"Love is one big illusion, something I should try to forget..."

I wanna ask her out! I wanna speak to her! I wanna walk by her side! But I'm a wuss! Ahahahaha... I guess I'm unwanted by her ) :

Lost and so confused

I have fallen, fallen into this deep lake. I tasted the sweetness in it and I can't seems to get enough of it... Today, I'm out into the ocean... Feel so lost without the smile... We are so far away, one in the east and one is the west... I miss the sweet little smile ( :

Ahhhh I'm crazy! I don't know what I'm talking about! Ahahahaha... Hmmm, my dream life is probably like that: going to school everyday, and if school ends at 12, I'll go hang out with the person I like, have dinner with her, send her home at around 8, go basketball court play abit... Shoot shoot ball... Go home at 10, watch abit of TV, sleep. If school ends at 5, then it'll have to depend one the special one :D Thats my dream live! Hahaha so sweet right... Alright lets sleep ( :

With Love

The feeling is so strong!!! ( : I'm falling in love with you everytime I see your smile! I'm falling in love with you everytime you speak to me! I'm falling in love with you everytime I come near you! Hahahaha... Well, even thought all the above didn't actually happen, but... I'm just so glad! Hahahaha... Actually... I don't know why I'm feeling so happy, I shouldn't be feeling so! Good night people! Oh yeah, Happy birthday to doggy You Lun and Kenneth! Damn... 17 already... Dahaha!

Life hasn't been bright these few days... Watching all those people walking pairs by pairs, hand in hand... And here I am, falling deeper and deeper into this dreadful 'manhole'... Well, before I conclude on anything, I guess I'll just wait a few days or so... People do live a busy life after all.. ( :
Oh, I also realized that "not fair" is quite a crappy word so I'll try not to use it as much as possible. Haha, I guess I'm kinda slow but I finally know that the world was never made fair... So... Yeah, I'll cut down on using that crappy word...

Anyway, there is school tomorrow! Ahhhh! Its kinda bored... Listening to all those crappy stuffs... And to make matters worst, I don't have a motivation to study... All I do everyday I daydream in classes... Damn! I found out everything I talk about will lead me to the same old topic again! Crap!

Ahahaha... Tomorrow is Lakers VS Suns in the 2006 Playoff! All the best Lakers and Kobe, I believe in you even thought I don't hold high hopes :D hahahaha! Nights ( :

How's school?

School... Hmmm... Should be considered very cool ( : My classmates are cool, the lecturer are cool and the school environment's cool! Ahahahaha! Get to know most my friends during the orientation... We went to play pool on flag day! Ahahaha!

School started on Monday and the lessons are kinda boring... Sitting around, can't seems to beable to absorb... Maybe I'm still in holiday mood...

Anyway, today's maths lesson was freaking boring and I decided to switch on my lappy... I appeared offline in msn and I saw this special person coming online... I observed for a while and noticed that "this person's" status didn't become busy or be right back. This was kinda encouraging as "this person's" status is usually busy or be right back so I decided to chat with "this person"(since the maths lesson's boring :D). But the moment I changed my status to online, "this person" became busy straight away! WHAT THE FUCK!? Could this be pure coincidence or is it something more...? Well, it's a fact that I rarely message "this person" when "this person" is busy or be right back so... Maybe "this person" was avoiding me... Well, I don't know... And certainly hope not cause I'm quite sure that this special person still helds a special place in my heart ( :

"It's hard to watch the person you love not love you back, but it's even harder to watch them love someone else."

Weakling me

Ahhh I was acting stupid again! Normally, when you and I see a friend, we'll probably wave our hands or call their name as a signal, saying "hi" or any other greetings. But then... I somehow can't do a shit when this special person appears! She just freeze my heart and I can feel butterflies in my stomach! Ahahahaha... I don't even dare to look at here lor... Damn! But I'll work on it...

Anyway, school, I mean orientation, was pretty cool... Made lots of new friends, almost the whole class. However, I just can't accept the fact that there isn't hot girls or there is just so little females in the class!!! Damn!!! I can't accept this!!! Ahahahaha... But the class was overall great...

( :

Freak I am!

I think I, myself is a freak! Hahaha... I'm weird... I feel so freaky all out of sudden... I don't even know what the fuck I want!? Isn't that funny?! Ahahaha...
Well, it goes like that:
I love you, but doesn't have the courage to claim you, therefore I'm retreating, trying to forget. After afew weeks, I found out I can't... You still have my heart... But I believe we ain't meant to be... But again, I have the urge to wanna be with you... ... Ahahahahaha! I'm crazy!

"Why limit yourself to a pond of guys when there is a ocean out there."

You slew my will with a phrase,
marked my destiny with a move &
make me wanna die with your existence.

I'm so sad... Everyone I cared about have left me... I'm all alone. The person I loved had forgotten about my existence... Maybe I should die.

Ahahahaha!!! April Fool Joke! HAHAHA!

Ok, I know that is
LAME.

Hahaha... Yup, time is passing so fast. A quarter of 2006 had past... Kinda missing the old days in school... We can crap with our friends, be with the people you love and on and on... There is so much love in school! Hahaha... Nothing much to say...
May the people I love be happy forever and ever ( :

NBA

I went to bought a NBA Live 06 game the other day and I kinda enjoyed it at the beginning but... After I switch the mode to Starter, I was playing Rookie originally, I only managed to win 1 game! That kinda pissed me off... The game cheats! If you leads your opponent at the first quater, they will come back at the second and give you heck lot of 3 pointers and then no matter where you shoot, you can't get the ball in! And you can fouled every now and then! Damn... Well, maybe it was the team I was using... Lakers really sucked hard, well I mean the lineups... The players sucked other then Kobe... Or maybe I haven't get the hang of the game yet... I'll see... Maybe I should try other tactics... Haha...

Went to play ball at 755 today and I feel that I got to train harder! Hahaha... Yup, my life is all about basketball these days... Kinda boring... But its fun. Ahahahaha I think that sounded contradictory but... Thats what I'm all about! Ahahahaha! Lame. :D I'm off the bed I guess... Night!

First love by Utada Hikaru
(English Translation)

In your final kiss
I could taste the flavour of tobacoo
It was a bitter and painful smell

At about this time tomorrow
I wonder where you'll be
I wonder who you'll be thinking of

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one

The time which has stopped
Is about to start again
It's just that there are things I don't want to forget

At about this time tomorrow
I'm sure I'll be crying And I'll probably be thinking of you

You will always be inside my heart
Because it's a place that will forever be yours alone
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad love song
Now and forever...

This is a good song... Beautiful and sweet... Really describe first love!

Imagine me without you, I'll be so lost and confused.


Cool! I didn't step out of house for 3 days! Ahahahaha... And I did these!
- Wake up at 10am.
- Chat/rot in front of PC till 2pm.
- Physical training till 5pm.
- Watch TV/anime till 10 to 12am.

Ahahahaha! Cool huh!?

Boring! Need to go for the Singapore Poly check up tomorrow... It sux! Waste of time! Hmmm... I'm just wondering if I'll ever have another chance to... You know what... If! It just happens that there is another tinky winky chance or something that looks like a hint! I'm gonna take the chance man! Haha... Well, if all that didn't happen, then I'll have to wish for another pretty posh lady to appear in my bioelectronics course :D


"If you're here, please leave a trail so that I can follow up."

"You have to take chances for the things you care about."

Yu Yu Hakusho is such a cool anime! Well, its a pretty old one I suppose... Have been watching it from youtube these few days and yes, youtube, I love you!!! Wahahaha! Its just so cool! You can get almost all the good stuffs there! Clean ones of course ( : But I'm rather pissed off by it these few days... My stuffs just can't seem to be able to be fully loaded!!! Damn...

I found out people aren't that sweet afterall. Sometimes they can't be honest with each another even if they label themselves as friends... Hmm... Maybe I'm over sensitive... Anyway, I don't know why, but each time I used my msn for this special purpose, I'll feel so damn relieved, glad, happy and... ( :

By the way, just a... Whatever you call this, we shouldn't tired ourselves out even if its about having fun or interest... So... Take care! ( :

For a beautiful future!

Finally get to know what school and courses I'll get into... Its Singapore poly! And I'll be attending Bioelectronics... Wonder who will my classmates be... What kind of people are they and will poly life be interesting... Ahahahaha. Most importantly, I need to know if my course can lead me to a bright future!!! I want to earn big money! I want to drive a CLK! Muahahahaha!!!

Haiz... Better cherish the remaining time before school starts. Like I said, life isn't so great these few days... Boring! Bored! Dead! Rot! These are what I have been doing! I really wish that I can study secondary 3 and 4 again... Then I'll live it to the fullest... My life is going on to a new chapter... Everything is gonna be different... Girls meet new guys, guys meet new girls, ahahaha! Aiya! What I want to say is, hope is fading! ( :

Beautiful girls, kind girls, good girls, please go into Bioelectronics! *Prays hard*
Ahahahaha I wasn't serious there! :P

I'm gay! (Not homo) :D

Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! I'm rotting like an apple! Ahahahaha!!! Arghhh.... I found out that there isn't much people I can hang out with... And that's a pretty sad thing... I've never notice this in the past... What in the world is happening!!! Haiz... Sitting at home... Doing nothing... Watch TV, listening to the same songs, jumping/crawling/running around like a retard have become my daily routine... Going to bed soon... Good night people.. May the fairy of fun, joy and love visit me soon! ( :

Its my life! Its now or never!

Today is a boring day. I sat in front of my computer starting from 10:45am to around 3pm chatting in mIRC. At around 3pm, I got my ass off my chair and did some workouts which lasted till 4:45pm. Then, I loaded a couple of Inuyasha movies in youtube.com and went to watch a show on channel U which starts at 5pm. After the show, I went to watch my Inuyasha Movie and then had my dinner at around 8pm. After which, I continued to sit in from of my computer and rot. I managed to play afew rounds of solitaire before I went to take a bathe. After that, the time is around 11:15pm. I managed to get into a conversation with someone in msn and then here am I writing my blog at 12:42am.

-A normal day of Geeky Toh.

Ahahahaha!!! I changed my blog skin today! Well, probably because I think my previous skin has a small window and the writings are pretty small to see, so I decided to get rid of them! Anyway, life have indeed been boring... Can't wait for school to start...

Right beside, yet a hundred miles...

"So near yet so far"... This quote is probably one of the better known ones. It can be considered as a quote can't it? Hahaha, who cares...

Final destination 3. This movie is hella gross... Gruesome scenes that I personally can't take. Its not that I'm scare or what, I just can't take gruesome sights!!! Blame it on my genes of you want to :D. Well, I'll not be a spoiler so... Catch the movie if you wanna know what I'm talking about!

Anyway, have you ever experienced walking beside somebody who you really cared for and only to feel so neglected when they slowed down just to ask another person a question that you probably know the answer? For example, you're walking beside this 'special' person and then she started slowing down and turned to your friend saying, "Hey you know Jane(Example) is having this blablablablabla" and as a matter of fact, Jane(Example) is also your friend and someone you knew! What! What! What!!! What is this!?!? Bullshit!!! Ahhh... I know... Sometimes things just can't be helped... And we may deserve it... But you know... Ssometimes your mind just blacked out! You can't think! Your guts shrink! Your heart skips another beat everytime you speak! And of course, everytime they speak... But then, even if its a sentence or maybe even a word that brings smile to their faces, everything is worth it. ( :

The Lifeless.

"I'm the king of rot! I rot at home everyday, from morning to night, 24 hours a day. I got no life! I sit in front of my computer from morning to night, 12 hours a day. I got nothing better to do! I dream everyday; day dream when I'm awake and the 'real' dream when I'm asleep. I'm the king of rot!"

That's a poem written by Kenny Toh. Wahahahaha! Oh my gaw... I'm becoming more and more lazy, more and more lame! Arghhhhhh!!! Its really very very very very boring!!! No games to play, no places to hang out and no nuts to do!!! I'm going crazy~ I wanna be your baby, cause you and me, yes we can make it~ pui pui pui! Why the heck am I typing the lyric! See I'm already mad! :D

I'm afraid... Afraid of facing something which is nothing much but a mere human being and yes, 'it' is made of fresh and blood like you and me. This being is so special that each time we meet, 'it' freezes my mind. I tried talking, but nuts came out. Actually I'm so afraid of 'it'.
Actually... I'm not really sure about what I'm afraid of... Maybe I need to lose myself ( :

What a day!

English: B4
Mathematics: B3
Science(Chemistry/Biology): B3
Humanities(Social Studies/History): A1
Pure Geography: B3
Mother Tongue: B4
Design and Technology: C6 [ This one is bullshit!]

L1R4: 14 L1R5:18

Yeah! Finally got our O levels result today! So glad that most of my friends, well almost all~, obtained cool grades!!! Well, I was pretty amazed by my result!!! Damn... I was a potential F9 maths student and I actually scored a B3! Holy crap...!!! Wahaha... Anyway, I was damn pissed with my D and T's grade... I worked so hard and only manage to score a C6!? What the fuck!? Ahahaha... Quite pleased with my results also lah... But too bad I didn't manage to win toto... Damnit!

Ahhh!!! Now I have to worry about what courses to take... Headache again... Hahahaha... Aiya, heck care! Remember? I live for the moment!!! Wahahaha... All the best people! Good night and sweet dreams! ( :

"For you I'd cross the world
For you, I'd do anything"

So sick. So sick.

叶子。

Life is just so weird... You never know if things happened out of coincidence or is it meant to be... Sometimes you'll just miss the chance that you have been waiting for without even knowing it... To me, one of the worst feeling is probably having hope, and then ripped of it. Really make one confused and close to going insane... ... Wahahahaha!!!

Anyway, life have been considerably good, but it can be better :D Wahahahaha! Pretty bored these days... Waiting for results to be released this Friday. Fear! Fear! Fear! Can you see fear in the eyes of the students who sat for O levels last year!? I don't know, but one thing for sure, you shall see none in mine for I'm the man without fear. Wahahahahaha!!! See, told you that people gets close to crazy... Ahahahaha! Arghhhhh! I'm crazy so let the whole entry be filled with madass purple! Muahahaha...

"Don't take the one you can live with, wait for the one you can't live without."

Hm.

Have you ever feel so disappointed cause you have mistrusted someone, believing everything they did is for your good? It may be a misunderstanding, but you just don't want to clear things up...

Feed my hatred; devour my heart.

"Don't believe your friends when they ask you to be honest with them. All they really want is to be maintained in the good opinion they have of themselves."

Was chatting around with my cousins the other day and he talked about his friend who like to bullshit, talk cock and talk big. I was like, "hey! Those sounded familiar!". But this friend of his is really good, he "bull-ed" about him having a Jaguar, you know those two hundred thousand plus cars, in his garage without his dad knowing it. Then I was like, "geez, when I grow up, I got to be a Scientist! There is a need for me to open a special "humanlogy" department in the Science Center where everything about why humans lie, bullshit, behaves hypocritically, etc, etc is studied!" Ha.

"Before I met her I'd be walking through life thinking I was happy, that I was complete... but now I can't go back to just being me because now I know what it's like to be whole."