Secrets

Does sharing secrets with someone makes us closer? For example, I have this secret that I keep from everyone but only share with this person. It does, right? Yes, it does, I'm positive.

Anyway, I hurt my left wrist and ankle from basketball. Looks like I won't be doing shit for some time. No gym, no motorbike, no basketball, no sentosa, no shits! Let's hope its just serious sprain. If swell don't subside in a week or 2's time, I'll probably need to get a X-ray to see if my bones are fine...

Looks normal?

Compare it with my right feet.

After 24 hours. Ahahaha looks funny.

How does it feels to be special to someone? I want to know.

Bi-birthday!

Hi, I just brushed my teeth cause there were remains of duck meat I had for dinner between my teeth. Ok, that was random, hahaha! Anyway, check this picture out!

I killed it with Gatsby Ice-Type Deodorant and asthma inhaler! Ahaha! Not to be mean, but it pissed me off during my crucial study moment.

Well, had a long day yesterday, Quality & Reliability paper in the morning, LAN through the noon, and celebrated Jolene, Kam Chuen's birthday at Fish & Co, The Glass House in the evening.

Happy Birthday to Jolene and Kam Chuen!
(Pictures MAY be upload.)

Some headed home for whatever reasons and the rest, including myself, took a midnight stroll around Dhoby Ghaut & more LAN actions before heading home before dawn. I found myself at Dhoby Ghaut at least 4 out of 7 days recently. The cheap LAN gaming rates over at Parklane Shopping Mall is just too attractive! Ahaha!

Today was well wasted! I needed this boring Saturday to slow down my life. The exams I had last week was driving me crazy. Just 1 last paper to go on Monday and everything will find their way back.
And I realised I'm alittle over budget this month. Looks like I'll have to lay low till March!

February 14th

Its not that I don't care, its just that I can't; to spare everyone that little bit of misery.

Happy Valentine's Day. Hope you had a great day.

First paper in 42 hours. I've been trying to study since Thursday, but haven't got anything into my head till this moment. Sigh... I'm just alittle too screwed, alittle too bored, and alittle too not over you.

For now; and the future

Its just gonna be another wordy post. Chinese New Year will be officially over as today is the last day. If only all 15 days were holidays... That would be too sweet. Hahaha. & I've been suffering from stiff shoulders and neck. Any hookups? Massage or whatever, I just need to get this off me! It'd been bothering me for months! Argh....

Anyway, this week is gonna be a hectic one for me! Labtest tomorrow, FYP final presentation on Wednesday and BMD presentation on Thursday. I'm so unprepared for all 3 & is still taking things too easy. I do feel the pressure, but the drive is just not there! No motivation or shit to look forward to. Ok, maybe a water bottle :D ahahaha!
Papers start on the 16th and end on the 23rd. I better start my chill-studying tonight. & Chill studying means taking a 15 minutes break from every 3 minutes of studying. Hahaha!

And I received a letter, saying I've been graded PES C9 L3 from the original A. In other words, I'll probably be serving a 8am to 5pm national service. It'd be great if I have a girlfriend, but I don't. Hahaha! Hmm... Some say its good, cause I get to chill and stuffs. But I think it kinda sucks cause my pay will be low and its gonna be boring work. Being in the Army means carrying guns and trekking in forests! Not pens and air-conditioned rooms!

I'm totally not looking forward to graduation. Friendships will drift apart and you know, people move on. Some get hitched, and their life revolves around family and work, while others busy dating the mate of their dream.
Therefore, I hereby urge everyone to get a partner ASAP, before you find yourself chilling out at your parent's home all day! Ahaha! Gosh, I should be speaking for myself...

心花朵朵开 finally came to an end! I learned 2 things from the drama: money always solve problem! & happy ending comes a long way... Haha!
Wow, all these chunk of words, if anyone made it here, give yourself a pat on the shoulder.

"You'd be like heaven to touch, I wanna hold you so much"

New Year visitings

Lie to me, to hide the hurtful truth.
Lie to me, to hurt the truthful me.

I swear I've never gambled this much in my life. Blackjack all the way, starting from Min Yi's to Kenneth's then mine and Alvin's. Hahaha, well, much was lost and gained. So I guess its pointless to talk about the outcome. But we had fun. The little peeks we stole, hoping for that pair of cards to victory, the excitement was off the roof! And it was the first time in 10 years I had this many guests at home! No joke.

Looking at the countdown timer on the right, semester exam is just around the corner. But I'm more worried about other shits now. Report for BMD project dues on Tuesday and my members seem to be idling more than ever. MIT lab tests on Wednesday & I know nuts about it... But its ok cause I know there can be miracles when I believe. Thanks Mariah and Whitney. Ahahahaha!

This same dream have been coming on for nights. Maybe its because of the recent happenings that I've witnessed and heard. All I can say is that its heart wrenching. Sigh... That explains the regular heartaches these few nights... I hope its just some illness that medicine can cure. But deep inside I know its not. We know.

NAPFA - Cleared!

NAPFA today. Not too bad, did better than expected. Just uncertain about the 2.4km run. I saw 12:18 when I reached the finishing line, not sure if the marker took it down though.

Talking about uncertainties, I do have lots of them. And I think about them every night. I'm lost, dying to understand. Even though I tried, I can't let go. This must be a bad dream. God, I need to wake up, or at least let me be "Kenny Almighty".

31st January... I wonder what shits await me. Hmmm... When did I become so negative? Hahaha... ...

Wanna be in his shoes.

Have you ever asked yourself why it hurts like this? I mean this pain is like no other and you know the only thing that will make it stop is something you can never have.

Cold

我爱的人, 不是我的爱人,
她心里每一寸, 都属于另一个人...
她真幸福, 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人, 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神, 说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

Happy Lunar 牛 Year

Sigh... Is it my chest or heart? Cause it really hurts.

Can't trust no more.

It's Chinese New Year next week! Haven't bought any new year clothes... Nothing caught my eyes and I didn't intend to get anything but my mum said it's essential. Wearing new clothes on new year means more blessed! I know... Nothing great happened to me all these years, I'm just worried shits might get worst if I didn't listen to her. Haha.

Hardworking okay?! Wahahaha!

3 more weeks to semester exam. I want to be ready. Seems to have so much to do but I'm still laying back. Guess I've got poor sense of urgency, haha! Cleared 2 quizzes this week, BMD project with presentation and several lab tests left.

Was supposed to have NAPFA this evening but guess I chickened out :D ahaha! No lah! I have been coughing these few days and thought it'd be pointless since its an obvious fail. Another reason was because I was released at 12 and afternoon classes were canceled. Which means if I were to go for NAPFA, I had to wait for 5 and half hours! Fuck no I'm gonna do that...

Anyway, my truthful friends and I ended up at Suki Sushi, Cine for a sinful meal. My first ime there, service was great, food decent. And free flow drinks!

Yum, yum, a sumptuous meal indeed.

Whenever I patron restaurants with good food, I can't help but think of the glutton people I know. Had always been my dream to... So much unspoken words never meant to be said.

And I need to know what to do when I'm losing faith.

Sentosa does rocks

Random

Went to Sentosa with my gay brothers today! Ok, they're not really homosexuals. Ahahaha! There were lots of Caucasians! Man, those Europe chicks are all freaking slim! But nevertheless, they've got a special charm :D

How is my tan line? Ahahaha! I know... It sucks!

Benjamin sneak attacking me!

And this is what he gets! Ahaha!

Owned!

Ehhh... We're definitely not gays, I was just kidding back there.

Trust me, she is damn hot. I've got more... ... Muaha!

This is the way I live, little boy still chilling with sand.

And we played frisbee!

Raymond and I went off early, he had to attend his 21st birthday dinner. Anyway, Happy Birthday bro Raymond! I met Zhao Yi and Kenneth at Vivo City. They checking out some stuffs. Then we hanged out abit before heading home.

Haha looks funny to me, its like I'm stuck between the pole in the reflection.

Hoo-ray!

The 15th was bad.

• I actually bothered to copy notes with my new G2 for the first time this semester and I couldn't find it the next lesson.
  
• Then we went to LAN for Left 4 Dead and was "cheated". The rate was $2.80/hour and extension for student, an additional $1.50/hour. We booked 2 hours straight and was charged $5.60 because the second hour was not an extension. What the fuck is this?
  
• Couldn't complete "Death Troll" on advance mode in 2 hours.
• Had prata and my plaster sucked. I don't know if its my appetite or it really sucked.
• Lost in "or-ya-bei-ya-som" and had to bring the money to casher.

Well... I should be glad thats all.
And I'm back!!! Let's rejoice for I'm back! No more emo fuck shit what so ever. Its just gonna be another regret cause there are so many things we could have done together & they are never gonna be happening anymore.

You're beautiful and all I ever wanted. Yes, LIFE, you're beautiful!

Knocked down.

I don't know, I'm feeling very lost and don't feel like doing anything. Don't feel like doing FYP report, start on my project, do revision, study for exam, workout, hangout. I just don't feel like doing anything. And the saddest part is that I know, nothing is gonna change even if I continue not doing any of the above. As a matter of fact, nothing will change even after typing all these shit, nothing will change even if I drink all the alcohol in the world... Nothing will.

Sigh... I just hope all the lovers out there don't take their partner for granted. Cherish them, for you never know, the girl/guy you're holding now, may be a dream of another who can't do shit but watch, hope and wait for something they know might never happen.

And for those who didn't cherish what they had (provided the partner is a bitch, slut, bastard, SOB), serve you right, you don't deserve him/her.

And I tried Left 4 Dead today. All I can say is that killing zombies had never been more fun.

Its the end!

"Somethings gotta change, cause I've been losing faith... I love you but I can't wait here forever... How did you get so far, so far away from my heart... Don't you realise I'm here too..."

Spinnovex people from DBE/FT/3B01!

I'm so glad Spinnovex is finally ending... Tomorrow is the last day, but its gonna take up the whole of my Saturday, which sucks. But it'd been fun so far. Plenty of interesting stuffs to check out, chill outs with old and new friends, hmm... It's not that bad actually, hahaha!

& I have been 38 degrees through the week, ultra-sore-throat and some coughing acting up now. Its like uncontrollably inhaling too much air for the lungs and having to cough out the excessive.

But I'm still a happy child tonight, cause I'd seen the one person whom I find it forever so hard to part with. The giggles, the smiles, and the look in the eyes. Too much to handle, too little to savor :D

And Ong Bak 2 sucks.

Never been more true

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night? Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?

Have you ever been in love, been in love so bad, you'd do anything to make them understand? Have you ever had someone steal your heart away, you'd give anything to make them feel the same? Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart, but you don't know what to say and where to start?

Have you ever found the one you dreamed of all your life, you'd do just about anything to look into their eyes? Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to, only to find that one won't give their heart to you? Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there, and all you can do is wait, for the day when they will care?

What do I got to do to get you in my arms? What do I got to say to get your heart, to make you understand how I need you next to me? Got to get you in my world cause baby, I can't sleep...

Spinnovex -no good.

It's Spinnovex week. Spent half of my day in school today setting up our station and stuffs. Tuesday will be another hectic day. EEE Director will be checking out the stations. Wednesday is the industrial panel judging day and official Spinnovex exibition will start on Thursday, all the way to Saturday. I can't survive.

I don't feel so good. There isn't anyone to share my anxiety, my woes. Well, maybe there is... But isn't exactly who I needed. I don't even know why am I doing this. What have become of my sanity...?

Its just hard when you don't communicate with your heart for awhile... Harder to breathe, harder to think and harder to love.

Rubbish

If I could, you know I would... but the try would be in vain.
So I cry,
I can't stop the rain

It has been an empty new year for me till now. There hasn't been any specific thing I want to do or feel like doing. I don't seems to care about things so much anymore... No... Maybe I still do, just acting like I don't. Sigh, I know... Sitting around won't get me no where.

Have you ever been so determined about something, and only to have your will shaken the moment you see a smile, hear a laughter or even by just a thought? I guess it just means that there is alittle bit of you, still missing alittle bit of them, haha.

Feels like I've just typed a load of rubbish... But its the only way for me to touch on things I can't convey through the power of speech to others. Sigh, why must life be filled with sorrow...?

If only certain things are as clear as the sky.

New Year's Eve!

Its finally 2009. My mind isn't working well now, probably due to fatigue, so I'm gonna keep things as short as possible. Just caught "7 Pounds" a moment ago, was an awesome movie, the perfect film to start the year with.

New Year eve was spent at Sophie's place! Thanks for everything! So... These are the things we did!

Played Guitar Heroes from Phil.

Wii from Sophie. And I was quite surprised by how tiring the boxing game can get!

Twister from Ser Chin. This game is the most exhausting shit ever! Guess I shall not post the other pictures :D

And we rotted/chilled/slacked! Ahaha!

Drank.

Drunk.

And that's all for the long day! Thanks Sophie and everyone who made it happen! Peace.

The night is real silent now; both in reality and virtually. People say it takes 2 hands to clap... How true. & I'm really tired of all these attempts, no, should I even call them attempts? Or mere wishful thoughts that you and I know can never happen right from the start? I don't know. I'd like to hold on, but you're closing down on me with every step I take.
Maybe I just don't have what it takes.

Its almost done

I thought I was special to have made you laugh,
but he was more by making you cry.
I though I could touch your heart by always being there,
but he seems to be holding it even from nowhere.

Unspoken words, sleepless nights and broken hearts. What can you least expect from the last few days of 2008?

Today should be remembered

This is the furthest we go, as what we used to be.

New school term tomorrow, I'm totally looking forward to it. Can't wait to see my beautiful results of D-s and resume my unfinished FYP which is a little behind schedule.
Haiss... I know, I know, I know my place. Its... ... ... Not even worth mentioning ( :

-I'm disappointed & feel like hating every fucking thing now.