If being myself means loneliness, then I can't be myself

It's exam period once again. The only difference is that it does not concern me this time :D Actually, I shouldn't say that it does not concern me. It does in a way because some of my friends are studying hard for their papers and can't hang out with me :/ Oh well, I wish all of you, my beloved friends/crush/cousin/stranger, all the best for your coming examination. In Thai language, we'd say chok di krap (or ka if you're female), which means good luck :D

So, it's 1st of May already... I read this somewhere: "One day you're seventeen & planning for someday, & then quietly, without you ever really noticing, someday is today, & that someday is yesterday & this is your life". 

I spend lots of time thinking about what I really want in life. I come up with ways to change my life to the way I think I want to live. But none seems to fit. I wish I can cut the chase and find this one girl whose personality is just as I seek. Then we'd be together happily ever after. Hahaha! 

Can I really find/meet someone who is meant for me just by being myself? I'd say no if you'd asked me. Because being myself is too conservative and peaceful. As much as I love sports and adventures, I'm actually the kind of guy who loves to stick with close friends than meet new people. I'm the kind of person who'd go on a beach vacation, chill by the sea, complain about being bored but deep inside, enjoying the sound of people chattering nearby; of the crashing waves and the "nothingness" of being there. 

& I know that in order to meet that someone, I'll have to be somewhere out there... Out of my comfort zone, be at the right place & the right time. Somewhere... Movies that show introverts or wallflowers who randomly run into a girl, and then fall in love with each other... They are all lies. It can never happen in real life.

Guess I'll just live my life as I like. They say all that matters is that we are happy and what will be, will be. Right? -Ya, right.

Maybe I'm just not used to this loneliness yet. On second thought, I think I'm not lonely. Just single that's all. Ahahahaha! And maybe a little confused :D
Peace.