Just came back from gym and should be having dinner but! I am too full to eat!!! Ahahahaha! I know I shouldn't be eating out but then I was so freaking hungry and can't resist the tasty food at 921! Hahahaha...

And just to add on, WHAT THE FUCK! I THINK THE "FEMALE" LAVENDER I BOUGHT IS A MALE! My god... I guess I just wasted $13 on a weakass fish which I though I can spawn with my male... This sucks!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

My "new" fishes at second week!


"I'm not in water... I'm floating in the air~"



"Why is my tank so dirty!!"



"Huh?"


Still trying hard to take better pictures, I think luck is pretty much needed :D ahahaha! Oh! Bought a female lavender for my male lavender! Can't wait to spawn them! But my female is kinda small, maybe I should say young. She is barely 2cm! Maybe 1.8 or .7 hahaha! Guess I'll just have to wait for a few weeks ( :

Exams' finally over! Time to rot! Ahahahaha!

"I wish I could carry your smile in my heart, for times when my life seems so low, It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring..."

Was reading through the testimonials we shared in friendster and my old posts here and the feeling is just not-so-great. Relationship really sucks to stay unmoved and ever worst when it widens.

) :

Triple S: Sour, sick, sucks.

Do you really still feel for this person when you see her with other guys hanging out 1 to 1 at certain places and then you get this really... Sick feeling, not the kind of sour jealousy, just wondering why is that guy not you... Hahaha. Sometimes its really really really hard to let go, even if you know things won't work out you wanted, you just can't forget everything and let go...

Today is my PEEE exam. Suppose to go study at 10 with Andrew and Adrian but my "bed-sticking" disease is getting worst :D hahaha, woke up at 8:15 but just keep cuddling around until 9:30... Bad, bad, bad, got to kick this habit...

Anyway, reached Khabit Mac at around 10:30 and then study just that little bit before heading to 848 for lunch and then talked cock all the way until Irwin arrive. We're having gym section today! Hooray! Ahahahaha!!! Oh, he brought a piece of news too, someone special is at MacDonald! And is with someone with weird/crazy/stylish/whatever you call it, hairstyle. Really disturbs me a lot... Meet Alvin at the overhead bridge and head to gym.

At gym, we saw this gay ass who always ask people for money at 761 basketball court! Dude, this guy is hella gay, trust me... He just go around the gym looking at guys and then giving that freaky smile... He sucks and Irwin, please stop saying he's my best friend cause he is yours! Ahahahaha!!

After gym, we went back to Mac to meet Andrew and Adrian cause we(SP people) have got a exam to catch! Ahahaha... And that special one is still there, of course with that guy hahaha...
Found out that they are actually from the same sporting club.

"From the moment that I meet you, it was so damn real"

Ahhh really need to cut down on my expenses nowadays... Spending way too much! Banked in some money on 18th and already spent $80+ by 20th... What the hell is wrong with me!? Ahahahaha!

Bettas rocks!!!

Well, I bought some fish and traveled to quite a number of places to look at bettas (bettas are also known as fighting fish). Jalan Kayu sure have a decent number of fish farms. Went to Katong after that and found Sincere Aquarium. Its a new shop and have good quality and quantity of fishes. And the fishes are on sale! 40% off! Bought 2 for $30, a lavender and orange black. The uncle is a nice guy. He gave kC and me some knowledge about breeding and the fishes themselves. How I wish I have unlimited spaces to keep fishes... Haha.

My cute little lavender. (Argh, my camera/camera skill's too weak!)



Another shot.



This is my orange, the black isn't that obvious, just a little bit at the outline of the fins and tails.


Orange ( :

Will try to spawn them as soon as I get my hands on a suitable female ^^

Noooo! My female betta died!!! How can that be!?

I'm so sad... Poor fish...

There are many kind people around and I don't know who to love :D

Life hasn't been good. Its pretty damn boring, but then again, maybe its not. I guess I'm crazy, I'm a goner. I've got no motivation to study, all I think about is to have fun and fun and whenever I think of not being able to have fun, I'm like a... Whatever you call it.

I seriously need a time machine... Or a mind washer. I need to set somethings right, I need to forget all these lies. Things that should have been said, things that wasn't meant to be in my head.
I really hate the feeling that I get when I listen to certain songs, they really make me emotionally unstable. Yet, I want to listen to them. Haha, how weird can humans get... ...

"But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you."

Just read a mail about the four candles, Hope, Peace, Faith and Love. It really reminded me how important HOPE is. ( :

Sometimes in a relationship, when you love someone so much, you tend to forget that they are suppose to love you too. So I think people out there should stop wasting their time if the person they love don't show as much :D

Bettas are so cute! I just can't stop looking at them and sucking out the craps from their tanks. How I wish I can transform into a fish and swim in the ocean... Oh man, I'm beginning to hallucinate again. How stupid. Hahahaha...

I'm so afraid to love someone... The fear of going after, the fear of not being loved and the fear of losing... Courage! Courage! Courage! Courage! Courage!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Zzz... Zzz... Zzz...

People! Happy!

Human or rather, people do play a very important role in each and everyone of our lives. Each time I play basketball with some of my old primary school friends, there is this unexplainable feeling, so... Happy and some kind of a relief feeling... Hahaha!
And of course, I love people, listening to them talk, watching them do the stuffs and etc, etc. Maybe that's why I don't carry MP3 players around. I want to hear them talk! Ahahahaha!

Examination is around the corner again... If I'm not wrong, it should be August 14. Oh my, oh my, its August again... The month that I loved the most last year hahahaha! National day and birthdays, totally insane! Hahaha! People make lives wonderful!

I'm surprised that I am not glad about what happened. Haven't that what I have been wanting all these time...? Haha, maybe I'm not ready.

Sentosa was great! All my friends, they are just so great people! I love them! Looking forward to the next gathering... Till then, stay happy everybody! I'll be here for you people! :P (Don't believe in that ahahaha)

Life have been great! In fact, way too good! We chill everyday and night, party like there's no worries! Did super duper bad for my mid-semester test... Average score is like, 35. Ahahaha... I know I'm good, just lost the will to study just before the tests... You know, sometimes, things just cause so much impact that you go like "STUNT". Haha. Good night.

True ...

Sometimes when you look at things at a larger picture, you'll find that things may not be that bad. For example, when the girl you like found someone they really like, of course you'll feel sad after hearing the news. But all you have to do is to think about all the joyful moments she can have, the truest smiles, happiest laughers, all these may probably bring a smile to your face... I know this may sound gay but this is probably what they call "True Love" ( : Ahahahaha...

Whats left of me

Its hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen but its even harder to give up especially when its everything you ever wanted.

Examinations start on Monday and I'm feeling so sick... Guess I had too much fun, so much that I've forgotten how to study... But I'll study anyway. Hahaha.

If its a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT, I rather not have it! 3 months had pass since school started.. Just 3 months. 天 arr!!

Its my birthday!

"Uh... Uh... Yeah..." Ahahahaha what freaking sound is this man! Ahahaha... Cool! Today marks the 17th year since the creation of me! Well, of course if you include the 9 months, it isn't :D Ahahaha...

Hmmm... Every year of today, my family would have a so-called "cake cutting section" at night. Wahahaha! And, we'll usually do the same thing for everybody in the family... But this year its different! My brother is not around! He'd gone to serve his national service! Hahaha!

Birthday, birthday... People usually make a wish before blowing out the candles on the cake... Hmm, it may work for some people, but for me, heck no, I don't even make wishes no more! I've learnt that things that ain't meant to be, will never be! Haha..

In birthdays, you get greetings from people. Yeah, maybe even handshakes or hugs. But you know, sometimes a single greeting from a special someone meant as much as the a million "happy birthdays" or even receiving a million presents! Hahaha... Do you wish you were that special person to someone? Where is it!?

I got it! I got it! ( : Ahahahaha...

Significant 9 days! Bro going NS, lunnie's return and World Cup kicks off! Ahahaha!!!

Malaysia 1 day trip

Hohoho! Just came back from Malaysia! Went there at around 2 and shopped for junkie food and stuffs. I bought a tiny filter at RM 19! Hahaha... But I guess it isn't suitable for my tiny fishes ) : they seems to be having difficulties moving about when I on the filter... Maybe its too strong for the fishes.

Anyway, went to watch fireflies! They are super duper decent! Its like stars in the trees and then when they are near, you can actually catch them! Well, catch as in let them land on your palms and stuffs. Basically, the feeling is... Magical! Hahaha... I wasn't too happy though... Such a perfect moment and yet, can't share it with the one you loved... Ahhhh! Hahaha! I'm such a gayass...

I need to shop!!! Adidas' Point Guard Low caught my eye! I need a light weight shoe for basketball... And I want fishes! Its said that people who loves to rear fishes are boring. Well, I totally disagree. Rearing fishes are fun! They are so cute! Hahaha... Got to go relax! See you soon~

You are not alone

21st of May, another ordinary day... I'm really really bored now and I don't feel like sleeping cause I'll have to go to school once I wake up! So... Just let me talk about what I did today...

Woke up at around 9, played 2 or 3 NBA 06's games and lunch then slack and chat all the way until 3 or 4 before heading to Khatib MacDonald to meet Zhao Yi and Andrew. After awhile, Wei Xian and his girlfriend came, well not meeting us of course, just coincidence. Then Ser Chin and XinYi was here too and we went to have dinner... After dinner, went to walk around the "Pa-sa-ma-lum" and there was this Buddhism talk and palm reading 'station', so we stayed awhile and listen... Oh by the way, I bought a plasma bulb and I think its super cool! Had been wanting something like that since young! Haha... Then we headed home and I was like checking out the plasma bulb for around 45minutes, then watched Singapore Idol and here I am, preparing to sleep...

Good night, and you will never be alone, for I am here with you, though we are far apart, you're always in my heart.

Fixing A Broke Heart!

Went to old folks home day... Nothing much la, just slack around, talk cock to the elders, listen to them talk cock... Then had the class sing some songs to round up the whole event.

Went to play basketball after returning from the home, only took a 10 minutes break! I guess you can understand how tired I am right now... My eyes are burning... My muscles aren't aching thought... How weird... Hahaha.

Basketball was considerately fun today, played a number of matches and as usual win most of them :D ahahahaha ok la that's not true, sometimes I didn't win a single match and the reasons are, reason No.1: My mind is all about her. Reason No.2: My heart is all about her. Reason No.3: I am all about her. Wahahahaha! Oh, 1 more thing! I'm so so so into NBA Live 06! Ahahaha! Damn, am I considered as a lifeless freak? Basketball and girls are all I'm about! Ahahaha what a gay... I'm looking forward to the return of lunnie dog or whatever you want to call him, monkey, freak or even momma blablablabla. Hahahaha!!! Soon! Soon!