Malaysia 1 day trip

Hohoho! Just came back from Malaysia! Went there at around 2 and shopped for junkie food and stuffs. I bought a tiny filter at RM 19! Hahaha... But I guess it isn't suitable for my tiny fishes ) : they seems to be having difficulties moving about when I on the filter... Maybe its too strong for the fishes.

Anyway, went to watch fireflies! They are super duper decent! Its like stars in the trees and then when they are near, you can actually catch them! Well, catch as in let them land on your palms and stuffs. Basically, the feeling is... Magical! Hahaha... I wasn't too happy though... Such a perfect moment and yet, can't share it with the one you loved... Ahhhh! Hahaha! I'm such a gayass...

I need to shop!!! Adidas' Point Guard Low caught my eye! I need a light weight shoe for basketball... And I want fishes! Its said that people who loves to rear fishes are boring. Well, I totally disagree. Rearing fishes are fun! They are so cute! Hahaha... Got to go relax! See you soon~

You are not alone

21st of May, another ordinary day... I'm really really bored now and I don't feel like sleeping cause I'll have to go to school once I wake up! So... Just let me talk about what I did today...

Woke up at around 9, played 2 or 3 NBA 06's games and lunch then slack and chat all the way until 3 or 4 before heading to Khatib MacDonald to meet Zhao Yi and Andrew. After awhile, Wei Xian and his girlfriend came, well not meeting us of course, just coincidence. Then Ser Chin and XinYi was here too and we went to have dinner... After dinner, went to walk around the "Pa-sa-ma-lum" and there was this Buddhism talk and palm reading 'station', so we stayed awhile and listen... Oh by the way, I bought a plasma bulb and I think its super cool! Had been wanting something like that since young! Haha... Then we headed home and I was like checking out the plasma bulb for around 45minutes, then watched Singapore Idol and here I am, preparing to sleep...

Good night, and you will never be alone, for I am here with you, though we are far apart, you're always in my heart.

Fixing A Broke Heart!

Went to old folks home day... Nothing much la, just slack around, talk cock to the elders, listen to them talk cock... Then had the class sing some songs to round up the whole event.

Went to play basketball after returning from the home, only took a 10 minutes break! I guess you can understand how tired I am right now... My eyes are burning... My muscles aren't aching thought... How weird... Hahaha.

Basketball was considerately fun today, played a number of matches and as usual win most of them :D ahahahaha ok la that's not true, sometimes I didn't win a single match and the reasons are, reason No.1: My mind is all about her. Reason No.2: My heart is all about her. Reason No.3: I am all about her. Wahahahaha! Oh, 1 more thing! I'm so so so into NBA Live 06! Ahahaha! Damn, am I considered as a lifeless freak? Basketball and girls are all I'm about! Ahahaha what a gay... I'm looking forward to the return of lunnie dog or whatever you want to call him, monkey, freak or even momma blablablabla. Hahahaha!!! Soon! Soon!

Wish I could press rewind, and rewrite every line to the story of me and you... Hahaha... It have been quite a while... Study is hella stress... So much to do!!! Or maybe... Its my personal stuffs that's giving stress... I'm so lost and confused! I don't know what to do! Ahahahaha!!! Aiya, I better don't think about all those stuffs if not I'm gonna mention all the old sad stories again... But then... There isn't a thing I can talk about!!! My school life, forget it, it ain't colorful without her. Hahaha... Maybe my life is all about her... But I guess its time to move on...
Different have different views... Some think that its time to let go and move on while some told me to hold on... So lost!!!

Ahhhh! How I wish I had taken the chance... How that it had gone so far... Some people say its never too late to make up for regrets, but I guess some things can never be once it is lost.. Something like feelings, time, and memories...

I just found out I had always been this lost... Not knowing where I stand, not knowing what to do. You know that kind of feeling, wanting to be with someone so much, yet don't want them as your related partner, or rather, just wanna be closer to them, being able to see them everyday, the smile on their faces, their voice, share their sercets and joys, despair and sorrow...
I believe this kind of feeling is call fear. The fear to lose them if we are related, the fear of rejection and the fear of being with them. Hmmm.. Fear of being with them? That bullshit, I typed that randomly hahaha.. I think the correct phrase should be, The shyness or weakness when we faces someone we like...

I'm gonna do my programming thing now. See'ya!

"You're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful its true, there must be an angel with a smile in her face, when I thought that I should be with you, but its time to face the truth, I'll never be with you..."

Today is a funky day... I was so happy as Lakers edged Suns! Kobe made the buzzer! I love you Kobe!!! ( : Then I went to town with my homies and walk around... Had dinner and then I decided to send a message to someone special, haha... Well, there was only 1 reply and everything was dead... This was probably the first time I got owned by this person through sms... Totally owned... Probably I said something saddening, but I seriously doubt so... I merely went like "What you doing? So long then reply, I found something to do, that's to disturb you" Hahaha whatever... Something must have happened. Hahahaha let is burn! Let is burn... Nights.

"Love is one big illusion, something I should try to forget..."

I wanna ask her out! I wanna speak to her! I wanna walk by her side! But I'm a wuss! Ahahahaha... I guess I'm unwanted by her ) :

Lost and so confused

I have fallen, fallen into this deep lake. I tasted the sweetness in it and I can't seems to get enough of it... Today, I'm out into the ocean... Feel so lost without the smile... We are so far away, one in the east and one is the west... I miss the sweet little smile ( :

Ahhhh I'm crazy! I don't know what I'm talking about! Ahahahaha... Hmmm, my dream life is probably like that: going to school everyday, and if school ends at 12, I'll go hang out with the person I like, have dinner with her, send her home at around 8, go basketball court play abit... Shoot shoot ball... Go home at 10, watch abit of TV, sleep. If school ends at 5, then it'll have to depend one the special one :D Thats my dream live! Hahaha so sweet right... Alright lets sleep ( :

With Love

The feeling is so strong!!! ( : I'm falling in love with you everytime I see your smile! I'm falling in love with you everytime you speak to me! I'm falling in love with you everytime I come near you! Hahahaha... Well, even thought all the above didn't actually happen, but... I'm just so glad! Hahahaha... Actually... I don't know why I'm feeling so happy, I shouldn't be feeling so! Good night people! Oh yeah, Happy birthday to doggy You Lun and Kenneth! Damn... 17 already... Dahaha!

Life hasn't been bright these few days... Watching all those people walking pairs by pairs, hand in hand... And here I am, falling deeper and deeper into this dreadful 'manhole'... Well, before I conclude on anything, I guess I'll just wait a few days or so... People do live a busy life after all.. ( :
Oh, I also realized that "not fair" is quite a crappy word so I'll try not to use it as much as possible. Haha, I guess I'm kinda slow but I finally know that the world was never made fair... So... Yeah, I'll cut down on using that crappy word...

Anyway, there is school tomorrow! Ahhhh! Its kinda bored... Listening to all those crappy stuffs... And to make matters worst, I don't have a motivation to study... All I do everyday I daydream in classes... Damn! I found out everything I talk about will lead me to the same old topic again! Crap!

Ahahaha... Tomorrow is Lakers VS Suns in the 2006 Playoff! All the best Lakers and Kobe, I believe in you even thought I don't hold high hopes :D hahahaha! Nights ( :

How's school?

School... Hmmm... Should be considered very cool ( : My classmates are cool, the lecturer are cool and the school environment's cool! Ahahahaha! Get to know most my friends during the orientation... We went to play pool on flag day! Ahahaha!

School started on Monday and the lessons are kinda boring... Sitting around, can't seems to beable to absorb... Maybe I'm still in holiday mood...

Anyway, today's maths lesson was freaking boring and I decided to switch on my lappy... I appeared offline in msn and I saw this special person coming online... I observed for a while and noticed that "this person's" status didn't become busy or be right back. This was kinda encouraging as "this person's" status is usually busy or be right back so I decided to chat with "this person"(since the maths lesson's boring :D). But the moment I changed my status to online, "this person" became busy straight away! WHAT THE FUCK!? Could this be pure coincidence or is it something more...? Well, it's a fact that I rarely message "this person" when "this person" is busy or be right back so... Maybe "this person" was avoiding me... Well, I don't know... And certainly hope not cause I'm quite sure that this special person still helds a special place in my heart ( :

"It's hard to watch the person you love not love you back, but it's even harder to watch them love someone else."

Weakling me

Ahhh I was acting stupid again! Normally, when you and I see a friend, we'll probably wave our hands or call their name as a signal, saying "hi" or any other greetings. But then... I somehow can't do a shit when this special person appears! She just freeze my heart and I can feel butterflies in my stomach! Ahahahaha... I don't even dare to look at here lor... Damn! But I'll work on it...

Anyway, school, I mean orientation, was pretty cool... Made lots of new friends, almost the whole class. However, I just can't accept the fact that there isn't hot girls or there is just so little females in the class!!! Damn!!! I can't accept this!!! Ahahahaha... But the class was overall great...

( :

Freak I am!

I think I, myself is a freak! Hahaha... I'm weird... I feel so freaky all out of sudden... I don't even know what the fuck I want!? Isn't that funny?! Ahahaha...
Well, it goes like that:
I love you, but doesn't have the courage to claim you, therefore I'm retreating, trying to forget. After afew weeks, I found out I can't... You still have my heart... But I believe we ain't meant to be... But again, I have the urge to wanna be with you... ... Ahahahahaha! I'm crazy!

"Why limit yourself to a pond of guys when there is a ocean out there."

You slew my will with a phrase,
marked my destiny with a move &
make me wanna die with your existence.

I'm so sad... Everyone I cared about have left me... I'm all alone. The person I loved had forgotten about my existence... Maybe I should die.

Ahahahaha!!! April Fool Joke! HAHAHA!

Ok, I know that is
LAME.

Hahaha... Yup, time is passing so fast. A quarter of 2006 had past... Kinda missing the old days in school... We can crap with our friends, be with the people you love and on and on... There is so much love in school! Hahaha... Nothing much to say...
May the people I love be happy forever and ever ( :

NBA

I went to bought a NBA Live 06 game the other day and I kinda enjoyed it at the beginning but... After I switch the mode to Starter, I was playing Rookie originally, I only managed to win 1 game! That kinda pissed me off... The game cheats! If you leads your opponent at the first quater, they will come back at the second and give you heck lot of 3 pointers and then no matter where you shoot, you can't get the ball in! And you can fouled every now and then! Damn... Well, maybe it was the team I was using... Lakers really sucked hard, well I mean the lineups... The players sucked other then Kobe... Or maybe I haven't get the hang of the game yet... I'll see... Maybe I should try other tactics... Haha...

Went to play ball at 755 today and I feel that I got to train harder! Hahaha... Yup, my life is all about basketball these days... Kinda boring... But its fun. Ahahahaha I think that sounded contradictory but... Thats what I'm all about! Ahahahaha! Lame. :D I'm off the bed I guess... Night!

First love by Utada Hikaru
(English Translation)

In your final kiss
I could taste the flavour of tobacoo
It was a bitter and painful smell

At about this time tomorrow
I wonder where you'll be
I wonder who you'll be thinking of

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one

The time which has stopped
Is about to start again
It's just that there are things I don't want to forget

At about this time tomorrow
I'm sure I'll be crying And I'll probably be thinking of you

You will always be inside my heart
Because it's a place that will forever be yours alone
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad love song
Now and forever...

This is a good song... Beautiful and sweet... Really describe first love!

Imagine me without you, I'll be so lost and confused.


Cool! I didn't step out of house for 3 days! Ahahahaha... And I did these!
- Wake up at 10am.
- Chat/rot in front of PC till 2pm.
- Physical training till 5pm.
- Watch TV/anime till 10 to 12am.

Ahahahaha! Cool huh!?

Boring! Need to go for the Singapore Poly check up tomorrow... It sux! Waste of time! Hmmm... I'm just wondering if I'll ever have another chance to... You know what... If! It just happens that there is another tinky winky chance or something that looks like a hint! I'm gonna take the chance man! Haha... Well, if all that didn't happen, then I'll have to wish for another pretty posh lady to appear in my bioelectronics course :D


"If you're here, please leave a trail so that I can follow up."

"You have to take chances for the things you care about."

Yu Yu Hakusho is such a cool anime! Well, its a pretty old one I suppose... Have been watching it from youtube these few days and yes, youtube, I love you!!! Wahahaha! Its just so cool! You can get almost all the good stuffs there! Clean ones of course ( : But I'm rather pissed off by it these few days... My stuffs just can't seem to be able to be fully loaded!!! Damn...

I found out people aren't that sweet afterall. Sometimes they can't be honest with each another even if they label themselves as friends... Hmm... Maybe I'm over sensitive... Anyway, I don't know why, but each time I used my msn for this special purpose, I'll feel so damn relieved, glad, happy and... ( :

By the way, just a... Whatever you call this, we shouldn't tired ourselves out even if its about having fun or interest... So... Take care! ( :

For a beautiful future!

Finally get to know what school and courses I'll get into... Its Singapore poly! And I'll be attending Bioelectronics... Wonder who will my classmates be... What kind of people are they and will poly life be interesting... Ahahahaha. Most importantly, I need to know if my course can lead me to a bright future!!! I want to earn big money! I want to drive a CLK! Muahahahaha!!!

Haiz... Better cherish the remaining time before school starts. Like I said, life isn't so great these few days... Boring! Bored! Dead! Rot! These are what I have been doing! I really wish that I can study secondary 3 and 4 again... Then I'll live it to the fullest... My life is going on to a new chapter... Everything is gonna be different... Girls meet new guys, guys meet new girls, ahahaha! Aiya! What I want to say is, hope is fading! ( :

Beautiful girls, kind girls, good girls, please go into Bioelectronics! *Prays hard*
Ahahahaha I wasn't serious there! :P

I'm gay! (Not homo) :D

Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! I'm rotting like an apple! Ahahahaha!!! Arghhh.... I found out that there isn't much people I can hang out with... And that's a pretty sad thing... I've never notice this in the past... What in the world is happening!!! Haiz... Sitting at home... Doing nothing... Watch TV, listening to the same songs, jumping/crawling/running around like a retard have become my daily routine... Going to bed soon... Good night people.. May the fairy of fun, joy and love visit me soon! ( :