All or nothing?

you know how much you meant to someone when all you made was a small error, and they never came back.

A weekend's reverie

If you were mine, I would bring you to a place, where we can sit down, relax and chill. I'll get the sweetest beverage meant for you, tell you how beautiful you are, let you sleep in my arms and the hands of time stroke by us...

Fuck you

Life sucks, life sucks, life sucks, life sucks, life sucks, life sucks, life sucks.

So much work left unseen, undone. Maybe those work never even existed. Looks like I'm going crazy. School appears to be a hindrance to my life & I doesn't seem to have learn anything in the past 4 weeks since school reopened.
Feels like I'm surrounded by people who doesn't understand. Where have all the nice people gone?

Haven't been sleeping well. The ridiculous thing is that, I've just gotten a new mattress. The old mattress had become so 'thin' that every time weight is applied, the springs could be felt! If only someone would give me a massage on the neck and shoulder area now... :D

I'm not emo or whatever. I'm just amused, amused by how naive I can be at times.

L is for the way you made me lost

Looks like I'm gonna have quite some 'free' time from today onwards. Or maybe I always had, just that I invited some 'trouble' for nothing. But it's all good now. NYP reopened, everybody will have their own stuffs to do.

Happy Birthday to Samantha who is having her 18th birthday tomorrow. This is the best I can do.

Its really tough when sometimes all you wished for is something that you know is never gonna happen.

I used to say true love is when you see the person you love smiling happily, hand in hand, walking down the beach with the person they love. Well,

HOW THE FUCK CAN THAT BE TRUE!?

Sad to say, the only reason I see that scenario coming true is when you've stopped loving them... There is no fucking way you'll feel happy watching the person you like being with another, absolutely no way.



Thats how I personally feel. Maybe there are some special being with an extraordinary heart who is actually capable of doing so.

.kcuf

What is the worst feeling in life? To me, I think its being so close yet, so... Untouchable... And I'm not referring to physical actions. I'm referring to everything! I don't know how to put my feelings into words and don't think I should.

Anyways, I bought a Nintendo DS Lite and I think its totally awesome. I used to think playing with stuffs like that makes one geek. Well, I still believe so but I guess thats who I really am. I'm beginning to hate so much... I hate going to school, hate life, hate everything about myself and hate people! I don't even feel how I used to when I see a beautiful lady on the street. I guess I'm just slightly depressed and over emotional.

Well, thats the power of what 1 person can do...

Uncool

Chalet was good, filled with laughers and dramas :D but I thought it was bad as well. After the chalet, I seems to have become so, so, so restless! (& emotional. Haha...)

Maybe it's because of school's reopen.
Maybe it's because of work tomorrow.
Maybe it's because I failed my BTT.
Maybe it's because of someone, somethings.

I don't know.

Anyway, school's reopen really sucks. Its straight after 2 days of work! And to make matter worst, most of my friends are still having vacations! Totally uncool.

As for the working part, I'm still able to find an excuses to make myself feel better. We're finally down to the last 2 days! Hahaha...

Hmmm, about the BTT, I know I could have passed if I had been one tenth more serious, arghhh... But I guess it's cool since I managed to book another slot on the 8th of October. All I got to do is to run away from school... ... :D

And now... I shall lay back and be emotional about my pathetic life.

If I could turn back the hands of time...

Awesome

I'm having an amazing morning right now, slept at 9 last night, which means I'm fully charged right now, 11 hours of sleep! I know that sounded normal but its really special when your 11 hours start from 9pm to 8am. You'll feel real fresh! Anyway, another thing is that I got awake by a sms by a special someone :D ahahaha! Hmmm... It would've been better if I had my results now but it's only gonna be released a 2:30...

I still have a long day ahead so I guess it's time for breakfast! Haha!

Yeah! Finally! 2 days of work brings weekdays and weekdays mean chill, rot and fun! Hahaha... Work is fine, get to interact with people, look at tall girls, short girls, obese girls, skinny girls, all girls :D hahaha! And of course, increase the 'pay-pot' day by day ahaha!

But now...

I'm so lost! I don't know where and how to start and no ideas seem workable to me...
Ok, this is the scenario: There is this person who's been on my mind since then, till now and I guess will always be... This 'special person' :D hahaha! Well, I guess it's really up to me; or maybe fate plays an part too...?

I think fate loves toying with me. Things that I want, I can never get. They are either:

1) too far away and is not within my reach; or
2) already picked by others.

Maybe I'm too blinded by things I have desire for and neglected many of the good stuffs around me. But I guess this makes me human :)

Me ain't got life.

FUCK!

I totally wasted this week... All I did was like, chilled out for roughly 9 hours in total, skate for around 4 to 5 hours, balled for about 3 hours and went to gym once. What the fuck? And you should have guess what I was doing most of the time, yes, rotting at home like a rock.

Tomorrow is yet another day for an episode of "battle in a mascot" day 5. Haha, the feeling kinda suck but there is money to be made! So I guess I'll just have to pull it through... Well, at least tomorrow marks the middle of this war. Hahaha!

Mend my broken heart

I'll be there for you if you should need me & you don't have to change a thing, I like you just the way you are...

Today wasn't spent wisely. Woke up at 11:30, rotted till 5 before heading to gym... Thats all for the day. Hahaha!

Feeling good

Finally its weekdays! Hahaha! I know this sounded weird but this is what people who work on weekends and chill on weekdays would say :D

Today was extraordinary unbearable. I think it's because we spent a quarter of our break going to the place and deciding what to eat(while standing and walking), another quarter eating(sitting of course) and the next half queuing for the legendary durian puff of Ang Mo Kio Hub :D hahaha! So, subtracting the eating time, we stood for about 7 hours in total today.

Feeling so sore now... Guess I'll be going to bed in er... Probably the next 2 hours time :D hahaha!

Take it easy fools

Sometimes when things aren't within your control, its really advisable to simply close both your eyes, sit back and relax.

Rolling...

Worked my ass out today. And when I say 'worked my ass out', I don't mean body building. It's working as a mascot, a amusing, clownish mascot. It's freaking tired but I guess its cool since we only work on weekends and get a pretty decent 12 bucks pay.

Working is actually great, it gives me a sense of 'manhood'. Haha, I know this may sound absurd but when I work, I feel that money I earn is practically mine! I worked hard for it! Having a stack of cash or admirable digits in bank mean no shit if they are allowance given by parents. Man, I don't really know how to put it but the feeling is just right. An astonishing sense of achievement. ^_^

Got to sleep, waking up at eff-ing 8am for another step to 'manhood' :D ahahaha!

*rubbish :D

Something to remember

Never confuse the people who are always around you, with the people who are always there for you.

Longboarding is cool, feeling the breeze gushing through your face, your arms... But of course it can't be compared to those physical affections we used to share. Sometimes I can't help but to wonder if all those spoken words were lies; or were they meant to be...

Maths exam on Wednesday, I'm probably not gonna make it... Tried out 2 pass year papers and nothing seems right... Things are going way too wrong... Way too wrong...

Sir, If this is a nightmare, I think its time for me to wake up...

Let's get retarded

What is the most blessed 'item' on earth other than beer and sex? Hehe...

Why

I don't even want to care, don't even wanna give a damn! But strangely, it seems to bother me like its in my skin.

Its really strange when you start caring about things that isn't even suppose to your problem... And the strangest of it is that you start caring a little too much, a little too often and a little more each day... There seems to be this psychotic force making you do it... Seems to have no stopping to it.

Damn, I'm on the way down.

We have to do it again...

Love?

It's when you are ready to sacrifice basically anything for the person you love. Lets be realistic, don't talk about life or ridiculous stuffs. Talk about quality time, for example, working hard to give the special one a good life, willing to give up outings with friends to take care of them when they are ill or at least when they need you around, without complaining.

Love is not expecting the person to change for you but to change yourself for the better because of them.. Don't you think its absurd if you expect them to change because of you? If thats the case, then why the heck did you get together in the first place? You love someone because they are themselves, the smile, the voice and even the flaw...

And lastly, when you truly love someone, you will always be ready to forgive them no matter what they did... Of course time is needed, varies from individual.

Just my personal 2 cents view on love :D

Fucking dead.

I think I'm eff-ing dead, lost interest in studies... Time spent in school getting lesser and lesser, don't even want to go school no more. I actually went school for an hour before heading home again... If anyone is to save me from this devastate, it'd better be now...