To be with you.

Hold on little girl, show me whats he's done to you... Stand up little girl, broken heart can't be that bad... When its through, its through, fate could twist the both of you... So c'mon baby, come on over, let me be the one to show you!
I'm the one who wants to be with you, deep inside I hope you feel it too, waited on a line of dreams and blue, just to be the next to be with you...
Build up your confidence, so you can be on top for once, wake up, who cares about, little boys that talk too much,, I've seen it all, go down, your game of love was all rained out, so c'mon baby, come on over, let me be the one to hold you...

A lot of times in life, I tend to deceive myself, giving myself excesses that I got no idea is going to buy me what... I guess I'm hopeless in studies... Getting lazier and lazier as days go by and I knew I was ready for that test... Yet, it turned out to be a disaster...
When it comes to, you know what, I feel so lost... I'm always afraid that "they" would be irritated by me... But I'll feel so empty when I'm not speaking to "them"... Hahaha!

Cause its you and me, and all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to lose, and its you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you...

Mid Autumn Festival! Haha, its a exciting day ( :
We burnt, we laughed and we had fun! Hahaha, this is probably the festival I look forward to the most every year :D hahaha!

I'm feeling so tensed up! Lab test, presentation and... Life! Ahaha! Though much advises had been given, I still doesn't have the will to apply... Guess its all up to me ) :

And there is school tomorrow! Damn it! Ahhhhhhhhhhh! Sunday's always boring!!!

Something about you now, I can't quite figure out, everything she does is beautiful.

Life is considerably good... Still isn't getting the touch for digital electronics stuff... And each time I want to study at home, I'll definitely fall asleep! Haha.

Its finally Mid Autumn festival! Hmmm, doesn't really have the feeling to play around this year... Feel weird haha! Please let me have the strength to study a little later on, cause I didn't go for my DE lesson today :D

Ahahaha! Ok, ok, this was what happened, my 3 friends and I were having lunch and then deep inside us, we know we didn't want to go for this lesson cause its boring and is gonna last for 4 hours but in our mind, we know we should go... Its a tough decision isn't it? Hahaha! Then we had each of us flip a coin! The flower side = go home while the head = go for lesson... Well, we got 3 flowers and 1 head but still wasn't convinced that we should head home :D
So I suggest that we each message someone dear to us and asked them to just say yes or no without asking for the reason! :D :D Ahahaha and we got a draw! Now this is getting real tough huh? Hahaha! But, we decided not to go an hour later despite going through all the troubles.. Hahahaha!

My toilet's lock broke!! What to do! Ahahahaha!

My simple setup!

There is another dying fish being isolated ): his tummy is extremely bloated... Doubt he is gonna make it...

Fish, school and... Happy!

Check out my lavender! How much he has grown!!! Ahahaha! Maybe you can check back at the older posts and you'll see :D yup, he is the fish that I bought from Clementi, thinking that he was a female and was pretty mad about that... But now! He is my favorite fish!!!

Cool! I found a way to take clearer photos of my fishes! Hahaha! Check this out! The latest picture I took!
School is still like before, boring... Only when I'm chilling with my friends then its the real thing... Lessons are just pure. Zzz. Hahaha... Got to go sleep soon, waiting for my turn to bath.. Tomorrow is gonna be another long day!

No matter how tough things are, you never fails to keeps me going ( :

I'm sad. My results' horrendous. Got a 35 out of 100 for Principle of Electrical Electronics Engineering... Got a 55 for my Digital Electronics, well, I though I passed and was glad, but everyone in my class appeared to have scored 75 and above ) : and lastly, my Maths. Don't even wanna talk about it, but guess I will... A pathetic 12 out of 100... Probably expected of from my attitude towards studies...

Really need to study hard now... It seems so impossible to pass my maths... I got 1.8% out of 15% for this exam and didn't even know my results for the mid semester test... Probably a 30+ and that would make 25% in total... 4% out of 25%? Haha. The stress is increasing and I feel like running away...

Please, give me wings for I could fly. Give me strength for I could survive and give me love for I could die.

( :

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is low. You've probably either had only one relationship.. Or all of your relationships have been very similar. You still have a lot to learn... and a lot to try! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

Dude, the words in green isn't true is it? :D ahaha!

You Are 17 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... Love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

And wow, this is really accurate, I am 17! Ahahaha!

SCHOOL SUCKS! :D

All the best for the new semester.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Ahahaha! The few days before holiday end was insane! Alvin, kC, Phil and I went to fishing again! Well, we're just chilling at the jetty, eat our snacks, mooncakes! Ahahaha! And let the time past by us... After that, we decided to go cycling at after midnight! Damn! It was insane! My butt ache like mad... Went home to sleep at around 7:30 and woke up at 12:20 as the Starhub guy called, asking to go collect my phone...

Went to steamboat at Marina with my buddies! It was so fun! We can talk about anything under the sun or even insult one another! :D Ahahaha! Went to arcade and it was some money cheating machine... Weak ass games cost $1! Ahahah!

Went to 848 for a drink before heading home (: (: (: (: Hahahaha!!! Oyasumi Nasai! (:

4 more days to school! How I wish time machines do exist... Ahahaha! Today is Thursday, in other words, I went to town on Tuesday! Nothing much, walked around, watched a movie, ate garbage, oh wait! The Chicago Steakhouse was it? Anyway, its the "restaurant" next to Subway in Cine, the food was decent and serving considerably huge, at least for me :D ahaha! Fair price, $7.90 with soup, drink and maincourse.

Hmmm, what did I do yesterday... Hanged out at a bunch of fools but I was glad ^^ had been awhile since we had so much people! And talk about the afternoon, I was rotting like RIGHT NOW! Ahahaha! I'm going crazy! Everybody is playing MapleStory! But wait, there isn't anything do to even if they aren't playing 2D game so I guess... Its ok. ( : good job, continue killing those evil mushrooms and gain as much meso or level.

I'm gonna check some fishes now! Mata Ne.

You Are Iris

You are an interesting blend of fun and wisdom. You definitely make people think about themselves and their place in the world. But they'll have fun doing it. You definitely epitomize laughter therapy. You are a very enriching and entertaining friend!

What Color Purple Are You?

From this position,

to this,

then this,

and finally this!

And maybe this!

Ahahaha! I wonder who is the human who sleeps like this :D

What a morning!

Wow, just noticed that this is gonna be the 108th post for my blog! Time sure flies... And noooooooo! My vacation is down to the last week!!! This is bad! I hate going to school!

Oh, this morning was insane. We went to catch a movie at around 11:50pm(this was friday night) then to my house at around 2:30... Time passed pretty fast! Went to MacDonald for breakfast at 5:50 then came back to sleep :D ahaha! Well, didn't get to sleep immediately as my mind was trying to look for my heart :D well, if you know what I meant. Ahahaha! I think I slept at 7 cause my final look at the time was 6:50.

Hmmmm, maybe I'm a weird kid or too used to it. I just woke up at 11:30 despite the lack of sleep... Hahaha! Did all my fish stuffs and did a 180 degrees stunt ): ahahaha! It hurts! Cause you see, I was kind of a hyper person at home, tend to rush around and today, I didn't notice the water on the floor! Ahahaha! I slipped and crashed straight into the rabbit's cage! The pain was so intense that I couldn't stand for a minute! Ahaha!

Alright, got to go do some other stuffs now! Mata Ne!

You shouldn't let the past screw up the present, and destroy your future. Because I think we all should not be blamed for our past, but be judged by our future.

So many nights I sit by my window, waiting for someone to sing me her song. So many dreams I kept deep inside me, alone in the dark, but now you have come along...
You light up my life, you gave me hope, to carry on. You light up my days, and fill my nights with song...

Went fishing erm... Got no idea whats the time, anyway, we got no luck at all! Damnit! But I'm glad, it was a wonderful night ( :
Freaking tired right now and have to be up by 8:30 tomorrow... Should be in bed within a few minutes!

You light up my life.
LeAnn Rimes.

Behold... The most adorable, kind, so-called Sun Wu Kong...

THE YOUNG AND INNOCENT KENNY!

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

Hahaha! Went to play ball this morning, its cool ( : Then went home to relax and talk cock :D until 6:45 and I can't hold on any longer! Got to sleep! Hahaha... Woke up at 7:45, had dinner and then... Interact with my fish. Hahaha! I know that sounded dumb, but I think its fun! Hahaha! I think I'm falling sick... But then, who cares! I live for the moment! Ahahaha!

Hello! Wanna see how my little lavender is doing?!

THERE!

Hahahaha!!! Yeah, its growing well! Looks like all my fishes are happy except one big red guy... Always clamping its fin ) :

Hey you fools out there! Stop saying my post is all about fishes okay!? Hahahaha! Alright! Lets see what I can blog about...

Hmmm, its the second week of my holiday so lets talk about school... First of all, studying sucks, secondly, school sucks, thirdly, education sucks :D Ahahahaha! Ok ok, people will proberly go like "Yeah, yeah all those sucked and only your BETTA rocks okay?" Ahahahaha! C'mon! Its my hobby! Ahahaha!

Life had been great! But its boring... Hahaha, I know, its contradicting... "How the heck can life be great and is boring?!" Well, its great in a sense that I can feel all the love round me :D AHAHAHAHA ok, that's gay, but its true ( : And its boring cause we got not much place to hang out, no members to chill with! Maybe its time to recruit some new people ( :

Went for a hair cut this noon and I had to wait for an hour cause its a 'aunty base' ) : ahahaha! Yeah! Quite a numbers of aunties visit this hairdresser near my house and you know, ladies, take a long time to fix their hair ahahaha!

As you may have noticed, my entry today is long and the reason is... MSN IS DOWN! What the heck!? Ahahaha! I need that to get my game on you know what I'm saying? Ahahaha!

A sweet little rose for a special beautiful you ( :

If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders. Well, mine always find you ( :

Holiday sure is boring!!! Ahahaha!!! I was sooooo bored that I decided to take a picture of this baby mustard gas betta :D

Today is a great, great, fantastic, marvelous, super duper day! ( : Ahahahaha, yeah, we sure had fun at the Fuji Ice Palace! Ice skating is fun, but the skates are kinda loss after you skate for about 15 minutes... Went to chill at our usual place after that for dinner but kC and me left to collect our pineapple tars containers at 167 for our fishes :D hahaha!
Just to sum things up, 1 word: ENJOYED! Ahahaha!


Here are some of the pictures of my fish's bubble nest:

Bettas! Ahaha!

This is kC's golden female, cute isn't it? :D

My orange! Still looking for a female for it.

This boy is my favorite, sweet color ( :

See! Didn't lie to you right! Ahahaha!

This is the fish I mistook as a female, but I love him anyways haha!

The legendary turquoise dragon. Wait, its a fish isn't it? Ahahaha! Only manage to shoot the anal and caudal fins... Too fast for me!

Going to get my lavender female later on, hope that the deal will be a successful one ( :

NOOOO! I'm not gonna get my female today... The seller got to stay in camp ) :

Rest in peace Steve Irwin.

Okay, today's school session wasn't that bad, lecturer arrived at 9:25, talked some "language of enlightenment" to my friend and I. Hahahaha! Ended at around 40 minutes later and then met kC before heading to C328, had lunch and went home. Didn't do much at home, rotted and sleep.

Steve Irwin passed away today. I have to admit that during my sec 4 period, for once I thought that this person is insane... But then I can still remember how I enjoyed his "Croc file" during my secondary 1 to 3, everyday Sunday 10am... Hahaha, how time flies huh?
Anyway, what I truly want to say is how fragile life is... You never know what tomorrow may bring, a happy and healthy person today may become a dead, sick or incomplete one. So... We should tell everyone we love this very second that we love them. But I know... I WON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO DO SO! AHAHAHA!

Hahaha... The channel 8 show "Bao Siao Xin Ren Wang" is lame! Some or I should say ALL of the performance doesn't seems funny to me...
Oh! Tomorrow is the day when I'm going to get my lavender female, really look forward to it! ( :

This sucks! Got to go school tomorrow! Damn! My dad was watching "The Maid", you know the Singapore made ghost story, and I thought that its pretty much a weakass ghost movie though some parts are scary :D
Hahaha, this movie was the first movie I watched with someone special and the feeling is... Sweet. :D hahahha!

This is boring, I'm wondering why people sometimes put away or busy at msn when they are actually there :P

This is bad... I'm spending way too much money!!! I had spend around $200 in like... 3 to 4 weeks and I just can't save money!!! Ok ok, after this week, I must try my best not to withdraw already... Ahahaha! All the best to me ^^

I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again.

Ahhhhhh! I'm going crazy! Life hasn't been great! My lecturer just called me and inform me that I didn't do that well for my exam and is required to return to school on Monday... What to do... Studying just ain't my cup of tea and to make things worst, nothing to keep me going! ) :

Anyway, had fun yesterday at town ( : and the most fortunate thing is that, I missed the violent movie they watched! Ahahahaha!!! Really short of cash... Still need to look for a female fish... Looks like I'll have to cut down on my leisure expenses :D

Cause now, even I can tell, that I confused my feelings with the truth because I liked the view, when there was me and you ( :

Just came back from gym and should be having dinner but! I am too full to eat!!! Ahahahaha! I know I shouldn't be eating out but then I was so freaking hungry and can't resist the tasty food at 921! Hahahaha...

And just to add on, WHAT THE FUCK! I THINK THE "FEMALE" LAVENDER I BOUGHT IS A MALE! My god... I guess I just wasted $13 on a weakass fish which I though I can spawn with my male... This sucks!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

My "new" fishes at second week!


"I'm not in water... I'm floating in the air~"



"Why is my tank so dirty!!"



"Huh?"


Still trying hard to take better pictures, I think luck is pretty much needed :D ahahaha! Oh! Bought a female lavender for my male lavender! Can't wait to spawn them! But my female is kinda small, maybe I should say young. She is barely 2cm! Maybe 1.8 or .7 hahaha! Guess I'll just have to wait for a few weeks ( :

Exams' finally over! Time to rot! Ahahahaha!

"I wish I could carry your smile in my heart, for times when my life seems so low, It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring..."

Was reading through the testimonials we shared in friendster and my old posts here and the feeling is just not-so-great. Relationship really sucks to stay unmoved and ever worst when it widens.

) :

Triple S: Sour, sick, sucks.

Do you really still feel for this person when you see her with other guys hanging out 1 to 1 at certain places and then you get this really... Sick feeling, not the kind of sour jealousy, just wondering why is that guy not you... Hahaha. Sometimes its really really really hard to let go, even if you know things won't work out you wanted, you just can't forget everything and let go...

Today is my PEEE exam. Suppose to go study at 10 with Andrew and Adrian but my "bed-sticking" disease is getting worst :D hahaha, woke up at 8:15 but just keep cuddling around until 9:30... Bad, bad, bad, got to kick this habit...

Anyway, reached Khabit Mac at around 10:30 and then study just that little bit before heading to 848 for lunch and then talked cock all the way until Irwin arrive. We're having gym section today! Hooray! Ahahahaha!!! Oh, he brought a piece of news too, someone special is at MacDonald! And is with someone with weird/crazy/stylish/whatever you call it, hairstyle. Really disturbs me a lot... Meet Alvin at the overhead bridge and head to gym.

At gym, we saw this gay ass who always ask people for money at 761 basketball court! Dude, this guy is hella gay, trust me... He just go around the gym looking at guys and then giving that freaky smile... He sucks and Irwin, please stop saying he's my best friend cause he is yours! Ahahahaha!!

After gym, we went back to Mac to meet Andrew and Adrian cause we(SP people) have got a exam to catch! Ahahaha... And that special one is still there, of course with that guy hahaha...
Found out that they are actually from the same sporting club.

"From the moment that I meet you, it was so damn real"

Ahhh really need to cut down on my expenses nowadays... Spending way too much! Banked in some money on 18th and already spent $80+ by 20th... What the hell is wrong with me!? Ahahahaha!

Bettas rocks!!!

Well, I bought some fish and traveled to quite a number of places to look at bettas (bettas are also known as fighting fish). Jalan Kayu sure have a decent number of fish farms. Went to Katong after that and found Sincere Aquarium. Its a new shop and have good quality and quantity of fishes. And the fishes are on sale! 40% off! Bought 2 for $30, a lavender and orange black. The uncle is a nice guy. He gave kC and me some knowledge about breeding and the fishes themselves. How I wish I have unlimited spaces to keep fishes... Haha.

My cute little lavender. (Argh, my camera/camera skill's too weak!)



Another shot.



This is my orange, the black isn't that obvious, just a little bit at the outline of the fins and tails.


Orange ( :

Will try to spawn them as soon as I get my hands on a suitable female ^^

Noooo! My female betta died!!! How can that be!?

I'm so sad... Poor fish...

There are many kind people around and I don't know who to love :D

Life hasn't been good. Its pretty damn boring, but then again, maybe its not. I guess I'm crazy, I'm a goner. I've got no motivation to study, all I think about is to have fun and fun and whenever I think of not being able to have fun, I'm like a... Whatever you call it.

I seriously need a time machine... Or a mind washer. I need to set somethings right, I need to forget all these lies. Things that should have been said, things that wasn't meant to be in my head.
I really hate the feeling that I get when I listen to certain songs, they really make me emotionally unstable. Yet, I want to listen to them. Haha, how weird can humans get... ...

"But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you."

Just read a mail about the four candles, Hope, Peace, Faith and Love. It really reminded me how important HOPE is. ( :

Sometimes in a relationship, when you love someone so much, you tend to forget that they are suppose to love you too. So I think people out there should stop wasting their time if the person they love don't show as much :D

Bettas are so cute! I just can't stop looking at them and sucking out the craps from their tanks. How I wish I can transform into a fish and swim in the ocean... Oh man, I'm beginning to hallucinate again. How stupid. Hahahaha...

I'm so afraid to love someone... The fear of going after, the fear of not being loved and the fear of losing... Courage! Courage! Courage! Courage! Courage!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Zzz... Zzz... Zzz...

People! Happy!

Human or rather, people do play a very important role in each and everyone of our lives. Each time I play basketball with some of my old primary school friends, there is this unexplainable feeling, so... Happy and some kind of a relief feeling... Hahaha!
And of course, I love people, listening to them talk, watching them do the stuffs and etc, etc. Maybe that's why I don't carry MP3 players around. I want to hear them talk! Ahahahaha!

Examination is around the corner again... If I'm not wrong, it should be August 14. Oh my, oh my, its August again... The month that I loved the most last year hahahaha! National day and birthdays, totally insane! Hahaha! People make lives wonderful!

I'm surprised that I am not glad about what happened. Haven't that what I have been wanting all these time...? Haha, maybe I'm not ready.

Sentosa was great! All my friends, they are just so great people! I love them! Looking forward to the next gathering... Till then, stay happy everybody! I'll be here for you people! :P (Don't believe in that ahahaha)

Life have been great! In fact, way too good! We chill everyday and night, party like there's no worries! Did super duper bad for my mid-semester test... Average score is like, 35. Ahahaha... I know I'm good, just lost the will to study just before the tests... You know, sometimes, things just cause so much impact that you go like "STUNT". Haha. Good night.

True ...

Sometimes when you look at things at a larger picture, you'll find that things may not be that bad. For example, when the girl you like found someone they really like, of course you'll feel sad after hearing the news. But all you have to do is to think about all the joyful moments she can have, the truest smiles, happiest laughers, all these may probably bring a smile to your face... I know this may sound gay but this is probably what they call "True Love" ( : Ahahahaha...

Whats left of me

Its hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen but its even harder to give up especially when its everything you ever wanted.

Examinations start on Monday and I'm feeling so sick... Guess I had too much fun, so much that I've forgotten how to study... But I'll study anyway. Hahaha.

If its a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT, I rather not have it! 3 months had pass since school started.. Just 3 months. 天 arr!!

Its my birthday!

"Uh... Uh... Yeah..." Ahahahaha what freaking sound is this man! Ahahaha... Cool! Today marks the 17th year since the creation of me! Well, of course if you include the 9 months, it isn't :D Ahahaha...

Hmmm... Every year of today, my family would have a so-called "cake cutting section" at night. Wahahaha! And, we'll usually do the same thing for everybody in the family... But this year its different! My brother is not around! He'd gone to serve his national service! Hahaha!

Birthday, birthday... People usually make a wish before blowing out the candles on the cake... Hmm, it may work for some people, but for me, heck no, I don't even make wishes no more! I've learnt that things that ain't meant to be, will never be! Haha..

In birthdays, you get greetings from people. Yeah, maybe even handshakes or hugs. But you know, sometimes a single greeting from a special someone meant as much as the a million "happy birthdays" or even receiving a million presents! Hahaha... Do you wish you were that special person to someone? Where is it!?

I got it! I got it! ( : Ahahahaha...

Significant 9 days! Bro going NS, lunnie's return and World Cup kicks off! Ahahaha!!!

Malaysia 1 day trip

Hohoho! Just came back from Malaysia! Went there at around 2 and shopped for junkie food and stuffs. I bought a tiny filter at RM 19! Hahaha... But I guess it isn't suitable for my tiny fishes ) : they seems to be having difficulties moving about when I on the filter... Maybe its too strong for the fishes.

Anyway, went to watch fireflies! They are super duper decent! Its like stars in the trees and then when they are near, you can actually catch them! Well, catch as in let them land on your palms and stuffs. Basically, the feeling is... Magical! Hahaha... I wasn't too happy though... Such a perfect moment and yet, can't share it with the one you loved... Ahhhh! Hahaha! I'm such a gayass...

I need to shop!!! Adidas' Point Guard Low caught my eye! I need a light weight shoe for basketball... And I want fishes! Its said that people who loves to rear fishes are boring. Well, I totally disagree. Rearing fishes are fun! They are so cute! Hahaha... Got to go relax! See you soon~

You are not alone

21st of May, another ordinary day... I'm really really bored now and I don't feel like sleeping cause I'll have to go to school once I wake up! So... Just let me talk about what I did today...

Woke up at around 9, played 2 or 3 NBA 06's games and lunch then slack and chat all the way until 3 or 4 before heading to Khatib MacDonald to meet Zhao Yi and Andrew. After awhile, Wei Xian and his girlfriend came, well not meeting us of course, just coincidence. Then Ser Chin and XinYi was here too and we went to have dinner... After dinner, went to walk around the "Pa-sa-ma-lum" and there was this Buddhism talk and palm reading 'station', so we stayed awhile and listen... Oh by the way, I bought a plasma bulb and I think its super cool! Had been wanting something like that since young! Haha... Then we headed home and I was like checking out the plasma bulb for around 45minutes, then watched Singapore Idol and here I am, preparing to sleep...

Good night, and you will never be alone, for I am here with you, though we are far apart, you're always in my heart.

Fixing A Broke Heart!

Went to old folks home day... Nothing much la, just slack around, talk cock to the elders, listen to them talk cock... Then had the class sing some songs to round up the whole event.

Went to play basketball after returning from the home, only took a 10 minutes break! I guess you can understand how tired I am right now... My eyes are burning... My muscles aren't aching thought... How weird... Hahaha.

Basketball was considerately fun today, played a number of matches and as usual win most of them :D ahahahaha ok la that's not true, sometimes I didn't win a single match and the reasons are, reason No.1: My mind is all about her. Reason No.2: My heart is all about her. Reason No.3: I am all about her. Wahahahaha! Oh, 1 more thing! I'm so so so into NBA Live 06! Ahahaha! Damn, am I considered as a lifeless freak? Basketball and girls are all I'm about! Ahahaha what a gay... I'm looking forward to the return of lunnie dog or whatever you want to call him, monkey, freak or even momma blablablabla. Hahahaha!!! Soon! Soon!

Wish I could press rewind, and rewrite every line to the story of me and you... Hahaha... It have been quite a while... Study is hella stress... So much to do!!! Or maybe... Its my personal stuffs that's giving stress... I'm so lost and confused! I don't know what to do! Ahahahaha!!! Aiya, I better don't think about all those stuffs if not I'm gonna mention all the old sad stories again... But then... There isn't a thing I can talk about!!! My school life, forget it, it ain't colorful without her. Hahaha... Maybe my life is all about her... But I guess its time to move on...
Different have different views... Some think that its time to let go and move on while some told me to hold on... So lost!!!

Ahhhh! How I wish I had taken the chance... How that it had gone so far... Some people say its never too late to make up for regrets, but I guess some things can never be once it is lost.. Something like feelings, time, and memories...

I just found out I had always been this lost... Not knowing where I stand, not knowing what to do. You know that kind of feeling, wanting to be with someone so much, yet don't want them as your related partner, or rather, just wanna be closer to them, being able to see them everyday, the smile on their faces, their voice, share their sercets and joys, despair and sorrow...
I believe this kind of feeling is call fear. The fear to lose them if we are related, the fear of rejection and the fear of being with them. Hmmm.. Fear of being with them? That bullshit, I typed that randomly hahaha.. I think the correct phrase should be, The shyness or weakness when we faces someone we like...

I'm gonna do my programming thing now. See'ya!

"You're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful its true, there must be an angel with a smile in her face, when I thought that I should be with you, but its time to face the truth, I'll never be with you..."

Today is a funky day... I was so happy as Lakers edged Suns! Kobe made the buzzer! I love you Kobe!!! ( : Then I went to town with my homies and walk around... Had dinner and then I decided to send a message to someone special, haha... Well, there was only 1 reply and everything was dead... This was probably the first time I got owned by this person through sms... Totally owned... Probably I said something saddening, but I seriously doubt so... I merely went like "What you doing? So long then reply, I found something to do, that's to disturb you" Hahaha whatever... Something must have happened. Hahahaha let is burn! Let is burn... Nights.

"Love is one big illusion, something I should try to forget..."

I wanna ask her out! I wanna speak to her! I wanna walk by her side! But I'm a wuss! Ahahahaha... I guess I'm unwanted by her ) :

Lost and so confused

I have fallen, fallen into this deep lake. I tasted the sweetness in it and I can't seems to get enough of it... Today, I'm out into the ocean... Feel so lost without the smile... We are so far away, one in the east and one is the west... I miss the sweet little smile ( :

Ahhhh I'm crazy! I don't know what I'm talking about! Ahahahaha... Hmmm, my dream life is probably like that: going to school everyday, and if school ends at 12, I'll go hang out with the person I like, have dinner with her, send her home at around 8, go basketball court play abit... Shoot shoot ball... Go home at 10, watch abit of TV, sleep. If school ends at 5, then it'll have to depend one the special one :D Thats my dream live! Hahaha so sweet right... Alright lets sleep ( :

With Love

The feeling is so strong!!! ( : I'm falling in love with you everytime I see your smile! I'm falling in love with you everytime you speak to me! I'm falling in love with you everytime I come near you! Hahahaha... Well, even thought all the above didn't actually happen, but... I'm just so glad! Hahahaha... Actually... I don't know why I'm feeling so happy, I shouldn't be feeling so! Good night people! Oh yeah, Happy birthday to doggy You Lun and Kenneth! Damn... 17 already... Dahaha!

Life hasn't been bright these few days... Watching all those people walking pairs by pairs, hand in hand... And here I am, falling deeper and deeper into this dreadful 'manhole'... Well, before I conclude on anything, I guess I'll just wait a few days or so... People do live a busy life after all.. ( :
Oh, I also realized that "not fair" is quite a crappy word so I'll try not to use it as much as possible. Haha, I guess I'm kinda slow but I finally know that the world was never made fair... So... Yeah, I'll cut down on using that crappy word...

Anyway, there is school tomorrow! Ahhhh! Its kinda bored... Listening to all those crappy stuffs... And to make matters worst, I don't have a motivation to study... All I do everyday I daydream in classes... Damn! I found out everything I talk about will lead me to the same old topic again! Crap!

Ahahaha... Tomorrow is Lakers VS Suns in the 2006 Playoff! All the best Lakers and Kobe, I believe in you even thought I don't hold high hopes :D hahahaha! Nights ( :

How's school?

School... Hmmm... Should be considered very cool ( : My classmates are cool, the lecturer are cool and the school environment's cool! Ahahahaha! Get to know most my friends during the orientation... We went to play pool on flag day! Ahahaha!

School started on Monday and the lessons are kinda boring... Sitting around, can't seems to beable to absorb... Maybe I'm still in holiday mood...

Anyway, today's maths lesson was freaking boring and I decided to switch on my lappy... I appeared offline in msn and I saw this special person coming online... I observed for a while and noticed that "this person's" status didn't become busy or be right back. This was kinda encouraging as "this person's" status is usually busy or be right back so I decided to chat with "this person"(since the maths lesson's boring :D). But the moment I changed my status to online, "this person" became busy straight away! WHAT THE FUCK!? Could this be pure coincidence or is it something more...? Well, it's a fact that I rarely message "this person" when "this person" is busy or be right back so... Maybe "this person" was avoiding me... Well, I don't know... And certainly hope not cause I'm quite sure that this special person still helds a special place in my heart ( :

"It's hard to watch the person you love not love you back, but it's even harder to watch them love someone else."

Weakling me

Ahhh I was acting stupid again! Normally, when you and I see a friend, we'll probably wave our hands or call their name as a signal, saying "hi" or any other greetings. But then... I somehow can't do a shit when this special person appears! She just freeze my heart and I can feel butterflies in my stomach! Ahahahaha... I don't even dare to look at here lor... Damn! But I'll work on it...

Anyway, school, I mean orientation, was pretty cool... Made lots of new friends, almost the whole class. However, I just can't accept the fact that there isn't hot girls or there is just so little females in the class!!! Damn!!! I can't accept this!!! Ahahahaha... But the class was overall great...

( :

Freak I am!

I think I, myself is a freak! Hahaha... I'm weird... I feel so freaky all out of sudden... I don't even know what the fuck I want!? Isn't that funny?! Ahahaha...
Well, it goes like that:
I love you, but doesn't have the courage to claim you, therefore I'm retreating, trying to forget. After afew weeks, I found out I can't... You still have my heart... But I believe we ain't meant to be... But again, I have the urge to wanna be with you... ... Ahahahahaha! I'm crazy!

"Why limit yourself to a pond of guys when there is a ocean out there."

You slew my will with a phrase,
marked my destiny with a move &
make me wanna die with your existence.

I'm so sad... Everyone I cared about have left me... I'm all alone. The person I loved had forgotten about my existence... Maybe I should die.

Ahahahaha!!! April Fool Joke! HAHAHA!

Ok, I know that is
LAME.

Hahaha... Yup, time is passing so fast. A quarter of 2006 had past... Kinda missing the old days in school... We can crap with our friends, be with the people you love and on and on... There is so much love in school! Hahaha... Nothing much to say...
May the people I love be happy forever and ever ( :

NBA

I went to bought a NBA Live 06 game the other day and I kinda enjoyed it at the beginning but... After I switch the mode to Starter, I was playing Rookie originally, I only managed to win 1 game! That kinda pissed me off... The game cheats! If you leads your opponent at the first quater, they will come back at the second and give you heck lot of 3 pointers and then no matter where you shoot, you can't get the ball in! And you can fouled every now and then! Damn... Well, maybe it was the team I was using... Lakers really sucked hard, well I mean the lineups... The players sucked other then Kobe... Or maybe I haven't get the hang of the game yet... I'll see... Maybe I should try other tactics... Haha...

Went to play ball at 755 today and I feel that I got to train harder! Hahaha... Yup, my life is all about basketball these days... Kinda boring... But its fun. Ahahahaha I think that sounded contradictory but... Thats what I'm all about! Ahahahaha! Lame. :D I'm off the bed I guess... Night!

First love by Utada Hikaru
(English Translation)

In your final kiss
I could taste the flavour of tobacoo
It was a bitter and painful smell

At about this time tomorrow
I wonder where you'll be
I wonder who you'll be thinking of

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one

The time which has stopped
Is about to start again
It's just that there are things I don't want to forget

At about this time tomorrow
I'm sure I'll be crying And I'll probably be thinking of you

You will always be inside my heart
Because it's a place that will forever be yours alone
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad love song
Now and forever...

This is a good song... Beautiful and sweet... Really describe first love!

Imagine me without you, I'll be so lost and confused.


Cool! I didn't step out of house for 3 days! Ahahahaha... And I did these!
- Wake up at 10am.
- Chat/rot in front of PC till 2pm.
- Physical training till 5pm.
- Watch TV/anime till 10 to 12am.

Ahahahaha! Cool huh!?

Boring! Need to go for the Singapore Poly check up tomorrow... It sux! Waste of time! Hmmm... I'm just wondering if I'll ever have another chance to... You know what... If! It just happens that there is another tinky winky chance or something that looks like a hint! I'm gonna take the chance man! Haha... Well, if all that didn't happen, then I'll have to wish for another pretty posh lady to appear in my bioelectronics course :D


"If you're here, please leave a trail so that I can follow up."

"You have to take chances for the things you care about."

Yu Yu Hakusho is such a cool anime! Well, its a pretty old one I suppose... Have been watching it from youtube these few days and yes, youtube, I love you!!! Wahahaha! Its just so cool! You can get almost all the good stuffs there! Clean ones of course ( : But I'm rather pissed off by it these few days... My stuffs just can't seem to be able to be fully loaded!!! Damn...

I found out people aren't that sweet afterall. Sometimes they can't be honest with each another even if they label themselves as friends... Hmm... Maybe I'm over sensitive... Anyway, I don't know why, but each time I used my msn for this special purpose, I'll feel so damn relieved, glad, happy and... ( :

By the way, just a... Whatever you call this, we shouldn't tired ourselves out even if its about having fun or interest... So... Take care! ( :

For a beautiful future!

Finally get to know what school and courses I'll get into... Its Singapore poly! And I'll be attending Bioelectronics... Wonder who will my classmates be... What kind of people are they and will poly life be interesting... Ahahahaha. Most importantly, I need to know if my course can lead me to a bright future!!! I want to earn big money! I want to drive a CLK! Muahahahaha!!!

Haiz... Better cherish the remaining time before school starts. Like I said, life isn't so great these few days... Boring! Bored! Dead! Rot! These are what I have been doing! I really wish that I can study secondary 3 and 4 again... Then I'll live it to the fullest... My life is going on to a new chapter... Everything is gonna be different... Girls meet new guys, guys meet new girls, ahahaha! Aiya! What I want to say is, hope is fading! ( :

Beautiful girls, kind girls, good girls, please go into Bioelectronics! *Prays hard*
Ahahahaha I wasn't serious there! :P

I'm gay! (Not homo) :D

Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! I'm rotting like an apple! Ahahahaha!!! Arghhh.... I found out that there isn't much people I can hang out with... And that's a pretty sad thing... I've never notice this in the past... What in the world is happening!!! Haiz... Sitting at home... Doing nothing... Watch TV, listening to the same songs, jumping/crawling/running around like a retard have become my daily routine... Going to bed soon... Good night people.. May the fairy of fun, joy and love visit me soon! ( :

Its my life! Its now or never!

Today is a boring day. I sat in front of my computer starting from 10:45am to around 3pm chatting in mIRC. At around 3pm, I got my ass off my chair and did some workouts which lasted till 4:45pm. Then, I loaded a couple of Inuyasha movies in youtube.com and went to watch a show on channel U which starts at 5pm. After the show, I went to watch my Inuyasha Movie and then had my dinner at around 8pm. After which, I continued to sit in from of my computer and rot. I managed to play afew rounds of solitaire before I went to take a bathe. After that, the time is around 11:15pm. I managed to get into a conversation with someone in msn and then here am I writing my blog at 12:42am.

-A normal day of Geeky Toh.

Ahahahaha!!! I changed my blog skin today! Well, probably because I think my previous skin has a small window and the writings are pretty small to see, so I decided to get rid of them! Anyway, life have indeed been boring... Can't wait for school to start...

Right beside, yet a hundred miles...

"So near yet so far"... This quote is probably one of the better known ones. It can be considered as a quote can't it? Hahaha, who cares...

Final destination 3. This movie is hella gross... Gruesome scenes that I personally can't take. Its not that I'm scare or what, I just can't take gruesome sights!!! Blame it on my genes of you want to :D. Well, I'll not be a spoiler so... Catch the movie if you wanna know what I'm talking about!

Anyway, have you ever experienced walking beside somebody who you really cared for and only to feel so neglected when they slowed down just to ask another person a question that you probably know the answer? For example, you're walking beside this 'special' person and then she started slowing down and turned to your friend saying, "Hey you know Jane(Example) is having this blablablablabla" and as a matter of fact, Jane(Example) is also your friend and someone you knew! What! What! What!!! What is this!?!? Bullshit!!! Ahhh... I know... Sometimes things just can't be helped... And we may deserve it... But you know... Ssometimes your mind just blacked out! You can't think! Your guts shrink! Your heart skips another beat everytime you speak! And of course, everytime they speak... But then, even if its a sentence or maybe even a word that brings smile to their faces, everything is worth it. ( :

The Lifeless.

"I'm the king of rot! I rot at home everyday, from morning to night, 24 hours a day. I got no life! I sit in front of my computer from morning to night, 12 hours a day. I got nothing better to do! I dream everyday; day dream when I'm awake and the 'real' dream when I'm asleep. I'm the king of rot!"

That's a poem written by Kenny Toh. Wahahahaha! Oh my gaw... I'm becoming more and more lazy, more and more lame! Arghhhhhh!!! Its really very very very very boring!!! No games to play, no places to hang out and no nuts to do!!! I'm going crazy~ I wanna be your baby, cause you and me, yes we can make it~ pui pui pui! Why the heck am I typing the lyric! See I'm already mad! :D

I'm afraid... Afraid of facing something which is nothing much but a mere human being and yes, 'it' is made of fresh and blood like you and me. This being is so special that each time we meet, 'it' freezes my mind. I tried talking, but nuts came out. Actually I'm so afraid of 'it'.
Actually... I'm not really sure about what I'm afraid of... Maybe I need to lose myself ( :

What a day!

English: B4
Mathematics: B3
Science(Chemistry/Biology): B3
Humanities(Social Studies/History): A1
Pure Geography: B3
Mother Tongue: B4
Design and Technology: C6 [ This one is bullshit!]

L1R4: 14 L1R5:18

Yeah! Finally got our O levels result today! So glad that most of my friends, well almost all~, obtained cool grades!!! Well, I was pretty amazed by my result!!! Damn... I was a potential F9 maths student and I actually scored a B3! Holy crap...!!! Wahaha... Anyway, I was damn pissed with my D and T's grade... I worked so hard and only manage to score a C6!? What the fuck!? Ahahaha... Quite pleased with my results also lah... But too bad I didn't manage to win toto... Damnit!

Ahhh!!! Now I have to worry about what courses to take... Headache again... Hahahaha... Aiya, heck care! Remember? I live for the moment!!! Wahahaha... All the best people! Good night and sweet dreams! ( :

"For you I'd cross the world
For you, I'd do anything"

So sick. So sick.

叶子。

Life is just so weird... You never know if things happened out of coincidence or is it meant to be... Sometimes you'll just miss the chance that you have been waiting for without even knowing it... To me, one of the worst feeling is probably having hope, and then ripped of it. Really make one confused and close to going insane... ... Wahahahaha!!!

Anyway, life have been considerably good, but it can be better :D Wahahahaha! Pretty bored these days... Waiting for results to be released this Friday. Fear! Fear! Fear! Can you see fear in the eyes of the students who sat for O levels last year!? I don't know, but one thing for sure, you shall see none in mine for I'm the man without fear. Wahahahahaha!!! See, told you that people gets close to crazy... Ahahahaha! Arghhhhh! I'm crazy so let the whole entry be filled with madass purple! Muahahaha...

"Don't take the one you can live with, wait for the one you can't live without."

Hm.

Have you ever feel so disappointed cause you have mistrusted someone, believing everything they did is for your good? It may be a misunderstanding, but you just don't want to clear things up...

Feed my hatred; devour my heart.

"Don't believe your friends when they ask you to be honest with them. All they really want is to be maintained in the good opinion they have of themselves."

Was chatting around with my cousins the other day and he talked about his friend who like to bullshit, talk cock and talk big. I was like, "hey! Those sounded familiar!". But this friend of his is really good, he "bull-ed" about him having a Jaguar, you know those two hundred thousand plus cars, in his garage without his dad knowing it. Then I was like, "geez, when I grow up, I got to be a Scientist! There is a need for me to open a special "humanlogy" department in the Science Center where everything about why humans lie, bullshit, behaves hypocritically, etc, etc is studied!" Ha.

"Before I met her I'd be walking through life thinking I was happy, that I was complete... but now I can't go back to just being me because now I know what it's like to be whole."

Lunar New Year!

Wooooooooo!!! Firstly, I want to say that I'm hella glad that I've earned some money!!! Yeah!!! Worked as Yeo's 'ka kia' on 21st and 22nd at Woodlands, and 26th and 27th at Buki PanJang area... Lazy to describe the details... Hahaha...

Its freaking bored now that's why I decided to post some rubbish... Wahahaha... Its Chinese New Year!!! Tomorrow is gonna be a long day... But I have decided to spend some of it sleeping :D Wahaha... Anyway, Happy Lunar New Year people!!! Weee-u-weeet~~ Ahahaha ( :

"Never gone, Never far, In my heart is where you are"

Bad year for me!?

Firstly, I would like to say happy new year to everyone. Secondly, I want to say, WHAT THE FUCK! This year doesn't appear to be very bright to me... Still out of job and have been sick for the pass 6 days! Holy crap...
My throat still feels like burning coals but I think I have recovered from fever and flu already... So bored at home... The worst part is that I have no job! Damnit... Let me recover first before anything...

Progress or...?

Wahahahaha today is the day after Christmas, also named Boxing day! Ermmm... Honestly, I got no idea that such day existed until someone in irc said so... Hahaha... So... I guess its obvious enough that I don't know what does it do and what's it for... Hahaha.

Like a quote said, "Many people want to be the sun that brightens up your life, but I want to be the moon that shines on you during your darkest hours." This quote is so true... If only I have a chance to... Hahaha... Simple words like 'yes', 'no', 'don't know' may sometimes be solution or answers to doubts which caused many sleepless nights... All you need to do is to think carefully... Or rather, if you're lost, just choose the way that is the brightest to everyone, including yourself! I know... Things won't always turn out good for everyone... So, consulting a third party could be a good idea... Human beings are made selfish afterall! Remember this... Well, I'm not saying that we should always do things that reflect the positive on ourselves, just that we need see who needs the positive ray of light more...

Good night people... May the best fall upon all. ( :

Merry Christmas!

Ho, ho, ho! Merry Christmas! Wahahahaha!!! Silent night~ Holy night~ :D
This Christmas eve is kinda boring for me... Did nothing special, just slacked around... Hahaha. Should have at least gone down to Orchard right!? Damn! Anyway, I was pretty glad that the 848 coffee shop revived! Yeah~ hahaha.

Christmas is so beautiful! Awwwwww... Too bad something is missing... Ahahahaha!!!

Lastly,

I would like to wish everyone a Happy Merry Christmas and of course, to You! ( :

Creakkkk Kinnggg~

Wo0o0o0~ All the chalets and 'slacking sections' have ended, for now, that it ( :
Went to my family's chalet and then the... Erm... Not sure if I should call it the 2A2 2003's chalet or whatever, at Changi and Coastal Sand respectively...
Oh yeah, YouLun is back and we went to his house to stay for around 4 days and 3 nights. Haha, 1st night: Did stupid things till around 3 or 4 then went to play some stupid computer games with Andrew till 7... Pretty stupid... Hahaha... Second night: Pretty damn tired so I guess... I slept at around 11 - 12. Third night: Pretty much same as the second one. Fourth: Abit later then the previous 2.(Seems kinda lame to elaborate like this, but I'm lazy :D ahahaha.)

Chalets:

Nothing much to do actually, just chatted and crapped till the morning, played abit of cards, eat eat and drink drink ( : wahahaha... The true meaning of relaxing! Haiz... It would be perfect if there that one thing is around... Ahhhhhh! Forget that! I'm pretty much cool with it now, feeling more 'released'. But still, I CAN'T BREAK THROUGH! Wahahahaha... Christmas is round the corner... But... I'm so dead... Not sure if I'm making any progress but... I'm lost for words... Hahaha...

So bored!!! I think I'll need to go look for jobs the next week... Sooo short of cash... Well, not really that poor, just feeling kinda pissed when my $$$ falls below a certain amount :D

"Herherherherherherherherherherherherherherherherher"
Sweet dreams people.
( :

Horoscope / Dead

Horoscopes. Sometimes these readings are quite accurate... My reading for 8/12, "If you've been dreaming about change, today is the day to start making it happen." Hahahahahaha... Really wondering if I should follow this... Arghhhhh I'm going crazy!!!

Can't break through! Can't break through!! Can't break through!!! Hopes were given time and time, but smashed again and again... Why is this process continuing and never seems to stop...? I'm really getting tired of this and I believe everyone is... Too much odds. I never seems to do things the right way and forever so wussy... Hahaha... Went to Alvin's chalet at Aranda downtown on Wednesday... Hmmm, should I say its fun or... Ahahahahaha... Forget it, don't wish to talk about it... Watched "Chicken Little" this afternoon, another dreadful event, am I thinking too much or its just plain simple? Different people just have different lives... Guess my life isn't gonna be that easy after all...
I have become a totally pessimistic bastard who looks at world hopelessly and forever worrying about every shit that happened. The best part of it is that I'm freaking balless and I don't see any room for improvement.

Ever heard of the story about a girl with too much 'Curiosity' and opened a chest? She released all those 'flies' with, 'Jealousy', 'Sickness', 'Death', 'Hatred', etc, etc... Why are there only 1 fly carrying 'Hope'? If only there were more hopes, things would definitely be better for everyone... Trust, confident and courage is all that I need now... Seemed closer, yet drifting further and further away...
) :

Ahhhhhhhhh!!! Whatever~ tomorrow, is gonna be a new day! ( : maybe I should just get away for a few days or maybe weeks to cool down...

Pathetic I am!

Bad... Bad... Bad...I'm so pathetic and depressed... Haha, maybe depressed is a little too serious... I'll just use... Arghhh... I don't know. Feeling so restless since yesterday and I'm so upset with myself!!! Forever so... Hopeless. Ahahaha, I think I have become a super duper pessimistic person!!! This is booshit! I wasn't like this in the past! Some said I should just be myself... But after thinking about it, I think that's just me! Isn't I this quiet since... Think about it, how many times did I seriously started a 1 to 1 conversation? I'm usually the one who replies or just crap around in a group... I'm just this freaking weak... Arghhhhh... Nevermind, I will try harder again... Ahahaha wondered how many times I have said this and how much did I actually improved...?

Anyway, went to a job interview this morning with Alvin... The pay was really impressive... But I`ve lost the motivation to work or do whatever craps since last night ) :
Went to gym after that and was so restless that I could barley do any workouts after the first exercise... After that, we went to 761 to play basketball! Oh my god! At lest some comforting event happened ( : I met my 2 years-no-see basketball buddy! Ahahaha... Yeah he improved a lot! And I meant a lot! He couldn't do layups in the past, couldn't shoot properly and always gets the ball out when he's near the line... But look at him today! Woah... Impressive layups with tricks, handsome shooting style and dribble pass people(abit dirty though :D) Ahahahaha!!!

So hungry right now... Dinner time!

12 days left before lunnietic comes to town.

Wehehehe

Happy thoughts, Happy thoughts and a little fairy dust. These makes the formula to let you fly! Ahahaha! Well, fly as in physically(According to Petter Pan) or mentally ( : Ahahaha crap...

Something surprising happened this morning and I was... *Lost for words* Ahahahaha!!! Don't wish to go into details but... Yeah!
Arghhhh, I only managed to wake up at 11:30... That's considered freaking late for me!!! Usually wakes up at 8 - 10... Anyway, went to the gym today(Yes!!! Finally after such a long break! Ahahahaha...) Totally tired out... Did workouts from around 2:30 to 5+ shiok...! Hahahaha... Hmmm... Sat around under some blocks for a while before heading to 200+ for balling... Went to a coffee shop and slacked, then ball awhile more before heading home... Well, today is considered a much lively day compared to yesterday... Wahahaha!!! Hmmm... Wonder what's the cause... :D

Found out that I'm a rather moody person after some recent events... Little things can get me all down and I'll behave as if I'm dead... Well, little things does not refers to those normal daily life incident, examples: quarreling with someone(I don't do this! Just a example anyway), losing a basketball game or even being broke! These are nothing!!! Ahhh! Don't even know what am I trying to say. Hahaha...

1 more thing! Bon voyage to Alvin, who will be leaving for Thailand tomorrow! Hahaha... Should really sleep now... Oyasumi nasai! Tomorrow is gonna be better!

Purpose of life

Ahhhhhhh!!! Wasted the whole of today doing basically nothing! Yes! And I mean nothing! Sat in front of the PC and TV the whole day, and to make matter worst, there isn't a hell of a soul around!!!

Hmmm... After abit of thinking, I feel that life has become meaningless... Had been studying all these while for the O levels and now that its over, I live aimlessly...
There used to be a motivation to go to school- school ended and there is nothing I can do about it... There used to be a motivation to play games- What is game when there is a greater priority in life...? There used to be a motivation to earn big money- Money can't buy everything...
I always say "if only, if only, if only" and I realized that why people always say "if only I had/have" and rarely say "if only I don't have"? Maybe the problem is with myself... Yes, I'm asking for more, and will never be contented I suppose... But I don't have what it takes... Is it confidence that I lacked?

Have been trying to look for jobs... But suddenly have a feeling like, 'for what?' Money can't buy everything; opportunities that we missed, time spent unwisely or even correct our regrets. I have a feeling that I'm not ready to work... But I know I should...
Ahahahahaha, you see, this is what happens when people has nothing to do, they think too much
( : hahahaha...

I just hate winter... Rains so much... Maybe I should just hibernate through this season...


"Because of you, the rain has stopped falling"

(¯`v´¯)

The closer I get to you

Donny Hathaway & Roberta Flack

The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving me all you got, your love has captured me... Over and over again, I try to tell myself that we, could never be more then friends and all the while inside I knew it was real... The way you make me feel... Lying here next to you, time just seems to fly. Needing you more and more, let's give love a try... Sweeter than sweeter love grows, and heaven's there for those who fool the tricks of time with the hearts in love you find, true love, in a special way...
The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving me all you got, your love has captured me... Over and over again, I try to tell myself that we could never be more then friends and all the while inside I knew it was real... The way you make me feel... The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving you all I got, your love has captured me... The closer I get to you, the feeling comes over me, pulling closer, sweet as the gravity!

Getting lazier and lazier each day... How weird can human beings get... Ahahahaha... Time to sleep! The following days are gonna be a little dead :D Sweet dreams.

Prom was sick! I'm sick! :D

Prom night was sick!!! Hahahaha... Everyone was so crazy and yup, I'm sure we had fun ( : however, the food isn't that cool, and I still remember a comment made by ZiCai, 'The food is considered good for this kind of hotel lah'. Ahahahahahaha!!! I wonder is it a compliment or... Sarcasm. Hahaha... Yeah, the event was really really mad and it was so 'hot' that I nearly suffocated!! :D :D :D
Ermm... I'm not gonna elaborate the happenings later that night, or rather morning, cause ermm... Its simply indescribable :D

Ahhhhhhhh!!! I'm dying! Couldn't sleep even after staying up for more than 24 hours!!! I laid on bed for 2 hours, feeling extremely hungry, but have no appetite! Ahahahaha... Probably this, probably that~ Ahhhh, I'm mad! Hahahaha, whatever~ Time to slack/ball!!!
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Ended! All ended!

Everything have finally ended! School, O levels, all and all! Hmmmm... Don't really have the excited feeling though... Hahaha... It just another day~ Maybe I'll have to clear all my books and papers and blablabla to have that kind of 'Shiok ar!', 'Sibei song ar!' feelings... Ahahahahaha...

Next event will be prom night. Ahhhh... So scary... Wonder any crazy thing gonna happen that day... Oh yeah... My cousin will be leaving for America on 25th November, 6.15a.m. for holiday... Let me wish her bon voyage here ( :
Had a little change in my hair too... Arghhhhh regret cutting short! Damnit... Haha anyway, Alvin have this colour now(more or less~) And I have, this+this! Well, not 2 colors but the fusion of the 2 colors, dark red violet :D. Ahahahahaha crap.

Failed 2 jobs 'interview' so far... Finally realize how hard it is to find a job... Nevermind~ will try harder some other time... Aiya, feeling so bored right now... Nothing to do... And the weather is freaking cold~ Ahahaha... Let me go rot now... Rot... Rottttt...

Ahhhh...

Dang Dang Dang Dang Dang!!! My prelims' all messed up! Wahahahaha Got like 27 to 32 for L1R4... Hahahahaha... But I'm only worried for my maths... I believe I can do well for other subjects, but for maths, I'm SCARE!!!

Hahaha... Anyway, hmmm... Some stuffs happened lately and I was really DEPRESSED! Yes, I mean depressed! Every food I tasted seems so dull... And the weather, seemed to be contrasting with my feelings. The rain just won't stop!!! Hahaha... But the truth is out pretty soon!(Yeah, thanks to my great courage :P) Damnit! I was feeling mad and happy at the same time when I know the truth! Happy: Well, to put this in simple term, 'there is still HOPE'. Mad: Hmmm... WHAT THE HELL! I WAS ALL SAD FOR THAT 3 DAYS! DAMNIT! Hahahahaha!!!

Oh yeah, and O levels is finally coming... Can't wait for it!!! Although I know I'm not that ready, but I really wished that it will be over tomorrow... Hope that Prom night will be fun and unforgettable! (Well, unforgettable in a pleasant way~) Yeah, nothing much to do these days... Usually start my day with a maths paper, and will hang out sometimes in the afternoon or just rot all the way till night... Hahahaha... Bored. Oh 1 more thing, Bleach owns!!! Really nice anime! Waiting for the 9 pm show to start now... So bored...

Tomorrow is gonna be better! ( :