Noooo! My female betta died!!! How can that be!?

I'm so sad... Poor fish...

There are many kind people around and I don't know who to love :D

Life hasn't been good. Its pretty damn boring, but then again, maybe its not. I guess I'm crazy, I'm a goner. I've got no motivation to study, all I think about is to have fun and fun and whenever I think of not being able to have fun, I'm like a... Whatever you call it.

I seriously need a time machine... Or a mind washer. I need to set somethings right, I need to forget all these lies. Things that should have been said, things that wasn't meant to be in my head.
I really hate the feeling that I get when I listen to certain songs, they really make me emotionally unstable. Yet, I want to listen to them. Haha, how weird can humans get... ...

"But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you."

Just read a mail about the four candles, Hope, Peace, Faith and Love. It really reminded me how important HOPE is. ( :

Sometimes in a relationship, when you love someone so much, you tend to forget that they are suppose to love you too. So I think people out there should stop wasting their time if the person they love don't show as much :D

Bettas are so cute! I just can't stop looking at them and sucking out the craps from their tanks. How I wish I can transform into a fish and swim in the ocean... Oh man, I'm beginning to hallucinate again. How stupid. Hahahaha...

I'm so afraid to love someone... The fear of going after, the fear of not being loved and the fear of losing... Courage! Courage! Courage! Courage! Courage!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Zzz... Zzz... Zzz...

People! Happy!

Human or rather, people do play a very important role in each and everyone of our lives. Each time I play basketball with some of my old primary school friends, there is this unexplainable feeling, so... Happy and some kind of a relief feeling... Hahaha!
And of course, I love people, listening to them talk, watching them do the stuffs and etc, etc. Maybe that's why I don't carry MP3 players around. I want to hear them talk! Ahahahaha!

Examination is around the corner again... If I'm not wrong, it should be August 14. Oh my, oh my, its August again... The month that I loved the most last year hahahaha! National day and birthdays, totally insane! Hahaha! People make lives wonderful!

I'm surprised that I am not glad about what happened. Haven't that what I have been wanting all these time...? Haha, maybe I'm not ready.

Sentosa was great! All my friends, they are just so great people! I love them! Looking forward to the next gathering... Till then, stay happy everybody! I'll be here for you people! :P (Don't believe in that ahahaha)

Life have been great! In fact, way too good! We chill everyday and night, party like there's no worries! Did super duper bad for my mid-semester test... Average score is like, 35. Ahahaha... I know I'm good, just lost the will to study just before the tests... You know, sometimes, things just cause so much impact that you go like "STUNT". Haha. Good night.

True ...

Sometimes when you look at things at a larger picture, you'll find that things may not be that bad. For example, when the girl you like found someone they really like, of course you'll feel sad after hearing the news. But all you have to do is to think about all the joyful moments she can have, the truest smiles, happiest laughers, all these may probably bring a smile to your face... I know this may sound gay but this is probably what they call "True Love" ( : Ahahahaha...

Whats left of me

Its hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen but its even harder to give up especially when its everything you ever wanted.

Examinations start on Monday and I'm feeling so sick... Guess I had too much fun, so much that I've forgotten how to study... But I'll study anyway. Hahaha.

If its a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT, I rather not have it! 3 months had pass since school started.. Just 3 months. 天 arr!!

Its my birthday!

"Uh... Uh... Yeah..." Ahahahaha what freaking sound is this man! Ahahaha... Cool! Today marks the 17th year since the creation of me! Well, of course if you include the 9 months, it isn't :D Ahahaha...

Hmmm... Every year of today, my family would have a so-called "cake cutting section" at night. Wahahaha! And, we'll usually do the same thing for everybody in the family... But this year its different! My brother is not around! He'd gone to serve his national service! Hahaha!

Birthday, birthday... People usually make a wish before blowing out the candles on the cake... Hmm, it may work for some people, but for me, heck no, I don't even make wishes no more! I've learnt that things that ain't meant to be, will never be! Haha..

In birthdays, you get greetings from people. Yeah, maybe even handshakes or hugs. But you know, sometimes a single greeting from a special someone meant as much as the a million "happy birthdays" or even receiving a million presents! Hahaha... Do you wish you were that special person to someone? Where is it!?

I got it! I got it! ( : Ahahahaha...

Significant 9 days! Bro going NS, lunnie's return and World Cup kicks off! Ahahaha!!!

Malaysia 1 day trip

Hohoho! Just came back from Malaysia! Went there at around 2 and shopped for junkie food and stuffs. I bought a tiny filter at RM 19! Hahaha... But I guess it isn't suitable for my tiny fishes ) : they seems to be having difficulties moving about when I on the filter... Maybe its too strong for the fishes.

Anyway, went to watch fireflies! They are super duper decent! Its like stars in the trees and then when they are near, you can actually catch them! Well, catch as in let them land on your palms and stuffs. Basically, the feeling is... Magical! Hahaha... I wasn't too happy though... Such a perfect moment and yet, can't share it with the one you loved... Ahhhh! Hahaha! I'm such a gayass...

I need to shop!!! Adidas' Point Guard Low caught my eye! I need a light weight shoe for basketball... And I want fishes! Its said that people who loves to rear fishes are boring. Well, I totally disagree. Rearing fishes are fun! They are so cute! Hahaha... Got to go relax! See you soon~

You are not alone

21st of May, another ordinary day... I'm really really bored now and I don't feel like sleeping cause I'll have to go to school once I wake up! So... Just let me talk about what I did today...

Woke up at around 9, played 2 or 3 NBA 06's games and lunch then slack and chat all the way until 3 or 4 before heading to Khatib MacDonald to meet Zhao Yi and Andrew. After awhile, Wei Xian and his girlfriend came, well not meeting us of course, just coincidence. Then Ser Chin and XinYi was here too and we went to have dinner... After dinner, went to walk around the "Pa-sa-ma-lum" and there was this Buddhism talk and palm reading 'station', so we stayed awhile and listen... Oh by the way, I bought a plasma bulb and I think its super cool! Had been wanting something like that since young! Haha... Then we headed home and I was like checking out the plasma bulb for around 45minutes, then watched Singapore Idol and here I am, preparing to sleep...

Good night, and you will never be alone, for I am here with you, though we are far apart, you're always in my heart.

Fixing A Broke Heart!

Went to old folks home day... Nothing much la, just slack around, talk cock to the elders, listen to them talk cock... Then had the class sing some songs to round up the whole event.

Went to play basketball after returning from the home, only took a 10 minutes break! I guess you can understand how tired I am right now... My eyes are burning... My muscles aren't aching thought... How weird... Hahaha.

Basketball was considerately fun today, played a number of matches and as usual win most of them :D ahahahaha ok la that's not true, sometimes I didn't win a single match and the reasons are, reason No.1: My mind is all about her. Reason No.2: My heart is all about her. Reason No.3: I am all about her. Wahahahaha! Oh, 1 more thing! I'm so so so into NBA Live 06! Ahahaha! Damn, am I considered as a lifeless freak? Basketball and girls are all I'm about! Ahahaha what a gay... I'm looking forward to the return of lunnie dog or whatever you want to call him, monkey, freak or even momma blablablabla. Hahahaha!!! Soon! Soon!

Wish I could press rewind, and rewrite every line to the story of me and you... Hahaha... It have been quite a while... Study is hella stress... So much to do!!! Or maybe... Its my personal stuffs that's giving stress... I'm so lost and confused! I don't know what to do! Ahahahaha!!! Aiya, I better don't think about all those stuffs if not I'm gonna mention all the old sad stories again... But then... There isn't a thing I can talk about!!! My school life, forget it, it ain't colorful without her. Hahaha... Maybe my life is all about her... But I guess its time to move on...
Different have different views... Some think that its time to let go and move on while some told me to hold on... So lost!!!

Ahhhh! How I wish I had taken the chance... How that it had gone so far... Some people say its never too late to make up for regrets, but I guess some things can never be once it is lost.. Something like feelings, time, and memories...

I just found out I had always been this lost... Not knowing where I stand, not knowing what to do. You know that kind of feeling, wanting to be with someone so much, yet don't want them as your related partner, or rather, just wanna be closer to them, being able to see them everyday, the smile on their faces, their voice, share their sercets and joys, despair and sorrow...
I believe this kind of feeling is call fear. The fear to lose them if we are related, the fear of rejection and the fear of being with them. Hmmm.. Fear of being with them? That bullshit, I typed that randomly hahaha.. I think the correct phrase should be, The shyness or weakness when we faces someone we like...

I'm gonna do my programming thing now. See'ya!

"You're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful its true, there must be an angel with a smile in her face, when I thought that I should be with you, but its time to face the truth, I'll never be with you..."

Today is a funky day... I was so happy as Lakers edged Suns! Kobe made the buzzer! I love you Kobe!!! ( : Then I went to town with my homies and walk around... Had dinner and then I decided to send a message to someone special, haha... Well, there was only 1 reply and everything was dead... This was probably the first time I got owned by this person through sms... Totally owned... Probably I said something saddening, but I seriously doubt so... I merely went like "What you doing? So long then reply, I found something to do, that's to disturb you" Hahaha whatever... Something must have happened. Hahahaha let is burn! Let is burn... Nights.

"Love is one big illusion, something I should try to forget..."

I wanna ask her out! I wanna speak to her! I wanna walk by her side! But I'm a wuss! Ahahahaha... I guess I'm unwanted by her ) :

Lost and so confused

I have fallen, fallen into this deep lake. I tasted the sweetness in it and I can't seems to get enough of it... Today, I'm out into the ocean... Feel so lost without the smile... We are so far away, one in the east and one is the west... I miss the sweet little smile ( :

Ahhhh I'm crazy! I don't know what I'm talking about! Ahahahaha... Hmmm, my dream life is probably like that: going to school everyday, and if school ends at 12, I'll go hang out with the person I like, have dinner with her, send her home at around 8, go basketball court play abit... Shoot shoot ball... Go home at 10, watch abit of TV, sleep. If school ends at 5, then it'll have to depend one the special one :D Thats my dream live! Hahaha so sweet right... Alright lets sleep ( :