I am bitter

I'm less emo but never been more bitter. Cause I've figured out that it can never be fair in life, so whats the point of feeling all shitty? I can feel all eff-ed up at home, pouring shots in a bar, ranting and complaining to friends. And for all we know that the only reason that's making you feel like this ain't giving shit about it. They are probably making out at home, getting high in a club, laughing and enjoying with god-knows-who. So the bottom line, its not worth it. Living is about ourselves right from the start.
I know I've lost a part of me there cause I so don't feel like myself... But I'm going to get it back.

And I think I need a social life. My life's been revolving around working-out, basketball, occasional pool, driving lessons, crabbing, cycling, and playing some silly card games.
Maybe the reason I can't wait to enlist is because my current life is filled with emptiness and shits and I'm looking forward to start a new one. Who knows! Hahaha!