with your hands full of camouflage cream and mud. Its the only place you get to throw live grenade, carry a rifle and fire live rounds. Its no-doubt a valuable once in a life time experience.

What I've gone through is nothing compared to many others, but it can't be explained with mere words, one has to serve to understand. NS taught us to be punctual, work as a team and be responsible. Although I've always been a punctual person, but in NS, it doesn't mean a thing for 1 man to be punctual.

NS allow us to meet many different people from all walks of life. You'll meet true friends that will always cover your ass no matter how much it stinks. But at the same time, you'll meet fuckers that you know you'll disappear from after BMT. You'll probably also discover how small Singapore is, how people are related to one another.

So what exactly what does NS mean to me? Simple. It means stepping out of my comfort zone, become a more responsible man and acquire the relevant skills to protect my country when required. Although my role in the SAF may not be very big, but SAF itself is made up of the effort from every individual, regardless huge or small.

So if I were given choice, I will still choose to serve.

So Amazing

Today was well spent, lunched at Manhattan Fish Market @ Northpoint, sang at Thomson CC, L4D at Downtime and pooled at OCC.

POC in 2 weeks time, can't wait! But looking at the long run, I still have approximately 2 years to go. Learned quite a bit the other day at the Army Museum. I've got no idea that commissioned officers can be called back for service up till the age of 50 and NCO or specialists up till the age of 40! Haha, was really an interesting trip. Company's Night and outfield to clear, hope all will be fine.

I found out that 2 activities that girls are constantly engaging in. I call it double S, sex & supper. Hahahaha!

Half Way Through

I fired live rounds, the first and probably the last time in my life. Built basha(tent), more to come on week 5 during outfield. Throwing live grenade next week.
Army had been fun so far, guess PES C is derived from C = Chill :D

"It's true. Relationships encounter all sorts of bullshit problems. Maybe you left the toilet seat up, maybe you accidentally grabbed her best friend's ass, whatever the case may be...just know that sex solves everything. All you have to do is grab her by the tits and bang the shit out of her. Bang her so senseless that she forgets what the two of you were fighting about. It works every time." - Yosho

Feelings that can't be put to words

Everyone was excited. It was our first book out after 2 weeks of confinement. I have good commanders, a great platoon, and even better bunk mates.

Had been a long time since I have had this feeling. Feels like I need someone dear to be with me, someone of the opposite gender, someone I love. Why does it hurts everytime I see you smile? Why does it feels like I've lost someone important? Feels like we're on a holiday, far away from each other...

Day before enlistment

The last 2 days before enlistment were well spent. Yesterday was spent eating and singing with Kenneth & Ser Chin @ Thomson in the afternoon before dinning at Manhattan Fish Market with Joni, Kam Chuen and Hiang Peng at night. Was my first time there. We ordered a great deal of food for just the 4 of us; 2 side dishes, 2 soups, a seafood platter for 2 and a giant fried platter. Didn't even bother to finish the fries. Thanks Joni for the treat though.

Today was alright. Caught Public Enemy with Ser Chin followed by Harry Potter & The Half Blood Prince with the others. Public Enemy was good, interesting storyline but lack of gun fights, was expecting it to be more action packed. Harry Potter & The Half Blood Prince was... Alright I guess. No high hopes! Haha! The problem with Harry Potter movies is that they always use the same boring "flashing-invisible-and-knock-back" spells. And the only 2 wizards that can cast godly, graphic intensive spells(like fire storm, lighting, water, etc) are Voldemort and Dumbledore. Bo hoseh!

Then we dined at Din Tai Fung. Its my first time there as well, fried rice with prawn looked and tasted good, as for the xiao long pao... Nothing special, its either all that I had eaten were equally good or they all were supposed to taste like that.

And just to let those who can't be bothered or what so ever about my life(if you managed to make it here that is), I will be enlisting aka serving the country tomorrow!
From the bottom of my heart, I sincerely thanks those that wished me well and asked about how I feel. Hmmm... The truth is... I feel excited yet afraid at the same time. The thought of going to a totally unfamiliar place filled with strangers, it sucks. The thought of having no access to the internet, that sucks too. But the thought of having no weekdays, this sucks the most! Hahaha! If only I had a girl telling me that she will be waiting for me... I'd be in heaven~ Oh, I may twit, thats if I'm bo liao enough to do so :D

We are like strangers.

I love island life & snorkeling!

Tioman Island: Paya Beach Resort
12th - 14th July

Took a cab to DFS Orchard to catch our bus which leaves at 6:30am. The journey was long, took about 2 hours to reach a the first check point where we had our lunch. Continued for another 2 hours before reaching the ferry terminal. Had a 1.5 hours ferry ride before reaching our destination, Tioman Island, at around 2:30pm.

The dudes filling up their white cards.

At custom waiting for bus. (Illegal photo)

Waiting, waiting...

On the bus!

The ferry tickets and marine park reservation coupons.

On the boat! Pretty long journey but its definitely worth the while!

*Ok, I'm feeling fucked up right now cause the upload speed is fucking slow!*

And of course we checked in upon arrival. Went for some godly Ramly Burger after putting our stuffs in our room. Roamed around the resort, played a game of 3RM pool, rented our snorkeling gears and off we went to snorkel! Couldn't take underwater pictures as we didn't have any housing for our cameras. What a pity. Nevertheless we saw tons of beautiful fishes as well as sea creatures. For a moment, I couldn't believe I'm in South China Sea, hahaha!

Touch down! Island life!

Paya Beach!

Checking in.

Lobster king! Thats the biggest in the tank.

Unpacking and changing into chilling suit.

Waiting for our Ramly! The Ramly burgers back at Singapore are nothing compared to this! Their bun is so crispy... Its a big regret that we only had one...

3RM pool. 8 feet table if I'm not wrong and its in superb bad condition haha!

Even the cue ball stucks... Got to hook it out with the cue, haha.

A bug randomly flew onto Andrew's hand and being who I am, I just got to let it into my mouth!

Snorkeling took all the craps out of us, so we headed back to our room, making a mess out of it. Dripped water and sand onto the balcony of our neighbor below, haha. Went for dinner after bathing. The food were not bad, slightly better than the mixed rice stalls from our friendly coffee-shops. Slacked around, did some shopping for snacks and drinks. Wanted to sing KTV but was occupied. Went back to our room, chilled, watched their "scheduled" SVC, Harry Porter & the Order of the Phoenix on HBO! Haha, just nice as I missed this show. & of course, we switched off one by one...

Buffet Dinner! Good enough for me!

Night falls...

They are lots of cats and kittens in this resort, thats for sure!

And we saw a frog!

Day 2 greeted us with awesome sunshine! Started with a snorkeling trip at the Marine Park and a small snorkeling spot called Coral Island. Nothing much at Marine Park, just lots of fishes, but are all the same. The memorable part is when I fed the fishes with bread and all of them started attacking me. Some even tried to reach for the bread in my hands by jumping out of the sea! Scared the shit out of me.
Coral Island was much better, beautiful fishes, even saw a group of about 10 cuttlefishes chilling.

Fresh air! Can you smell it? Haha!

Mid-tide. There are real beautiful fishes and corals underneth the rocks on the left! Not forgetting scary sea urchins with the size of a head.

I wanted to go to the jungle trek so much! Looks so lovely!

Checking out the fishes.

Ripples caused by wind made it blurry, but good enough to see those corals.

Then we had lunch back at the resort, chilled, played cards and walked along the beach till evening. Nobody wants to go for another round of snorkeling with me, all said tired and boring, @#$@%! Headed back to bathe before dinner. We ordered some butter prawns and grilled lobsters, pretty damn good! Night was spent in our room again.

Played darts.

Slacking.

A lovely aunty helped us with this :D

Check out my tiny durians, ahaha!

The clearness of the water! Looks consumable huh? Haha

I was close to tear...

Yes, that little dude at the background is Kenneth, having a little private time on his own.

Do we look like we're looking for shower with those towels in our hands?

We saw a real big monitor lizard swim pass, it was close to 2 meters long, no bomb! But of course, was gone before we could take its picture :D

You can even find dinosaur's bone!

Butter prawns! Eff-ing good! Juicy as pus... ... Ahaha!

Grilled Lobsters. Regretted not trying 2 different style. Should have tried the sashimi! Arghhh!

Day 3 was the departure day. Had breakfast and checked out. Our damn boat went to almost all the jetties of Tioman Island to pick up everyone before heading back to the ferry terminal. Took about 2.3 hours? Super duper fucking long! Boarded the bus and continued our journey home. Went to watch Ice Age 3 at Cine after reaching Singapore.

No joke, those are fishes! Different species and colors chilling near the jetty!

Fishes charging at food!

More fishes, they looked more like weeds than fishes though.

At least 50cm swordfish, bo tua kang!

More pictures are up @ Facebook, do check them out. Thumbs up for this Tioman trip! Next trip: Laguna Redang Resort!

Do I hate myself too?

There are 2 types of people I absolutely detest.
First type: These people are your friends, but applicable only when they need your help. You hold no capacity in their mind, not to mention the heart. The only thing you guys can talk about is the problem(s) they need you to help them solve. Other than these, they show no concern about your life nor intend to share any of theirs with you. Maybe we should all be more scheming; like ask you out to have fun, hang out a little before asking for help. That definitely makes the helper feel more like a friend than a "first-aid-kit".
(maybe its not that bad, at least they think about you when they needed help.)

The second is the stubborn and self-centered. They always want things to go their way and rarely or never spare a thought for others. Always want conveniency to be on their side, can't take a second route for the sake of others.

Well, if you're my friend and feels that you are any of the above, stop thinking, you are. But don't worry because I've learned the hard way in life, I've learned to accept the imperfection of others and only to curse them in my heart.

Friends "forever". Peace out.

Chilling with the chill is chill :D

We became friends for a reason. And the reason is definitely not because we went to the same school or played the same silly games. I aren't too sure what is it either, but fate seems to be the only acceptable cause.

I'm happy tonight, to know that I've friends who seem far away, but never too far to meet up to share some joy and laughter, and maybe a drink or 2.

I'm so damn jealous :)

Yes, just smile & I'm totally addicted to Bejeweled Blitz!!! Arghh...

Let's talk about what I did today, been awhile. Ser Chin and I accompanied Kenneth to ICA to have his passport photo replaced. But they don't provide the service anymore, so a new passport had to be made.
We've got no where to go after that but eventually ended up at Dhoby Ghaut. Slacked around before heading home for dinner.
Went to chill-balling with Hiang Peng and Ser Chin after dinner. Can't even remember the last time I balled at night. Was nice talking trash, well spent time.

Realise there have been a lack of pictures. Well, its either there isn't any interesting stuffs or I've lost it.

Alot of things have changed since then. I've got lesser people to share my boring songs with, lesser people to chill out with, lesser people to talk too... I understand people come and go, but when one that really matters went away, found someone better and never came back, it really hurts.
Alot of things happen for a reason. And sometimes we know the reason, but refuse to do a thing bout it cause deep inside we know its pointless. Emotions just keep getting the better of us.

& I wish I've been dreaming everyday, cause I don't want it or any of these to be real.

Success means woman, hellyah!

Why does this 1 person always come into mind each time a love song is played?

Anyway, someone told me that behind every successful man, there is a woman. I laughed and said, "yeah, that's materialism at its best". Hahaha! Well, there is no way we can come to a conclusion on this, can we? Let's just keep it at that.

Happiness is just a shoulder away.

The 1st was a great day. Really, I somehow enjoyed, guess it was was spent with the company of wonderful people. Started with working out at 10am, driving in circuit at 2:30pm, caught "I love you, man" at 7pm, chilled and pool till 2am! Awesome.

Well, " I love you, man" is a fantastic comedy with a decent amount of adult talks, if you get what I mean. Strongly recommended for the sad and lonely like me, it shows love is not everything, "bro-mance" can be a real big deal too. But my life seems to be a totally opposite of it, haha... Anyway, just catch it if you don't know what "bro-mance" is. Its worth the time.

Why do birds suddenly appear? Why do stars fall down from the sky? Cause just like me, they long to be, close to you.

Where are you?

I've never been the kind to ever let my feeling show, and I thought that being strong meant never losing your self control.

Just want to be anything I'm not; the Ace student in class, the guy that can let his hair down and party, the best player on the court, the man whose hand you held this morning and lips you kissed just before goodnight.

You've been away for too long, I've made up my mind on this. But I need you here tonight, I need you here in sight, I really, really need you here tonight...

Anything I'm not

I said addiction is a dangerous thing. She said she is addicted to making love with boyfriend. I laughed & cried at the same time. Back in those days, she was known for her chastity and morals. Its scary how people and things are carved by our great sculptor, time. Haha, I guess certain things just can't be helped, its the curiosity inside us, humans want to explore, even our own bodies. So after all these years of being pure, the sudden attainment of something that provides such great pleasure, its really hard to ask for less :D
hmmm... I don't even want to think about it. Let's just pray breathing in excessive dead sperm cells don't cause pregnancy :D

I know everyone probably blogged about this but still I should pay tribute to the late King of Pop, Michael Jackson, who passed away at the age of 50 on the 25th of June this year. He was no doubt a great artist and entertainer.My favorite song by him got to be "Heal the World".

Some people say happiness takes so very long to find. Well, I'm finding it hard leaving everything I ever felt behind.

Oh yah, 25 days to enlistment, I'm so elated.

The real me

I am perverted, desperate and shallow. I think dirty at least 45 minutes in an hour. I was referring to sexual thoughts when I said think dirty. Have more talks than actions, believes and act wise, but knows is just a wannabe. Wants to be right all the time; be in the limelight all day and night. Feeling jealous and envy are everyday things. I like to hear praises and beautiful things about myself. I mean ALOT, like every little thing. A shy coward who can't look into girls' eye nor speak to their ears. Yes, an extreme introvert with low confidence and esteem.

This is the real me, so if you've got any problem, please don't come to me cause I'll probably run like a chicken with pee leaking between my legs.

I am bitter

I'm less emo but never been more bitter. Cause I've figured out that it can never be fair in life, so whats the point of feeling all shitty? I can feel all eff-ed up at home, pouring shots in a bar, ranting and complaining to friends. And for all we know that the only reason that's making you feel like this ain't giving shit about it. They are probably making out at home, getting high in a club, laughing and enjoying with god-knows-who. So the bottom line, its not worth it. Living is about ourselves right from the start.
I know I've lost a part of me there cause I so don't feel like myself... But I'm going to get it back.

And I think I need a social life. My life's been revolving around working-out, basketball, occasional pool, driving lessons, crabbing, cycling, and playing some silly card games.
Maybe the reason I can't wait to enlist is because my current life is filled with emptiness and shits and I'm looking forward to start a new one. Who knows! Hahaha!

Short Batam update

I'm back from Batam few days ago. Was a nice trip, but I'm so familiar with the place that it felt like home. Well, they got some new facilities up, like SCV and new furniture in some of the villas. Guess I'll share some pictures.

As usual, the nice little villas we stayed in.

Haha caught my eyes, "spesial"!

Not bad right, the camera I found at home.

Our source of entertainment, at least 2 hours daily without fail.

Tried catching Sotongs at night, but we got 0. These belonged to a local man. Yes, he owned us badly.

Heh.

This is the pool!

Went to the pool for actions.

Chilling never hurt this much, if you get what I meant :D hahaha!

Nothing new

"This is madness!"
"Madness...? This is Batam!"
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