Progress or...?

Wahahahaha today is the day after Christmas, also named Boxing day! Ermmm... Honestly, I got no idea that such day existed until someone in irc said so... Hahaha... So... I guess its obvious enough that I don't know what does it do and what's it for... Hahaha.

Like a quote said, "Many people want to be the sun that brightens up your life, but I want to be the moon that shines on you during your darkest hours." This quote is so true... If only I have a chance to... Hahaha... Simple words like 'yes', 'no', 'don't know' may sometimes be solution or answers to doubts which caused many sleepless nights... All you need to do is to think carefully... Or rather, if you're lost, just choose the way that is the brightest to everyone, including yourself! I know... Things won't always turn out good for everyone... So, consulting a third party could be a good idea... Human beings are made selfish afterall! Remember this... Well, I'm not saying that we should always do things that reflect the positive on ourselves, just that we need see who needs the positive ray of light more...

Good night people... May the best fall upon all. ( :

Merry Christmas!

Ho, ho, ho! Merry Christmas! Wahahahaha!!! Silent night~ Holy night~ :D
This Christmas eve is kinda boring for me... Did nothing special, just slacked around... Hahaha. Should have at least gone down to Orchard right!? Damn! Anyway, I was pretty glad that the 848 coffee shop revived! Yeah~ hahaha.

Christmas is so beautiful! Awwwwww... Too bad something is missing... Ahahahaha!!!

Lastly,

I would like to wish everyone a Happy Merry Christmas and of course, to You! ( :

Creakkkk Kinnggg~

Wo0o0o0~ All the chalets and 'slacking sections' have ended, for now, that it ( :
Went to my family's chalet and then the... Erm... Not sure if I should call it the 2A2 2003's chalet or whatever, at Changi and Coastal Sand respectively...
Oh yeah, YouLun is back and we went to his house to stay for around 4 days and 3 nights. Haha, 1st night: Did stupid things till around 3 or 4 then went to play some stupid computer games with Andrew till 7... Pretty stupid... Hahaha... Second night: Pretty damn tired so I guess... I slept at around 11 - 12. Third night: Pretty much same as the second one. Fourth: Abit later then the previous 2.(Seems kinda lame to elaborate like this, but I'm lazy :D ahahaha.)

Chalets:

Nothing much to do actually, just chatted and crapped till the morning, played abit of cards, eat eat and drink drink ( : wahahaha... The true meaning of relaxing! Haiz... It would be perfect if there that one thing is around... Ahhhhhh! Forget that! I'm pretty much cool with it now, feeling more 'released'. But still, I CAN'T BREAK THROUGH! Wahahahaha... Christmas is round the corner... But... I'm so dead... Not sure if I'm making any progress but... I'm lost for words... Hahaha...

So bored!!! I think I'll need to go look for jobs the next week... Sooo short of cash... Well, not really that poor, just feeling kinda pissed when my $$$ falls below a certain amount :D

"Herherherherherherherherherherherherherherherherher"
Sweet dreams people.
( :

Horoscope / Dead

Horoscopes. Sometimes these readings are quite accurate... My reading for 8/12, "If you've been dreaming about change, today is the day to start making it happen." Hahahahahaha... Really wondering if I should follow this... Arghhhhh I'm going crazy!!!

Can't break through! Can't break through!! Can't break through!!! Hopes were given time and time, but smashed again and again... Why is this process continuing and never seems to stop...? I'm really getting tired of this and I believe everyone is... Too much odds. I never seems to do things the right way and forever so wussy... Hahaha... Went to Alvin's chalet at Aranda downtown on Wednesday... Hmmm, should I say its fun or... Ahahahahaha... Forget it, don't wish to talk about it... Watched "Chicken Little" this afternoon, another dreadful event, am I thinking too much or its just plain simple? Different people just have different lives... Guess my life isn't gonna be that easy after all...
I have become a totally pessimistic bastard who looks at world hopelessly and forever worrying about every shit that happened. The best part of it is that I'm freaking balless and I don't see any room for improvement.

Ever heard of the story about a girl with too much 'Curiosity' and opened a chest? She released all those 'flies' with, 'Jealousy', 'Sickness', 'Death', 'Hatred', etc, etc... Why are there only 1 fly carrying 'Hope'? If only there were more hopes, things would definitely be better for everyone... Trust, confident and courage is all that I need now... Seemed closer, yet drifting further and further away...
) :

Ahhhhhhhhh!!! Whatever~ tomorrow, is gonna be a new day! ( : maybe I should just get away for a few days or maybe weeks to cool down...

Pathetic I am!

Bad... Bad... Bad...I'm so pathetic and depressed... Haha, maybe depressed is a little too serious... I'll just use... Arghhh... I don't know. Feeling so restless since yesterday and I'm so upset with myself!!! Forever so... Hopeless. Ahahaha, I think I have become a super duper pessimistic person!!! This is booshit! I wasn't like this in the past! Some said I should just be myself... But after thinking about it, I think that's just me! Isn't I this quiet since... Think about it, how many times did I seriously started a 1 to 1 conversation? I'm usually the one who replies or just crap around in a group... I'm just this freaking weak... Arghhhhh... Nevermind, I will try harder again... Ahahaha wondered how many times I have said this and how much did I actually improved...?

Anyway, went to a job interview this morning with Alvin... The pay was really impressive... But I`ve lost the motivation to work or do whatever craps since last night ) :
Went to gym after that and was so restless that I could barley do any workouts after the first exercise... After that, we went to 761 to play basketball! Oh my god! At lest some comforting event happened ( : I met my 2 years-no-see basketball buddy! Ahahaha... Yeah he improved a lot! And I meant a lot! He couldn't do layups in the past, couldn't shoot properly and always gets the ball out when he's near the line... But look at him today! Woah... Impressive layups with tricks, handsome shooting style and dribble pass people(abit dirty though :D) Ahahahaha!!!

So hungry right now... Dinner time!

12 days left before lunnietic comes to town.

Wehehehe

Happy thoughts, Happy thoughts and a little fairy dust. These makes the formula to let you fly! Ahahaha! Well, fly as in physically(According to Petter Pan) or mentally ( : Ahahaha crap...

Something surprising happened this morning and I was... *Lost for words* Ahahahaha!!! Don't wish to go into details but... Yeah!
Arghhhh, I only managed to wake up at 11:30... That's considered freaking late for me!!! Usually wakes up at 8 - 10... Anyway, went to the gym today(Yes!!! Finally after such a long break! Ahahahaha...) Totally tired out... Did workouts from around 2:30 to 5+ shiok...! Hahahaha... Hmmm... Sat around under some blocks for a while before heading to 200+ for balling... Went to a coffee shop and slacked, then ball awhile more before heading home... Well, today is considered a much lively day compared to yesterday... Wahahaha!!! Hmmm... Wonder what's the cause... :D

Found out that I'm a rather moody person after some recent events... Little things can get me all down and I'll behave as if I'm dead... Well, little things does not refers to those normal daily life incident, examples: quarreling with someone(I don't do this! Just a example anyway), losing a basketball game or even being broke! These are nothing!!! Ahhh! Don't even know what am I trying to say. Hahaha...

1 more thing! Bon voyage to Alvin, who will be leaving for Thailand tomorrow! Hahaha... Should really sleep now... Oyasumi nasai! Tomorrow is gonna be better!

Purpose of life

Ahhhhhhh!!! Wasted the whole of today doing basically nothing! Yes! And I mean nothing! Sat in front of the PC and TV the whole day, and to make matter worst, there isn't a hell of a soul around!!!

Hmmm... After abit of thinking, I feel that life has become meaningless... Had been studying all these while for the O levels and now that its over, I live aimlessly...
There used to be a motivation to go to school- school ended and there is nothing I can do about it... There used to be a motivation to play games- What is game when there is a greater priority in life...? There used to be a motivation to earn big money- Money can't buy everything...
I always say "if only, if only, if only" and I realized that why people always say "if only I had/have" and rarely say "if only I don't have"? Maybe the problem is with myself... Yes, I'm asking for more, and will never be contented I suppose... But I don't have what it takes... Is it confidence that I lacked?

Have been trying to look for jobs... But suddenly have a feeling like, 'for what?' Money can't buy everything; opportunities that we missed, time spent unwisely or even correct our regrets. I have a feeling that I'm not ready to work... But I know I should...
Ahahahahaha, you see, this is what happens when people has nothing to do, they think too much
( : hahahaha...

I just hate winter... Rains so much... Maybe I should just hibernate through this season...


"Because of you, the rain has stopped falling"

(¯`v´¯)

The closer I get to you

Donny Hathaway & Roberta Flack

The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving me all you got, your love has captured me... Over and over again, I try to tell myself that we, could never be more then friends and all the while inside I knew it was real... The way you make me feel... Lying here next to you, time just seems to fly. Needing you more and more, let's give love a try... Sweeter than sweeter love grows, and heaven's there for those who fool the tricks of time with the hearts in love you find, true love, in a special way...
The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving me all you got, your love has captured me... Over and over again, I try to tell myself that we could never be more then friends and all the while inside I knew it was real... The way you make me feel... The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving you all I got, your love has captured me... The closer I get to you, the feeling comes over me, pulling closer, sweet as the gravity!

Getting lazier and lazier each day... How weird can human beings get... Ahahahaha... Time to sleep! The following days are gonna be a little dead :D Sweet dreams.

Prom was sick! I'm sick! :D

Prom night was sick!!! Hahahaha... Everyone was so crazy and yup, I'm sure we had fun ( : however, the food isn't that cool, and I still remember a comment made by ZiCai, 'The food is considered good for this kind of hotel lah'. Ahahahahahaha!!! I wonder is it a compliment or... Sarcasm. Hahaha... Yeah, the event was really really mad and it was so 'hot' that I nearly suffocated!! :D :D :D
Ermm... I'm not gonna elaborate the happenings later that night, or rather morning, cause ermm... Its simply indescribable :D

Ahhhhhhhh!!! I'm dying! Couldn't sleep even after staying up for more than 24 hours!!! I laid on bed for 2 hours, feeling extremely hungry, but have no appetite! Ahahahaha... Probably this, probably that~ Ahhhh, I'm mad! Hahahaha, whatever~ Time to slack/ball!!!
( :

Ended! All ended!

Everything have finally ended! School, O levels, all and all! Hmmmm... Don't really have the excited feeling though... Hahaha... It just another day~ Maybe I'll have to clear all my books and papers and blablabla to have that kind of 'Shiok ar!', 'Sibei song ar!' feelings... Ahahahahaha...

Next event will be prom night. Ahhhh... So scary... Wonder any crazy thing gonna happen that day... Oh yeah... My cousin will be leaving for America on 25th November, 6.15a.m. for holiday... Let me wish her bon voyage here ( :
Had a little change in my hair too... Arghhhhh regret cutting short! Damnit... Haha anyway, Alvin have this colour now(more or less~) And I have, this+this! Well, not 2 colors but the fusion of the 2 colors, dark red violet :D. Ahahahahaha crap.

Failed 2 jobs 'interview' so far... Finally realize how hard it is to find a job... Nevermind~ will try harder some other time... Aiya, feeling so bored right now... Nothing to do... And the weather is freaking cold~ Ahahaha... Let me go rot now... Rot... Rottttt...

Ahhhh...

Dang Dang Dang Dang Dang!!! My prelims' all messed up! Wahahahaha Got like 27 to 32 for L1R4... Hahahahaha... But I'm only worried for my maths... I believe I can do well for other subjects, but for maths, I'm SCARE!!!

Hahaha... Anyway, hmmm... Some stuffs happened lately and I was really DEPRESSED! Yes, I mean depressed! Every food I tasted seems so dull... And the weather, seemed to be contrasting with my feelings. The rain just won't stop!!! Hahaha... But the truth is out pretty soon!(Yeah, thanks to my great courage :P) Damnit! I was feeling mad and happy at the same time when I know the truth! Happy: Well, to put this in simple term, 'there is still HOPE'. Mad: Hmmm... WHAT THE HELL! I WAS ALL SAD FOR THAT 3 DAYS! DAMNIT! Hahahahaha!!!

Oh yeah, and O levels is finally coming... Can't wait for it!!! Although I know I'm not that ready, but I really wished that it will be over tomorrow... Hope that Prom night will be fun and unforgettable! (Well, unforgettable in a pleasant way~) Yeah, nothing much to do these days... Usually start my day with a maths paper, and will hang out sometimes in the afternoon or just rot all the way till night... Hahahaha... Bored. Oh 1 more thing, Bleach owns!!! Really nice anime! Waiting for the 9 pm show to start now... So bored...

Tomorrow is gonna be better! ( :

Prelims over...!

Hmmm... Time isreally flying... We're still talking about how long the prelims was and now its all over... Hahahaha. Its really freaking bored!!! No mood for studies, all my songs are 'rusty', listened to them hundred of times and... There seemed to be a barrier in my mind, blocking me time and time... Ahhhhh!!!

Hmm... 30+ days more to 'O' levels. Feeling kinda excited right now! :D But the main concentration is still the prelims results! Damn, can't wait to see how badly(or well :D), I've done. Haven't been studying hard for this exam, only reading through... But I know the things are in my head! Nothing much to talk about now... I think I'll go and take a bath and... Continue dreaming ( : Ahhhhh!!! Its still early and I'm already feeling so barking bored~ Hahahahaha...

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Hahahaha... Prelims' pretty cool... Feeling so weak these few days... Full of fear in my heart... Fear of something that can never be explained... Doing maths now and will be sleeping soon. Paper 2 tomorrow... All the best people.

Song of the week.

Perfect. Simple Plan

Hey dad look at me, think back and talk to me, did I grow up up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time, doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disappove all along...

And now I try hard to make it, I just wanna make you proud... I'm never gonna be good enough for you, can't pretend that I'm alright, and you can't change me... Cause we lost it all... Nothing last forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect... Its just too late and we can't go back... I'm sorry, I just can't be perfect...

I try not to think about the pain I feel inside... Did you know you used to be my hero... All the days you spend with me, now seem so far away and it feels like you don't care anymore... And now I try hard to make it, I just wanna make you proud... I'm never gonna be good enough for you, I can't stand another fight and nothing is alright...

Cause we lost it all... Nothing last forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect... Its just too late and we can't go back... I'm sorry, I just can't be perfect... Nothing is gonna change the things you said, nothing is gonna make this right again... Please don't turn your back, I can't believe its hard just to talk to you... But you don't understand...

Cause we lost it all... Nothing last forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect... Its just too late and we can't go back... I'm sorry, I just can't be perfect...
(X2)

**Blink** A week passed.

Aiyo... In a blink, the September holiday passed. Went to school on Monday & Wednesday. Hahahaha I skipped the lessons on Tuesday! Shiok! Cause its Devil Wong's class muahahaha!!! Her lesson is so boring and she believes that she is so wise! That we can't pass Biology without her... Hiaz... This kind of mentality... No wonder still a MISS. Wahahahahaha!!!

Time is so precious that I can't bear to use it for sleeping! Wednesday 'morning' : Hmmmm... 1 word, great. Hahahaha... Race till 3:20a.m yesterday and it was freaking gay. Toyota Corolla was total ownage!!! Hahaha, awesome turning speed and crazy handles! Did some maths yesterday and today but I can't seem to be able to concentrate... Aiya! Should be ready for the paper by Monday(Well, hope so~ hahahaha). Feeling kinda pissed right now... Time passes so fast! How I wished it was still the beginning of the year!!! Everyday seemed so bored... Bored! Bored!! Bored!!! ) :

'My life has a superb cast but I can't figure out the plot.'

Saturday O.o

Prelims had finally started!!! Hmmmm, had our English paper 1 and 2 & Social Studies on Friday. English seemed to be a killer and Social Studies... Devil? Hahahaha... I was so happy on Friday night. The world appeared to be so beautiful~ ( :

Played cs this morning and I was pretty... Hot. Wahahaha ( : From rank 178 to 1 with the frag of 102 kills - 40 death :D :D :D & my nick was... ... juzPL. ( : Wahahahahaha!!! Meaningful nick aye? Ahahahahaha!!! Oh yeah, tidied my table today and the difference was... Chaos and serene :D I really enjoyed looking at mess being cleared up, especially when I was involved in the cleaning up! Haha... After I cleared the table, I went to sleep, which angered me after I woke up as I sees afternoon naps as wasting of time. Hahaha... Luckily, there was this show, 'She Diao Ying Xiong Juan', as it 'mesmerised' me for 2 hours :D hahahaha!!!

Hiaz... Its pretty damn bored these days and the only damn thing that I think I can do is study... Which I haven't appeared to have mush interest yet ( : but I believe I will, soon. Hahaha... Till then, stay healthy pee-plee! Hahaha!

- Every time I hear your voice, smiling becomes an involuntary reflex. ( :

Awwww... Finally it came...

Haiz... No more lessons for a month or more... I'm sure I'll miss... Everybody : D Oh... Another thing, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL TEACHERS!!! Weeeet-weet-weeuuu~ Hahahaha... Oh its Ivan's birthday too! Happy Birthday Ivan! ( : & not forgetting Mr. Hiang Peng my dear cousin ( : HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALL!!!
Hmm... Is August such a good month for giving birth? Haha! Well, I mean... There is just so much birthdays this month!!! But its a good thing I suppose. Birthdays are good! They bring people closer together! :D Hmmm... Just to sum things up, this August is probably one of the best I'll ever have in my life... Hehe...
Sigh... There is still not much courage in me... Prelims is coming and I'm still... Idling. Got to go sleep soon... Hope that tomorrow will be a better day ( :

'Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.'

Hehehehe

Hahahaha saw this as one of the topic in a channel... Is it true? Hope not : D


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Heart is a simple yet complicated word.

Yup... 'Heart' appears to be a simple word. But what's deep inside can be complicated... So complicated that human beings cannot understand...

Went to play basketball this morning at 8. We played and slacked and ate and played and slacked and ate all the way till 8 at night, haha. Freaky tired...

There are so many kind of people in this dreadful world... Some have no courage to write a story while others, end one... If only human never learnt to be untruth, never learnt to lust & never learnt to hate... If only fairies exist... Arghhhhhh 'If only' is such a bad word!

Courage is such an important thing. With this special 'element', human can actually achieve a lot. And why must I lack this 'element'! There is so little courage within me... Maybe its better to free our mind and focus on what's more important... Prelims in 5 days... Shouldn't be a problem... Yeah! I have faith! Hahahahaha... Time to slack... May the world know peace!!! ( :

Failure... Me.

I have failed myself again... why can't I make good use of the opportunities that I had!!! Fuck it! Arghhhhh...