There are many kind people around and I don't know who to love :D

Life hasn't been good. Its pretty damn boring, but then again, maybe its not. I guess I'm crazy, I'm a goner. I've got no motivation to study, all I think about is to have fun and fun and whenever I think of not being able to have fun, I'm like a... Whatever you call it.

I seriously need a time machine... Or a mind washer. I need to set somethings right, I need to forget all these lies. Things that should have been said, things that wasn't meant to be in my head.
I really hate the feeling that I get when I listen to certain songs, they really make me emotionally unstable. Yet, I want to listen to them. Haha, how weird can humans get... ...

"But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you."

Just read a mail about the four candles, Hope, Peace, Faith and Love. It really reminded me how important HOPE is. ( :

Sometimes in a relationship, when you love someone so much, you tend to forget that they are suppose to love you too. So I think people out there should stop wasting their time if the person they love don't show as much :D

Bettas are so cute! I just can't stop looking at them and sucking out the craps from their tanks. How I wish I can transform into a fish and swim in the ocean... Oh man, I'm beginning to hallucinate again. How stupid. Hahahaha...

I'm so afraid to love someone... The fear of going after, the fear of not being loved and the fear of losing... Courage! Courage! Courage! Courage! Courage!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Zzz... Zzz... Zzz...

People! Happy!

Human or rather, people do play a very important role in each and everyone of our lives. Each time I play basketball with some of my old primary school friends, there is this unexplainable feeling, so... Happy and some kind of a relief feeling... Hahaha!
And of course, I love people, listening to them talk, watching them do the stuffs and etc, etc. Maybe that's why I don't carry MP3 players around. I want to hear them talk! Ahahahaha!

Examination is around the corner again... If I'm not wrong, it should be August 14. Oh my, oh my, its August again... The month that I loved the most last year hahahaha! National day and birthdays, totally insane! Hahaha! People make lives wonderful!

I'm surprised that I am not glad about what happened. Haven't that what I have been wanting all these time...? Haha, maybe I'm not ready.

Sentosa was great! All my friends, they are just so great people! I love them! Looking forward to the next gathering... Till then, stay happy everybody! I'll be here for you people! :P (Don't believe in that ahahaha)

Life have been great! In fact, way too good! We chill everyday and night, party like there's no worries! Did super duper bad for my mid-semester test... Average score is like, 35. Ahahaha... I know I'm good, just lost the will to study just before the tests... You know, sometimes, things just cause so much impact that you go like "STUNT". Haha. Good night.

True ...

Sometimes when you look at things at a larger picture, you'll find that things may not be that bad. For example, when the girl you like found someone they really like, of course you'll feel sad after hearing the news. But all you have to do is to think about all the joyful moments she can have, the truest smiles, happiest laughers, all these may probably bring a smile to your face... I know this may sound gay but this is probably what they call "True Love" ( : Ahahahaha...

Whats left of me

Its hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen but its even harder to give up especially when its everything you ever wanted.

Examinations start on Monday and I'm feeling so sick... Guess I had too much fun, so much that I've forgotten how to study... But I'll study anyway. Hahaha.

If its a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT, I rather not have it! 3 months had pass since school started.. Just 3 months. 天 arr!!

Its my birthday!

"Uh... Uh... Yeah..." Ahahahaha what freaking sound is this man! Ahahaha... Cool! Today marks the 17th year since the creation of me! Well, of course if you include the 9 months, it isn't :D Ahahaha...

Hmmm... Every year of today, my family would have a so-called "cake cutting section" at night. Wahahaha! And, we'll usually do the same thing for everybody in the family... But this year its different! My brother is not around! He'd gone to serve his national service! Hahaha!

Birthday, birthday... People usually make a wish before blowing out the candles on the cake... Hmm, it may work for some people, but for me, heck no, I don't even make wishes no more! I've learnt that things that ain't meant to be, will never be! Haha..

In birthdays, you get greetings from people. Yeah, maybe even handshakes or hugs. But you know, sometimes a single greeting from a special someone meant as much as the a million "happy birthdays" or even receiving a million presents! Hahaha... Do you wish you were that special person to someone? Where is it!?

I got it! I got it! ( : Ahahahaha...

Significant 9 days! Bro going NS, lunnie's return and World Cup kicks off! Ahahaha!!!

Malaysia 1 day trip

Hohoho! Just came back from Malaysia! Went there at around 2 and shopped for junkie food and stuffs. I bought a tiny filter at RM 19! Hahaha... But I guess it isn't suitable for my tiny fishes ) : they seems to be having difficulties moving about when I on the filter... Maybe its too strong for the fishes.

Anyway, went to watch fireflies! They are super duper decent! Its like stars in the trees and then when they are near, you can actually catch them! Well, catch as in let them land on your palms and stuffs. Basically, the feeling is... Magical! Hahaha... I wasn't too happy though... Such a perfect moment and yet, can't share it with the one you loved... Ahhhh! Hahaha! I'm such a gayass...

I need to shop!!! Adidas' Point Guard Low caught my eye! I need a light weight shoe for basketball... And I want fishes! Its said that people who loves to rear fishes are boring. Well, I totally disagree. Rearing fishes are fun! They are so cute! Hahaha... Got to go relax! See you soon~

You are not alone

21st of May, another ordinary day... I'm really really bored now and I don't feel like sleeping cause I'll have to go to school once I wake up! So... Just let me talk about what I did today...

Woke up at around 9, played 2 or 3 NBA 06's games and lunch then slack and chat all the way until 3 or 4 before heading to Khatib MacDonald to meet Zhao Yi and Andrew. After awhile, Wei Xian and his girlfriend came, well not meeting us of course, just coincidence. Then Ser Chin and XinYi was here too and we went to have dinner... After dinner, went to walk around the "Pa-sa-ma-lum" and there was this Buddhism talk and palm reading 'station', so we stayed awhile and listen... Oh by the way, I bought a plasma bulb and I think its super cool! Had been wanting something like that since young! Haha... Then we headed home and I was like checking out the plasma bulb for around 45minutes, then watched Singapore Idol and here I am, preparing to sleep...

Good night, and you will never be alone, for I am here with you, though we are far apart, you're always in my heart.

Fixing A Broke Heart!

Went to old folks home day... Nothing much la, just slack around, talk cock to the elders, listen to them talk cock... Then had the class sing some songs to round up the whole event.

Went to play basketball after returning from the home, only took a 10 minutes break! I guess you can understand how tired I am right now... My eyes are burning... My muscles aren't aching thought... How weird... Hahaha.

Basketball was considerately fun today, played a number of matches and as usual win most of them :D ahahahaha ok la that's not true, sometimes I didn't win a single match and the reasons are, reason No.1: My mind is all about her. Reason No.2: My heart is all about her. Reason No.3: I am all about her. Wahahahaha! Oh, 1 more thing! I'm so so so into NBA Live 06! Ahahaha! Damn, am I considered as a lifeless freak? Basketball and girls are all I'm about! Ahahaha what a gay... I'm looking forward to the return of lunnie dog or whatever you want to call him, monkey, freak or even momma blablablabla. Hahahaha!!! Soon! Soon!

Wish I could press rewind, and rewrite every line to the story of me and you... Hahaha... It have been quite a while... Study is hella stress... So much to do!!! Or maybe... Its my personal stuffs that's giving stress... I'm so lost and confused! I don't know what to do! Ahahahaha!!! Aiya, I better don't think about all those stuffs if not I'm gonna mention all the old sad stories again... But then... There isn't a thing I can talk about!!! My school life, forget it, it ain't colorful without her. Hahaha... Maybe my life is all about her... But I guess its time to move on...
Different have different views... Some think that its time to let go and move on while some told me to hold on... So lost!!!

Ahhhh! How I wish I had taken the chance... How that it had gone so far... Some people say its never too late to make up for regrets, but I guess some things can never be once it is lost.. Something like feelings, time, and memories...

I just found out I had always been this lost... Not knowing where I stand, not knowing what to do. You know that kind of feeling, wanting to be with someone so much, yet don't want them as your related partner, or rather, just wanna be closer to them, being able to see them everyday, the smile on their faces, their voice, share their sercets and joys, despair and sorrow...
I believe this kind of feeling is call fear. The fear to lose them if we are related, the fear of rejection and the fear of being with them. Hmmm.. Fear of being with them? That bullshit, I typed that randomly hahaha.. I think the correct phrase should be, The shyness or weakness when we faces someone we like...

I'm gonna do my programming thing now. See'ya!

"You're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful its true, there must be an angel with a smile in her face, when I thought that I should be with you, but its time to face the truth, I'll never be with you..."

Today is a funky day... I was so happy as Lakers edged Suns! Kobe made the buzzer! I love you Kobe!!! ( : Then I went to town with my homies and walk around... Had dinner and then I decided to send a message to someone special, haha... Well, there was only 1 reply and everything was dead... This was probably the first time I got owned by this person through sms... Totally owned... Probably I said something saddening, but I seriously doubt so... I merely went like "What you doing? So long then reply, I found something to do, that's to disturb you" Hahaha whatever... Something must have happened. Hahahaha let is burn! Let is burn... Nights.

"Love is one big illusion, something I should try to forget..."

I wanna ask her out! I wanna speak to her! I wanna walk by her side! But I'm a wuss! Ahahahaha... I guess I'm unwanted by her ) :

Lost and so confused

I have fallen, fallen into this deep lake. I tasted the sweetness in it and I can't seems to get enough of it... Today, I'm out into the ocean... Feel so lost without the smile... We are so far away, one in the east and one is the west... I miss the sweet little smile ( :

Ahhhh I'm crazy! I don't know what I'm talking about! Ahahahaha... Hmmm, my dream life is probably like that: going to school everyday, and if school ends at 12, I'll go hang out with the person I like, have dinner with her, send her home at around 8, go basketball court play abit... Shoot shoot ball... Go home at 10, watch abit of TV, sleep. If school ends at 5, then it'll have to depend one the special one :D Thats my dream live! Hahaha so sweet right... Alright lets sleep ( :

With Love

The feeling is so strong!!! ( : I'm falling in love with you everytime I see your smile! I'm falling in love with you everytime you speak to me! I'm falling in love with you everytime I come near you! Hahahaha... Well, even thought all the above didn't actually happen, but... I'm just so glad! Hahahaha... Actually... I don't know why I'm feeling so happy, I shouldn't be feeling so! Good night people! Oh yeah, Happy birthday to doggy You Lun and Kenneth! Damn... 17 already... Dahaha!

Life hasn't been bright these few days... Watching all those people walking pairs by pairs, hand in hand... And here I am, falling deeper and deeper into this dreadful 'manhole'... Well, before I conclude on anything, I guess I'll just wait a few days or so... People do live a busy life after all.. ( :
Oh, I also realized that "not fair" is quite a crappy word so I'll try not to use it as much as possible. Haha, I guess I'm kinda slow but I finally know that the world was never made fair... So... Yeah, I'll cut down on using that crappy word...

Anyway, there is school tomorrow! Ahhhh! Its kinda bored... Listening to all those crappy stuffs... And to make matters worst, I don't have a motivation to study... All I do everyday I daydream in classes... Damn! I found out everything I talk about will lead me to the same old topic again! Crap!

Ahahaha... Tomorrow is Lakers VS Suns in the 2006 Playoff! All the best Lakers and Kobe, I believe in you even thought I don't hold high hopes :D hahahaha! Nights ( :

How's school?

School... Hmmm... Should be considered very cool ( : My classmates are cool, the lecturer are cool and the school environment's cool! Ahahahaha! Get to know most my friends during the orientation... We went to play pool on flag day! Ahahaha!

School started on Monday and the lessons are kinda boring... Sitting around, can't seems to beable to absorb... Maybe I'm still in holiday mood...

Anyway, today's maths lesson was freaking boring and I decided to switch on my lappy... I appeared offline in msn and I saw this special person coming online... I observed for a while and noticed that "this person's" status didn't become busy or be right back. This was kinda encouraging as "this person's" status is usually busy or be right back so I decided to chat with "this person"(since the maths lesson's boring :D). But the moment I changed my status to online, "this person" became busy straight away! WHAT THE FUCK!? Could this be pure coincidence or is it something more...? Well, it's a fact that I rarely message "this person" when "this person" is busy or be right back so... Maybe "this person" was avoiding me... Well, I don't know... And certainly hope not cause I'm quite sure that this special person still helds a special place in my heart ( :

"It's hard to watch the person you love not love you back, but it's even harder to watch them love someone else."

Weakling me

Ahhh I was acting stupid again! Normally, when you and I see a friend, we'll probably wave our hands or call their name as a signal, saying "hi" or any other greetings. But then... I somehow can't do a shit when this special person appears! She just freeze my heart and I can feel butterflies in my stomach! Ahahahaha... I don't even dare to look at here lor... Damn! But I'll work on it...

Anyway, school, I mean orientation, was pretty cool... Made lots of new friends, almost the whole class. However, I just can't accept the fact that there isn't hot girls or there is just so little females in the class!!! Damn!!! I can't accept this!!! Ahahahaha... But the class was overall great...

( :

Freak I am!

I think I, myself is a freak! Hahaha... I'm weird... I feel so freaky all out of sudden... I don't even know what the fuck I want!? Isn't that funny?! Ahahaha...
Well, it goes like that:
I love you, but doesn't have the courage to claim you, therefore I'm retreating, trying to forget. After afew weeks, I found out I can't... You still have my heart... But I believe we ain't meant to be... But again, I have the urge to wanna be with you... ... Ahahahahaha! I'm crazy!

"Why limit yourself to a pond of guys when there is a ocean out there."

You slew my will with a phrase,
marked my destiny with a move &
make me wanna die with your existence.

I'm so sad... Everyone I cared about have left me... I'm all alone. The person I loved had forgotten about my existence... Maybe I should die.

Ahahahaha!!! April Fool Joke! HAHAHA!

Ok, I know that is
LAME.

Hahaha... Yup, time is passing so fast. A quarter of 2006 had past... Kinda missing the old days in school... We can crap with our friends, be with the people you love and on and on... There is so much love in school! Hahaha... Nothing much to say...
May the people I love be happy forever and ever ( :

NBA

I went to bought a NBA Live 06 game the other day and I kinda enjoyed it at the beginning but... After I switch the mode to Starter, I was playing Rookie originally, I only managed to win 1 game! That kinda pissed me off... The game cheats! If you leads your opponent at the first quater, they will come back at the second and give you heck lot of 3 pointers and then no matter where you shoot, you can't get the ball in! And you can fouled every now and then! Damn... Well, maybe it was the team I was using... Lakers really sucked hard, well I mean the lineups... The players sucked other then Kobe... Or maybe I haven't get the hang of the game yet... I'll see... Maybe I should try other tactics... Haha...

Went to play ball at 755 today and I feel that I got to train harder! Hahaha... Yup, my life is all about basketball these days... Kinda boring... But its fun. Ahahahaha I think that sounded contradictory but... Thats what I'm all about! Ahahahaha! Lame. :D I'm off the bed I guess... Night!

First love by Utada Hikaru
(English Translation)

In your final kiss
I could taste the flavour of tobacoo
It was a bitter and painful smell

At about this time tomorrow
I wonder where you'll be
I wonder who you'll be thinking of

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one

The time which has stopped
Is about to start again
It's just that there are things I don't want to forget

At about this time tomorrow
I'm sure I'll be crying And I'll probably be thinking of you

You will always be inside my heart
Because it's a place that will forever be yours alone
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
For now, it's still a sad love song
Until I can sing a new one

You are always gonna be my love
Even if someday, you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad love song
Now and forever...

This is a good song... Beautiful and sweet... Really describe first love!

Imagine me without you, I'll be so lost and confused.


Cool! I didn't step out of house for 3 days! Ahahahaha... And I did these!
- Wake up at 10am.
- Chat/rot in front of PC till 2pm.
- Physical training till 5pm.
- Watch TV/anime till 10 to 12am.

Ahahahaha! Cool huh!?

Boring! Need to go for the Singapore Poly check up tomorrow... It sux! Waste of time! Hmmm... I'm just wondering if I'll ever have another chance to... You know what... If! It just happens that there is another tinky winky chance or something that looks like a hint! I'm gonna take the chance man! Haha... Well, if all that didn't happen, then I'll have to wish for another pretty posh lady to appear in my bioelectronics course :D


"If you're here, please leave a trail so that I can follow up."

"You have to take chances for the things you care about."

Yu Yu Hakusho is such a cool anime! Well, its a pretty old one I suppose... Have been watching it from youtube these few days and yes, youtube, I love you!!! Wahahaha! Its just so cool! You can get almost all the good stuffs there! Clean ones of course ( : But I'm rather pissed off by it these few days... My stuffs just can't seem to be able to be fully loaded!!! Damn...

I found out people aren't that sweet afterall. Sometimes they can't be honest with each another even if they label themselves as friends... Hmm... Maybe I'm over sensitive... Anyway, I don't know why, but each time I used my msn for this special purpose, I'll feel so damn relieved, glad, happy and... ( :

By the way, just a... Whatever you call this, we shouldn't tired ourselves out even if its about having fun or interest... So... Take care! ( :

For a beautiful future!

Finally get to know what school and courses I'll get into... Its Singapore poly! And I'll be attending Bioelectronics... Wonder who will my classmates be... What kind of people are they and will poly life be interesting... Ahahahaha. Most importantly, I need to know if my course can lead me to a bright future!!! I want to earn big money! I want to drive a CLK! Muahahahaha!!!

Haiz... Better cherish the remaining time before school starts. Like I said, life isn't so great these few days... Boring! Bored! Dead! Rot! These are what I have been doing! I really wish that I can study secondary 3 and 4 again... Then I'll live it to the fullest... My life is going on to a new chapter... Everything is gonna be different... Girls meet new guys, guys meet new girls, ahahaha! Aiya! What I want to say is, hope is fading! ( :

Beautiful girls, kind girls, good girls, please go into Bioelectronics! *Prays hard*
Ahahahaha I wasn't serious there! :P

I'm gay! (Not homo) :D

Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! Bored! I'm rotting like an apple! Ahahahaha!!! Arghhh.... I found out that there isn't much people I can hang out with... And that's a pretty sad thing... I've never notice this in the past... What in the world is happening!!! Haiz... Sitting at home... Doing nothing... Watch TV, listening to the same songs, jumping/crawling/running around like a retard have become my daily routine... Going to bed soon... Good night people.. May the fairy of fun, joy and love visit me soon! ( :

Its my life! Its now or never!

Today is a boring day. I sat in front of my computer starting from 10:45am to around 3pm chatting in mIRC. At around 3pm, I got my ass off my chair and did some workouts which lasted till 4:45pm. Then, I loaded a couple of Inuyasha movies in youtube.com and went to watch a show on channel U which starts at 5pm. After the show, I went to watch my Inuyasha Movie and then had my dinner at around 8pm. After which, I continued to sit in from of my computer and rot. I managed to play afew rounds of solitaire before I went to take a bathe. After that, the time is around 11:15pm. I managed to get into a conversation with someone in msn and then here am I writing my blog at 12:42am.

-A normal day of Geeky Toh.

Ahahahaha!!! I changed my blog skin today! Well, probably because I think my previous skin has a small window and the writings are pretty small to see, so I decided to get rid of them! Anyway, life have indeed been boring... Can't wait for school to start...

Right beside, yet a hundred miles...

"So near yet so far"... This quote is probably one of the better known ones. It can be considered as a quote can't it? Hahaha, who cares...

Final destination 3. This movie is hella gross... Gruesome scenes that I personally can't take. Its not that I'm scare or what, I just can't take gruesome sights!!! Blame it on my genes of you want to :D. Well, I'll not be a spoiler so... Catch the movie if you wanna know what I'm talking about!

Anyway, have you ever experienced walking beside somebody who you really cared for and only to feel so neglected when they slowed down just to ask another person a question that you probably know the answer? For example, you're walking beside this 'special' person and then she started slowing down and turned to your friend saying, "Hey you know Jane(Example) is having this blablablablabla" and as a matter of fact, Jane(Example) is also your friend and someone you knew! What! What! What!!! What is this!?!? Bullshit!!! Ahhh... I know... Sometimes things just can't be helped... And we may deserve it... But you know... Ssometimes your mind just blacked out! You can't think! Your guts shrink! Your heart skips another beat everytime you speak! And of course, everytime they speak... But then, even if its a sentence or maybe even a word that brings smile to their faces, everything is worth it. ( :

The Lifeless.

"I'm the king of rot! I rot at home everyday, from morning to night, 24 hours a day. I got no life! I sit in front of my computer from morning to night, 12 hours a day. I got nothing better to do! I dream everyday; day dream when I'm awake and the 'real' dream when I'm asleep. I'm the king of rot!"

That's a poem written by Kenny Toh. Wahahahaha! Oh my gaw... I'm becoming more and more lazy, more and more lame! Arghhhhhh!!! Its really very very very very boring!!! No games to play, no places to hang out and no nuts to do!!! I'm going crazy~ I wanna be your baby, cause you and me, yes we can make it~ pui pui pui! Why the heck am I typing the lyric! See I'm already mad! :D

I'm afraid... Afraid of facing something which is nothing much but a mere human being and yes, 'it' is made of fresh and blood like you and me. This being is so special that each time we meet, 'it' freezes my mind. I tried talking, but nuts came out. Actually I'm so afraid of 'it'.
Actually... I'm not really sure about what I'm afraid of... Maybe I need to lose myself ( :

What a day!

English: B4
Mathematics: B3
Science(Chemistry/Biology): B3
Humanities(Social Studies/History): A1
Pure Geography: B3
Mother Tongue: B4
Design and Technology: C6 [ This one is bullshit!]

L1R4: 14 L1R5:18

Yeah! Finally got our O levels result today! So glad that most of my friends, well almost all~, obtained cool grades!!! Well, I was pretty amazed by my result!!! Damn... I was a potential F9 maths student and I actually scored a B3! Holy crap...!!! Wahaha... Anyway, I was damn pissed with my D and T's grade... I worked so hard and only manage to score a C6!? What the fuck!? Ahahaha... Quite pleased with my results also lah... But too bad I didn't manage to win toto... Damnit!

Ahhh!!! Now I have to worry about what courses to take... Headache again... Hahahaha... Aiya, heck care! Remember? I live for the moment!!! Wahahaha... All the best people! Good night and sweet dreams! ( :

"For you I'd cross the world
For you, I'd do anything"

So sick. So sick.

叶子。

Life is just so weird... You never know if things happened out of coincidence or is it meant to be... Sometimes you'll just miss the chance that you have been waiting for without even knowing it... To me, one of the worst feeling is probably having hope, and then ripped of it. Really make one confused and close to going insane... ... Wahahahaha!!!

Anyway, life have been considerably good, but it can be better :D Wahahahaha! Pretty bored these days... Waiting for results to be released this Friday. Fear! Fear! Fear! Can you see fear in the eyes of the students who sat for O levels last year!? I don't know, but one thing for sure, you shall see none in mine for I'm the man without fear. Wahahahahaha!!! See, told you that people gets close to crazy... Ahahahaha! Arghhhhh! I'm crazy so let the whole entry be filled with madass purple! Muahahaha...

"Don't take the one you can live with, wait for the one you can't live without."

Hm.

Have you ever feel so disappointed cause you have mistrusted someone, believing everything they did is for your good? It may be a misunderstanding, but you just don't want to clear things up...

Feed my hatred; devour my heart.

"Don't believe your friends when they ask you to be honest with them. All they really want is to be maintained in the good opinion they have of themselves."

Was chatting around with my cousins the other day and he talked about his friend who like to bullshit, talk cock and talk big. I was like, "hey! Those sounded familiar!". But this friend of his is really good, he "bull-ed" about him having a Jaguar, you know those two hundred thousand plus cars, in his garage without his dad knowing it. Then I was like, "geez, when I grow up, I got to be a Scientist! There is a need for me to open a special "humanlogy" department in the Science Center where everything about why humans lie, bullshit, behaves hypocritically, etc, etc is studied!" Ha.

"Before I met her I'd be walking through life thinking I was happy, that I was complete... but now I can't go back to just being me because now I know what it's like to be whole."

Lunar New Year!

Wooooooooo!!! Firstly, I want to say that I'm hella glad that I've earned some money!!! Yeah!!! Worked as Yeo's 'ka kia' on 21st and 22nd at Woodlands, and 26th and 27th at Buki PanJang area... Lazy to describe the details... Hahaha...

Its freaking bored now that's why I decided to post some rubbish... Wahahaha... Its Chinese New Year!!! Tomorrow is gonna be a long day... But I have decided to spend some of it sleeping :D Wahaha... Anyway, Happy Lunar New Year people!!! Weee-u-weeet~~ Ahahaha ( :

"Never gone, Never far, In my heart is where you are"

Bad year for me!?

Firstly, I would like to say happy new year to everyone. Secondly, I want to say, WHAT THE FUCK! This year doesn't appear to be very bright to me... Still out of job and have been sick for the pass 6 days! Holy crap...
My throat still feels like burning coals but I think I have recovered from fever and flu already... So bored at home... The worst part is that I have no job! Damnit... Let me recover first before anything...

Progress or...?

Wahahahaha today is the day after Christmas, also named Boxing day! Ermmm... Honestly, I got no idea that such day existed until someone in irc said so... Hahaha... So... I guess its obvious enough that I don't know what does it do and what's it for... Hahaha.

Like a quote said, "Many people want to be the sun that brightens up your life, but I want to be the moon that shines on you during your darkest hours." This quote is so true... If only I have a chance to... Hahaha... Simple words like 'yes', 'no', 'don't know' may sometimes be solution or answers to doubts which caused many sleepless nights... All you need to do is to think carefully... Or rather, if you're lost, just choose the way that is the brightest to everyone, including yourself! I know... Things won't always turn out good for everyone... So, consulting a third party could be a good idea... Human beings are made selfish afterall! Remember this... Well, I'm not saying that we should always do things that reflect the positive on ourselves, just that we need see who needs the positive ray of light more...

Good night people... May the best fall upon all. ( :

Merry Christmas!

Ho, ho, ho! Merry Christmas! Wahahahaha!!! Silent night~ Holy night~ :D
This Christmas eve is kinda boring for me... Did nothing special, just slacked around... Hahaha. Should have at least gone down to Orchard right!? Damn! Anyway, I was pretty glad that the 848 coffee shop revived! Yeah~ hahaha.

Christmas is so beautiful! Awwwwww... Too bad something is missing... Ahahahaha!!!

Lastly,

I would like to wish everyone a Happy Merry Christmas and of course, to You! ( :

Creakkkk Kinnggg~

Wo0o0o0~ All the chalets and 'slacking sections' have ended, for now, that it ( :
Went to my family's chalet and then the... Erm... Not sure if I should call it the 2A2 2003's chalet or whatever, at Changi and Coastal Sand respectively...
Oh yeah, YouLun is back and we went to his house to stay for around 4 days and 3 nights. Haha, 1st night: Did stupid things till around 3 or 4 then went to play some stupid computer games with Andrew till 7... Pretty stupid... Hahaha... Second night: Pretty damn tired so I guess... I slept at around 11 - 12. Third night: Pretty much same as the second one. Fourth: Abit later then the previous 2.(Seems kinda lame to elaborate like this, but I'm lazy :D ahahaha.)

Chalets:

Nothing much to do actually, just chatted and crapped till the morning, played abit of cards, eat eat and drink drink ( : wahahaha... The true meaning of relaxing! Haiz... It would be perfect if there that one thing is around... Ahhhhhh! Forget that! I'm pretty much cool with it now, feeling more 'released'. But still, I CAN'T BREAK THROUGH! Wahahahaha... Christmas is round the corner... But... I'm so dead... Not sure if I'm making any progress but... I'm lost for words... Hahaha...

So bored!!! I think I'll need to go look for jobs the next week... Sooo short of cash... Well, not really that poor, just feeling kinda pissed when my $$$ falls below a certain amount :D

"Herherherherherherherherherherherherherherherherher"
Sweet dreams people.
( :

Horoscope / Dead

Horoscopes. Sometimes these readings are quite accurate... My reading for 8/12, "If you've been dreaming about change, today is the day to start making it happen." Hahahahahaha... Really wondering if I should follow this... Arghhhhh I'm going crazy!!!

Can't break through! Can't break through!! Can't break through!!! Hopes were given time and time, but smashed again and again... Why is this process continuing and never seems to stop...? I'm really getting tired of this and I believe everyone is... Too much odds. I never seems to do things the right way and forever so wussy... Hahaha... Went to Alvin's chalet at Aranda downtown on Wednesday... Hmmm, should I say its fun or... Ahahahahaha... Forget it, don't wish to talk about it... Watched "Chicken Little" this afternoon, another dreadful event, am I thinking too much or its just plain simple? Different people just have different lives... Guess my life isn't gonna be that easy after all...
I have become a totally pessimistic bastard who looks at world hopelessly and forever worrying about every shit that happened. The best part of it is that I'm freaking balless and I don't see any room for improvement.

Ever heard of the story about a girl with too much 'Curiosity' and opened a chest? She released all those 'flies' with, 'Jealousy', 'Sickness', 'Death', 'Hatred', etc, etc... Why are there only 1 fly carrying 'Hope'? If only there were more hopes, things would definitely be better for everyone... Trust, confident and courage is all that I need now... Seemed closer, yet drifting further and further away...
) :

Ahhhhhhhhh!!! Whatever~ tomorrow, is gonna be a new day! ( : maybe I should just get away for a few days or maybe weeks to cool down...

Pathetic I am!

Bad... Bad... Bad...I'm so pathetic and depressed... Haha, maybe depressed is a little too serious... I'll just use... Arghhh... I don't know. Feeling so restless since yesterday and I'm so upset with myself!!! Forever so... Hopeless. Ahahaha, I think I have become a super duper pessimistic person!!! This is booshit! I wasn't like this in the past! Some said I should just be myself... But after thinking about it, I think that's just me! Isn't I this quiet since... Think about it, how many times did I seriously started a 1 to 1 conversation? I'm usually the one who replies or just crap around in a group... I'm just this freaking weak... Arghhhhh... Nevermind, I will try harder again... Ahahaha wondered how many times I have said this and how much did I actually improved...?

Anyway, went to a job interview this morning with Alvin... The pay was really impressive... But I`ve lost the motivation to work or do whatever craps since last night ) :
Went to gym after that and was so restless that I could barley do any workouts after the first exercise... After that, we went to 761 to play basketball! Oh my god! At lest some comforting event happened ( : I met my 2 years-no-see basketball buddy! Ahahaha... Yeah he improved a lot! And I meant a lot! He couldn't do layups in the past, couldn't shoot properly and always gets the ball out when he's near the line... But look at him today! Woah... Impressive layups with tricks, handsome shooting style and dribble pass people(abit dirty though :D) Ahahahaha!!!

So hungry right now... Dinner time!

12 days left before lunnietic comes to town.

Wehehehe

Happy thoughts, Happy thoughts and a little fairy dust. These makes the formula to let you fly! Ahahaha! Well, fly as in physically(According to Petter Pan) or mentally ( : Ahahaha crap...

Something surprising happened this morning and I was... *Lost for words* Ahahahaha!!! Don't wish to go into details but... Yeah!
Arghhhh, I only managed to wake up at 11:30... That's considered freaking late for me!!! Usually wakes up at 8 - 10... Anyway, went to the gym today(Yes!!! Finally after such a long break! Ahahahaha...) Totally tired out... Did workouts from around 2:30 to 5+ shiok...! Hahahaha... Hmmm... Sat around under some blocks for a while before heading to 200+ for balling... Went to a coffee shop and slacked, then ball awhile more before heading home... Well, today is considered a much lively day compared to yesterday... Wahahaha!!! Hmmm... Wonder what's the cause... :D

Found out that I'm a rather moody person after some recent events... Little things can get me all down and I'll behave as if I'm dead... Well, little things does not refers to those normal daily life incident, examples: quarreling with someone(I don't do this! Just a example anyway), losing a basketball game or even being broke! These are nothing!!! Ahhh! Don't even know what am I trying to say. Hahaha...

1 more thing! Bon voyage to Alvin, who will be leaving for Thailand tomorrow! Hahaha... Should really sleep now... Oyasumi nasai! Tomorrow is gonna be better!

Purpose of life

Ahhhhhhh!!! Wasted the whole of today doing basically nothing! Yes! And I mean nothing! Sat in front of the PC and TV the whole day, and to make matter worst, there isn't a hell of a soul around!!!

Hmmm... After abit of thinking, I feel that life has become meaningless... Had been studying all these while for the O levels and now that its over, I live aimlessly...
There used to be a motivation to go to school- school ended and there is nothing I can do about it... There used to be a motivation to play games- What is game when there is a greater priority in life...? There used to be a motivation to earn big money- Money can't buy everything...
I always say "if only, if only, if only" and I realized that why people always say "if only I had/have" and rarely say "if only I don't have"? Maybe the problem is with myself... Yes, I'm asking for more, and will never be contented I suppose... But I don't have what it takes... Is it confidence that I lacked?

Have been trying to look for jobs... But suddenly have a feeling like, 'for what?' Money can't buy everything; opportunities that we missed, time spent unwisely or even correct our regrets. I have a feeling that I'm not ready to work... But I know I should...
Ahahahahaha, you see, this is what happens when people has nothing to do, they think too much
( : hahahaha...

I just hate winter... Rains so much... Maybe I should just hibernate through this season...


"Because of you, the rain has stopped falling"

(¯`v´¯)

The closer I get to you

Donny Hathaway & Roberta Flack

The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving me all you got, your love has captured me... Over and over again, I try to tell myself that we, could never be more then friends and all the while inside I knew it was real... The way you make me feel... Lying here next to you, time just seems to fly. Needing you more and more, let's give love a try... Sweeter than sweeter love grows, and heaven's there for those who fool the tricks of time with the hearts in love you find, true love, in a special way...
The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving me all you got, your love has captured me... Over and over again, I try to tell myself that we could never be more then friends and all the while inside I knew it was real... The way you make me feel... The closer I get to you, the more you make me see... Like giving you all I got, your love has captured me... The closer I get to you, the feeling comes over me, pulling closer, sweet as the gravity!

Getting lazier and lazier each day... How weird can human beings get... Ahahahaha... Time to sleep! The following days are gonna be a little dead :D Sweet dreams.

Prom was sick! I'm sick! :D

Prom night was sick!!! Hahahaha... Everyone was so crazy and yup, I'm sure we had fun ( : however, the food isn't that cool, and I still remember a comment made by ZiCai, 'The food is considered good for this kind of hotel lah'. Ahahahahahaha!!! I wonder is it a compliment or... Sarcasm. Hahaha... Yeah, the event was really really mad and it was so 'hot' that I nearly suffocated!! :D :D :D
Ermm... I'm not gonna elaborate the happenings later that night, or rather morning, cause ermm... Its simply indescribable :D

Ahhhhhhhh!!! I'm dying! Couldn't sleep even after staying up for more than 24 hours!!! I laid on bed for 2 hours, feeling extremely hungry, but have no appetite! Ahahahaha... Probably this, probably that~ Ahhhh, I'm mad! Hahahaha, whatever~ Time to slack/ball!!!
( :

Ended! All ended!

Everything have finally ended! School, O levels, all and all! Hmmmm... Don't really have the excited feeling though... Hahaha... It just another day~ Maybe I'll have to clear all my books and papers and blablabla to have that kind of 'Shiok ar!', 'Sibei song ar!' feelings... Ahahahahaha...

Next event will be prom night. Ahhhh... So scary... Wonder any crazy thing gonna happen that day... Oh yeah... My cousin will be leaving for America on 25th November, 6.15a.m. for holiday... Let me wish her bon voyage here ( :
Had a little change in my hair too... Arghhhhh regret cutting short! Damnit... Haha anyway, Alvin have this colour now(more or less~) And I have, this+this! Well, not 2 colors but the fusion of the 2 colors, dark red violet :D. Ahahahahaha crap.

Failed 2 jobs 'interview' so far... Finally realize how hard it is to find a job... Nevermind~ will try harder some other time... Aiya, feeling so bored right now... Nothing to do... And the weather is freaking cold~ Ahahaha... Let me go rot now... Rot... Rottttt...

Ahhhh...

Dang Dang Dang Dang Dang!!! My prelims' all messed up! Wahahahaha Got like 27 to 32 for L1R4... Hahahahaha... But I'm only worried for my maths... I believe I can do well for other subjects, but for maths, I'm SCARE!!!

Hahaha... Anyway, hmmm... Some stuffs happened lately and I was really DEPRESSED! Yes, I mean depressed! Every food I tasted seems so dull... And the weather, seemed to be contrasting with my feelings. The rain just won't stop!!! Hahaha... But the truth is out pretty soon!(Yeah, thanks to my great courage :P) Damnit! I was feeling mad and happy at the same time when I know the truth! Happy: Well, to put this in simple term, 'there is still HOPE'. Mad: Hmmm... WHAT THE HELL! I WAS ALL SAD FOR THAT 3 DAYS! DAMNIT! Hahahahaha!!!

Oh yeah, and O levels is finally coming... Can't wait for it!!! Although I know I'm not that ready, but I really wished that it will be over tomorrow... Hope that Prom night will be fun and unforgettable! (Well, unforgettable in a pleasant way~) Yeah, nothing much to do these days... Usually start my day with a maths paper, and will hang out sometimes in the afternoon or just rot all the way till night... Hahahaha... Bored. Oh 1 more thing, Bleach owns!!! Really nice anime! Waiting for the 9 pm show to start now... So bored...

Tomorrow is gonna be better! ( :

Prelims over...!

Hmmm... Time isreally flying... We're still talking about how long the prelims was and now its all over... Hahahaha. Its really freaking bored!!! No mood for studies, all my songs are 'rusty', listened to them hundred of times and... There seemed to be a barrier in my mind, blocking me time and time... Ahhhhh!!!

Hmm... 30+ days more to 'O' levels. Feeling kinda excited right now! :D But the main concentration is still the prelims results! Damn, can't wait to see how badly(or well :D), I've done. Haven't been studying hard for this exam, only reading through... But I know the things are in my head! Nothing much to talk about now... I think I'll go and take a bath and... Continue dreaming ( : Ahhhhh!!! Its still early and I'm already feeling so barking bored~ Hahahahaha...

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Hahahaha... Prelims' pretty cool... Feeling so weak these few days... Full of fear in my heart... Fear of something that can never be explained... Doing maths now and will be sleeping soon. Paper 2 tomorrow... All the best people.

Song of the week.

Perfect. Simple Plan

Hey dad look at me, think back and talk to me, did I grow up up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time, doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disappove all along...

And now I try hard to make it, I just wanna make you proud... I'm never gonna be good enough for you, can't pretend that I'm alright, and you can't change me... Cause we lost it all... Nothing last forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect... Its just too late and we can't go back... I'm sorry, I just can't be perfect...

I try not to think about the pain I feel inside... Did you know you used to be my hero... All the days you spend with me, now seem so far away and it feels like you don't care anymore... And now I try hard to make it, I just wanna make you proud... I'm never gonna be good enough for you, I can't stand another fight and nothing is alright...

Cause we lost it all... Nothing last forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect... Its just too late and we can't go back... I'm sorry, I just can't be perfect... Nothing is gonna change the things you said, nothing is gonna make this right again... Please don't turn your back, I can't believe its hard just to talk to you... But you don't understand...

Cause we lost it all... Nothing last forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect... Its just too late and we can't go back... I'm sorry, I just can't be perfect...
(X2)

**Blink** A week passed.

Aiyo... In a blink, the September holiday passed. Went to school on Monday & Wednesday. Hahahaha I skipped the lessons on Tuesday! Shiok! Cause its Devil Wong's class muahahaha!!! Her lesson is so boring and she believes that she is so wise! That we can't pass Biology without her... Hiaz... This kind of mentality... No wonder still a MISS. Wahahahahaha!!!

Time is so precious that I can't bear to use it for sleeping! Wednesday 'morning' : Hmmmm... 1 word, great. Hahahaha... Race till 3:20a.m yesterday and it was freaking gay. Toyota Corolla was total ownage!!! Hahaha, awesome turning speed and crazy handles! Did some maths yesterday and today but I can't seem to be able to concentrate... Aiya! Should be ready for the paper by Monday(Well, hope so~ hahahaha). Feeling kinda pissed right now... Time passes so fast! How I wished it was still the beginning of the year!!! Everyday seemed so bored... Bored! Bored!! Bored!!! ) :

'My life has a superb cast but I can't figure out the plot.'

Saturday O.o

Prelims had finally started!!! Hmmmm, had our English paper 1 and 2 & Social Studies on Friday. English seemed to be a killer and Social Studies... Devil? Hahahaha... I was so happy on Friday night. The world appeared to be so beautiful~ ( :

Played cs this morning and I was pretty... Hot. Wahahaha ( : From rank 178 to 1 with the frag of 102 kills - 40 death :D :D :D & my nick was... ... juzPL. ( : Wahahahahaha!!! Meaningful nick aye? Ahahahahaha!!! Oh yeah, tidied my table today and the difference was... Chaos and serene :D I really enjoyed looking at mess being cleared up, especially when I was involved in the cleaning up! Haha... After I cleared the table, I went to sleep, which angered me after I woke up as I sees afternoon naps as wasting of time. Hahaha... Luckily, there was this show, 'She Diao Ying Xiong Juan', as it 'mesmerised' me for 2 hours :D hahahaha!!!

Hiaz... Its pretty damn bored these days and the only damn thing that I think I can do is study... Which I haven't appeared to have mush interest yet ( : but I believe I will, soon. Hahaha... Till then, stay healthy pee-plee! Hahaha!

- Every time I hear your voice, smiling becomes an involuntary reflex. ( :

Awwww... Finally it came...

Haiz... No more lessons for a month or more... I'm sure I'll miss... Everybody : D Oh... Another thing, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL TEACHERS!!! Weeeet-weet-weeuuu~ Hahahaha... Oh its Ivan's birthday too! Happy Birthday Ivan! ( : & not forgetting Mr. Hiang Peng my dear cousin ( : HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALL!!!
Hmm... Is August such a good month for giving birth? Haha! Well, I mean... There is just so much birthdays this month!!! But its a good thing I suppose. Birthdays are good! They bring people closer together! :D Hmmm... Just to sum things up, this August is probably one of the best I'll ever have in my life... Hehe...
Sigh... There is still not much courage in me... Prelims is coming and I'm still... Idling. Got to go sleep soon... Hope that tomorrow will be a better day ( :

'Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.'

Hehehehe

Hahahaha saw this as one of the topic in a channel... Is it true? Hope not : D


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Heart is a simple yet complicated word.

Yup... 'Heart' appears to be a simple word. But what's deep inside can be complicated... So complicated that human beings cannot understand...

Went to play basketball this morning at 8. We played and slacked and ate and played and slacked and ate all the way till 8 at night, haha. Freaky tired...

There are so many kind of people in this dreadful world... Some have no courage to write a story while others, end one... If only human never learnt to be untruth, never learnt to lust & never learnt to hate... If only fairies exist... Arghhhhhh 'If only' is such a bad word!

Courage is such an important thing. With this special 'element', human can actually achieve a lot. And why must I lack this 'element'! There is so little courage within me... Maybe its better to free our mind and focus on what's more important... Prelims in 5 days... Shouldn't be a problem... Yeah! I have faith! Hahahahaha... Time to slack... May the world know peace!!! ( :

Failure... Me.

I have failed myself again... why can't I make good use of the opportunities that I had!!! Fuck it! Arghhhhh...

'We'

Finally! Its Friday again! Hahaha so happy ( : Fridays just rocksss.
Haha, I'm so glad that I've finished my D & T folio! Haha... All that I need to worry now is that what grade will I score with that 'freaky' folio of mine : D

Today was a pretty cool day. We had 3 free periods and they made Sherman, Adrian, Irwin and I laugh our ass off ( : (during one of the periods) hahahahahaha... Aiyo... I had spent around 50 bucks in just 5 days this week! Hahahaha. Spent around $20+ on food & drinks, $10 transport, $12 hair cut, $4 newspapers and $5 for binding that folio...
So sad ) : Ok lar nothing much to say... Time to go sleep. Sweet Dreams to all! ( :

One of my all time favorite quote and I think it can be found in 'Batman Begins'

' It's not what u have deep inside but what u do that defines you. '

Life is beautiful... For now ( :

Yup, life had been so great lately. I really enjoyed the life of chilling till late night, chatting and joking our time away. Hahahaha... Hmmmm, maybe I should just say... Perfect weekend ( :

Hahaha I've finally started my revision for the exams! Studied my Social Studies on Saturday and little bit of Biology on Sunday ( : All I can say is... 'Because Of You' keke I meant the song by Kelly Clarkson : D hahaha yeah its a beautiful song. Hmmm... Nothing much happened in school today except that I really really tried my best not to fall asleep and guess what, I DID IT! 11 claps for me! Hahaha... Listen to 'Devil' Wong's exam experience and it really made me determined to study hard... Wonder if I can do it... Well, old sayings, have faith! Oh yeah, I finished all the homework that I remembered having in SSP today ( : cool huh? Hahaha for the first time I used the 2 hours in the SSP for meaningful stuffs...

Oh... Today's PE lesson was pretty interesting too! We had basketball games and it was quite... Amusing. Hahahaha... Hmmm, really had no intention of winning, all I though about was to see people have fun and of course have fun myself. Hahaha! Damnit... Didn't sleep at class really made me tired hahaha. Got to go sleep soon after bathing... Cya~

Life without... ... ... ...

Damn, I was quite disappointed with the SuperStar's result last night... Haha anyway, would like to congratulate the 2 winners, Kelvin and Kelly.

Fridays really rox!D & T lesson is really fun hahaha!!! Oh yeah, something really cool happened today. Our bio lessons were canceled! Weeet-weeet-weeeuuu~ Kakakaka... So, I slacked in school a little and went home to sleep : D Woke up at around 7:15 and had dinner then listened to songs and blablablablablablabla...

Oh yah, lunnie went back today and there is a little(or BIG) piece of news for him! Haha can't wait to see his reaction when he hears the news : D Anyway, hope to wish him all the best there!

So sad... The year is coming to an end... Everything is gonna be different after that... All the peeps.. Lifestyle...
) : NOOO!!! I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN! I'M ENJOYING MY LIFE NOW!!! Haiz... Just alittle bit more courage... Is all that I need. Zzzz... Zzz... Zz... Z...


'Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear.'

Unpredictable

SuperStar's result will be reveled in a few moments time. Although I'm not a 'hardcore' fan, but I support Kelly and JunYang lar... Hahaha... Yup*(hehe) just reached home after the 'last supper' (hmmm supper or dinner? Haha) with lunnie & buddies at Lower Pierce area. We'll ALL miss you!!! ( : Hahaha.

Prelims is finally coming & I believe its time to study... Yes and I mean total, insane, madness study. Well, since I was TOLD to study, then I shall~ Hahahaha... Ok this time its for real man... Monday, 21st of August, will be the date I start my 'mission impossible'.
School had been so boring today... Well, at lest something encouraging happened in the evening, kekeke... : D Anyway, Tomorrow is gonna be a hard day... Stupid 'Carrot' Wong with stupid remedial class. School ends at 12:40 and there is bio extra class at 2:45... This is crapp! 2 hours in the half dead school!? Awww man... To make matter worst, the lesson will end at around 4!!! Well, there is practical and theory, so... FUCK IT! Kakaka

TV time! ( : Hahaha... Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'll try to sleep earlier starting from Sunday. Till then... RAWK ON PEOPLE!!!

Owned.

Aiyayayaya... After being phyco-ed by the 2 Chinese teachers, I finally decided not to retake my Chinese O levels although I only managed to get a B4... Yup, what she said does make sense. So what even if I can score a A1 for my Chinese but a D7 for Maths? Its still ITE... Well, not that its bad, but that's not my goal in life so I guess I'm not gonna head there : D

Anyway, had my English oral yesterday. Well, the topics seemed easy for me but things don't always turn out the way I feel :D Hahaha... Haiz... Nothing much to talk about... Just listening to the beautiful songs and dreaming blablabla, hahaha... Oh yah, I was kinda retard just now. I wanted to go for a hair cut and when I was waiting for the lift, I suddenly felt weird and went back home. Hahahaha IM MAD! Yup, beginning to feel the pressure of O levels and I guess its good sign ( : hahahahaha...

'Giving laughers or joy to one is probably the most promising task accomplished for the day.'

Why do I love you...

Haiz... Only managed to score a B4 for my Chinese O levels... So sad ) : But nevermind lar... I'll retake the test at the end of this year!!! Haha! So much happened these few weeks, too much to list down (| : Hahahahaha, yup happy and sour at the same time, weird but great feeling kekeke. Oh yah, nearly forgot to wish Singapore a happy 40th birthday! Wee-Wee-Weeuuuu~ Hahaha... Will be having my o levels English Oral tomorrow, all the best to everyone taking it! Feeling kinda sleepy right now... Headache... DEAD.

Why Do I Love You

Suddenly she's leaving, suddenly the promise of love has gone, suddenly breathing seems so hard to do...

Carefully you planned it, I got to know just a minute too late oh girl~ Now I understand it, all the times we made love together, baby you were thinking of him...

Why do I love you? Don't even want to~ Why do I love you like I do? Like I always do~ you should have told me... Why did you have to be untrue... Love you like I do, why do I love you like I do...?

Ain't gonna show no weakness! I'm gonna smile and tell the whole world I'm fine, I'm gonna keep my senses, but deep down where no one can hear me... Baby I'll be crying for you~

Why do I love you? Don't even want to~ Why do I love you like I do? Like I always do~ you should have told me... Why did you have to be untrue... Love you like I do, why do I love you like I do...?

Can't go back, can't erase~ Baby your smiling face~ Oh no, I can't think of nothing else but you~ suddenly...

Why do I love you? Don't even want to~ Why do I love you like I do? Like I always do~ you should have told me... Why did you have to be untrue... Love you like I do, why do I love you like I do...? (X2)

This song rawks~~ Feeling lost cause time is flying so so so & so fast... Soon everything will be over and I really hope that... I'm a time wizard hahaha... Yupyupyup I changed my skin... Yeah I mean my real skin!!!
Feel the wrath mortal, doom have come to this world... Muahahahahaha!!!

Holy shit!~

What the fook!?~ Where did my most recent post gone!? Damn It took me quite sometime to upload those photos of the cars and they are all gone now!? DANG~ Arghhhhh... Nevermind... Will try to upload them again when I have the time...

Woah... It was really a long time since I last posted. Can't really remember all the shits that happened during this period. Anyway, the June Chalet was cool shit! We had all the fun we needed and that sure spoiled my study mood... Haha. Oh yeah forgot to welcome the lunnie back, Welcome back You Lun the lunnie dude! Muahahahaa...

Anyway, had been quite busy with school work lately and the Design and Technology Foilo's dead line will be up soon. The problem is that my freaking printer had been spoilt for ages and its beyond hope for repair... Forget it, I 'll try and do all the shit required and get my stuffs printed. Haiz... Time really flies. Its already July and will be August in a blink... Really really really hope that time won't pass so fast! People use to say 'Time will pass extra fast when you're enjoying every second of it' well, time seemed to be flying no matter if I'm enjoying or suffering...

I guess I'll be touching up my maths and other weak subjects real soon cause the big 'O' is coming our way~~~! Wahahahaha... Damn I hope I'll be ready by prelims and can say 'Bring It On!' to the exams! Wahahahahaa... Alright my last words for today, all the best everyone for the up coming days!

'Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal.'

Go for it!!!

'I have failed over and over again in my life... And thats why I have succeeded.' - Michael Jordan

Today was a... Pretty exciting day. We went to turf city to watch our school's softball team VS RI's team. Near the turf city was a 'underground' carpark where cars were sold and there were sure damn lot of pretty cars.
Andrew, Li Ya, Ser Chin, Ivan, Irwin, Kam Chuen and me met at around 2 in Yishun MRT station. It took us about 1 hour and 15 minutes to get there? Although the guys lost, I can see that they were very very very focus in the match. After the game, we went back to yishun and had our dinner at Long John. Then we went to meet up with some of the A2's girls and one of Li Ya's friend.
We went for soccer after that and it was pretty fun... DAMN IT!!! MY RIGHT FOOT CAN'T MOVE RIGHT NOW AND I AM HAVING DIFFCUILTY WALKING~~ Haiz... Hope it will be fine tomorrow...
Oh, 1 more thing. Andrew is finally back~~!! Wee-U-Weet~ Hahaha... Yup, after being 'missing in action' for about 2 weeks, Andrew finally 'revived'!!! Exam is round the corner... Hope that I can focus hard right now... Anyway, hope tomorrow is a better day!

'If you are going through hell, keep going.'

Happy Birthday Lunnie!

Lunnie is a weak boy~ Lunnie is a weak boy~ Opps...! 'was just playing'' haha. Today is the lunnie's birthday so are we suppose to use his phrase? MuaHahAhaha okokokok...

Nothing much happened today except that I have started my Chinese revision... Not much though, just read some of the words in the ownage 'Xin-ya' O'lvl 10 years series. I took out my sec. 3 'xi zi bu' and wrote the words which appeared in the pass O'lvls.
Another thing is that Mr Low had decided to end school at 10 on Friday! Wo0o0o0o~! This is because of the great performance from our band, drama, choir, dance and wushu! Oh... Not forgetting our softball boys :D. 11 Claps! Band got Gold with honors, drama, choir and dance with silver and finally wushu with 4 gold medals and blablablabla(can't remember the others haha). Softball boys retained their title as the North Zone chams! Yea~~! Anyway, just 'owned' the ACS-I(Anglo Chinese Secondary Independent) with a score of 7 - 2! It was the semi-finals which means they are in the finals!!! Wo0o0o0o! Anyway, the finals will be on Friday so... Wish them all the best...

Finally, let me wish Keegen Chung You Lun / styx / lunnie (pattern liao liao wHaHahAhaha) a sweet 16th birthday, all wishes come true and may the force be with him.
**SweetDreams**

What a day!

'Long time no post, don't think I mati'. Hahahaha... Today was a pretty cool day. Woke up at around 9:30 and did my daily routine, and then went to Marina South for stream-boat at around 4. Damn... There was lots and lots and lots of hot chicks around there and the super kite flying ground had became a super large soccer field, I mean there were like 6 pitches in the large field! Okok here comes the really really cool part. I SAW DAMN LOTS OF CARS TODAY AND I'M DAMN FREAKING EXCITED!!! Firstly, I saw 8 Toyota Celica, 5 Alfa Romeo 156 GTA, some oldies sport cars which I got no idea what brand are they(too far away...), 1 Mazda RX-7 and RX-8, the super rare Nissan Skyline GT-R R34 and Nissan Fairlady 350Z!!!! Woooo~~ Too cool!!!!!! Alright, got to go watch 'Huang Fei Hong'... Oh 1 more thing, exam is round the corner and I hope that I can settle down and study hard... Good luck everybody!
**Sweet Dreams**

Not so fast please - time!!!

Time is passing so quickly... So quick that I don't know whats happening. I really hope that there would be no homework given in school, so we just go to school, and have fun!!! Haven't been balling for 2 weeks...

Oh ya... We started playing the "Retro" game Diablo2 :LoD afew days ago... wahahaha. Its kinda lame though. ITS REALLY DAMN BORING NOWADAYS!!! AgRRrrRr...!

This is what I had been doing for the pass 1 and a ½ weeks : I go to school, I survive in school, I stay out of trouble, I stay back sometimes, I reach home at evening, I study for test(s) and I sleep. This cycle had been happening for days and I'm getting sick!!! Hope that tomorrow is gonna be a more exciting day... Gotta study for my D & T test soon... Oh... 1 last thing, here are 9 roses(which stands for ever lastin love~) for Valentine's Day to everyone(especially the females (^_-) )
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The "lunatic" is coming to town with 83/84 days left...
Let the frenzy begin...

Can't feel the power...?

Agrrrrr!!! This new year is kinda weird... Yea, I did the normal stuffs I did the pass years, but I just felt different and I can't name it!!! Btw, I was coughing like mad since last last week... I think there's a serious problem with me this time... whAhAhahaha!

.New Years Eve.

Went to my grandmother's(paternal) house at the new years eve. I'm quite lucky cause both my maternal and paternal's parents live in the same area, just different block :D(So I don't need to rush here and there!). New years eve huh... Its kinda boring there... Had steamboat there and watched TV until 1 A.M. ++ before going home. Oh! Before that I went to school for the concert. I had a disappointed feeling when I reached school, and I don't know why~ but the performance was not bad... I can say that our school's wushu team had improved a lot!!! Their punches and kicks had become more powerful and the speed was... Considerably fast :D.

.New Years Day.

Chinese New year!!! Went to my (paternal) grandfather's house again to celebrate his birthday!!! Actually it isn't his birthday, fast forwarded~ We had our lunch and cake there and my cousin's started the "loser had cream" game... It was damnNdamn UNHEALTHY, so I didn't played :D They each had a card on their forehead, so that others get to see it and themselves can't, then they passed a plate around and add creams(from the cake) or remove from it. Then its simple, the person with the smallest number gets to eat all!!! WAhAahahaaha... Went to my maternal grandma's house at about 3:30P.M.
We were just slacking around and then played afew rounds(you know what I meant. wHaHAhaha) before going to the dinner. Oh we were playing AVP before dinner. Then at aout 7, my cousin's boyfriend came and we started to play cards again. HE WAS DAMN LUCKY!!! He was the banker and he always get 21(blackjack~) And there was this funny shit that happened!!! He got 8 points and he wanted to "perform", so he took 3 cards at 1 go and he actually got 5 cards and still lived!!! Damn!!! Then a few rounds later, I got 3 points(An ace and a 2) and I thought it was my turn to "perform" and ... I ACTUALLY GOT J, Q andK!!! AND THAT GAVE ME 33 points!!! BUSTED!!! (For those who don't know, 5 cards means I gotta pay double) ...
Anyway, we continued until 10 and then we started chatting. We were talking about the life he(cousin's bf) was having in the NS and then suddenly we were in the ghost story telling section... wHaHAhAa It was fun though... Reached home at 1:30 SHARP.

.2nd Day Of New Year.

Went to my mun's auntie place for lunch and then to another's to gamble and dinner. We had fun gambling too... So... Yea, that's about it for today. WwHAHAhaha... Going to bed soon... DAMN THERE IS SCHOOL TOMORROW?!?! Ahhh... nvm I am glad to go to school :):):):)

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Ok, I got nothing to say... Just woke up after coming back from my grandma's place last 'morning'. So... Happy Chinese New Year! Time to "bai nian" liao... C'ya~ Its gonna be another long day...

Better life?

Haven't been playing games lately... Only had a few race in the morning and then went to play cs awhile with bots. Damn... My skill is really carp now. I actually got owned by the bots which is used to own in the pass... wHahAhAHaha. Sad case sia... My reflex, hearing and aims had gone down BADLY and I can't control my m4a1's recoil now...

But life have became more interesting though. I had been going to play basketball with Andrew and Ser Chin lately. Today Irwin brought his cousin's and friends with him. They are good man... The court is pretty flooded today haha... I think the only time when the court is more "free" is during the holidays. During school days student from nbss go there after school. During weekends, poly and JC grown ups own the court... HAhaHAaaha... wtf am I saying... Anyway, we chatted about alot of things yesterday... wHaHahaha. It was fun to talk cock and craps and rubbish. Looks like I haven't got my study mood back... But I'm not worry because I know I can and I will!!! wHaHAhAhaha!!!
Ahhh... Pretty tired now... played from 3 to 8... Gotta go sleep soon~

Buay Ta Han~~

Sibei sian ar... 5 days week is really giving me a hard time man... Although the focus test during Saturday and Monday is removed, but the 45 minutes per lesson is really killing me!!! And school ends at 2:55 on Monday and Tuesday, and 2:10 on Wednesday and Thursday!!! Oh my gaw~ Ending school at 2:55 is like... Reached home, 3:30, bath, rest, eat something, 4:00 and then do some homework and its dinner time... After dinner, its about 8 and then 2 more hours will be bed time... What the hack man! This ain't gonna be my life~~~ But I have thought about it anyway... I will just "Ta han" the weekdays and enjoy during the weekends! Yea~!!! wHAhAhaha.. But I guess I'll get used to it soon...

Oh, Monday was CCA day for the sec 1s and I'm someone who hate CCA, so I "eat snake" through the whole thing! wHaHAhaha!!! But the library(MY GAY CCA~) teachers said that they are gonna be very hard on us this year... Erm... Something like... Those who didn't go for CCA during last year's fourth term is required to hand in a letter and all those bullshit~ I remembered hearing them saying something like this in June last year. I think is "all those who didn't go for duty and do not have a valid reason for more then 2 times will be handed over to the disciplinary department"... Haiz... If I'm not wrong, I believe I skipped more then 5 times... whAHAhAhaha...

Yea!!! Irwin is gonna have a internet connection soon~ But I'm not very interested in gaming lately... Oh, the channel 8 7:00pm show finally ended today... But I think the ending was kinda crappy... Haha... Played basketball just now and got my little toe injured... There's a "exploded" blister on my left foot too...

The period of time that you cherish, will be over even before you know it...
Gotta go cut my toe nails and sleep soon. Sweet Dreams~

Finally weekend!

Reinstalled all my stuff today... Ahhh... The feeling of skipping the damn library CCA is sooo good~!!! wHaHaHahAhAha! I did something really stupid today. I actually forgot that there is a disc in the CD-drive and I had my motherboard disc in it... Together. And I believe you have guessed what happened... My motherboard disc got scratched so badly that it couldn't be used anymore!!! Grrrr! So I had to download all the drivers for my LAN card, sound card, chipset, etc, etc... It was quite boring to wait for my stuff to be downloaded so I played "basketball" at home. Haha... It was pretty gay... I dribbled a little ball with a diameter of about 30cm around the house and then do some slam dunk and stuff through my chin up bar. wHaHAhahaha... Hey... Its quite tiring ok... Haha.

Forgot to mention that the weather pretty cold nowadays~~~ So... Remember to cover yourself up with a blanket at night~ :D Hey! I downloaded a I-Pod skin for my winamp today! Haha... Its quite cute, but not very effective.

Oh! There was this amusing thing that happened in school today! A boy from sec 3 got his shirt cut! WHaHahahaha!!! Omfg sial~ Too bad it wasn't being cut publicly... wHahAhAhaha. Anyway, If you are wondering why it happened, well, it was because he tucked his shirt out outside school and got caught by a teacher. wHaHahaha... BTH!!!
Oh... 1 more thing. I received my D and T O'lvl theme today and its transportation... Another time consuming task... Hiaz~ May the force be with me lar~ Oh... I just remembered something said by my teacher! He said that when someone sighs, an angel will die... Hope its not true... Haha... Anyway, I hope my life would be better in the coming days~ Still downloading my Counter-Strike and Service Pack 2 for Window XP... Feeling abit sour now... No idea~ No idea~ lalala
Sweet Dreams~ :)

Happy!!! (^_^)

PC finally up!!! The "manual" I posted yesterday do work, but I found out that once I'm connected, to the internet, virus will start to rush in... I found this VERY weird, so I went into my router setting and I found out that a DMZ stuff, which was unchecked in the past, was actually checked! Virus stopped coming in once I unchecked the damn box... Fook it! Wasted my 6 - 9 days trying to clear those damn virus!!! But nevermind lar... Hahahaha.

Anyway, library is really a bullshit CCA. There was a so called meeting today and whent we got there, the fucking teacher actually tell us that we have to stay till 5 to finish some shit for the CCA orientation for sec 1s... But we were lucky because Miss Soo came and asked my 3 other friends and myself to help her carry some stuff :D And we went to "eat snake" after the job. wHAhAhahaha!!! We went to the canteen and by the time we went back, it was already 4:30+!! wHaHAhAHa!!! The "mushroom head" teacher told us that we have to be back tomorrow to complete the work... What sia~ I think only idiots will go back... But who cares~ I confirm zhao! whaHAhaha

Enriched.

School is finally opened!!! Really getting a bit boring when the holiday is about to end... Anyway, we went to andrew's house on Christmas eve. We didn't do much there execpt playing games, going to the toilet and maybe... Talking crap... Yea, that's about it. Oh! We also laughed like retards. WhAhAha...

On Christmas, we went to my grandmother's house to celebrate. The adults played majong while the younger generation watched TV in the room. Erm... My family went home at about 11:30.

Did some homework on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday and my PC got into some serious problem... I went to download Inuyasha the movie 1 and my com got "owned" and "raped" by ALOT of virus... I had a hard time clearing them... I formated the damn com 4 times, delete and recreated partitions more then 5 times and used the weak shit Norton 04 to scan and delete the infected files, but the virus survived. But~ After looking around the web, I finally found a way to clear them...

Alright, here is some tips:

1. Go to http://housecall.trendmicro.com/housecall/start_corp.asp
   
2. Do a full scan on your PC.
   
3. Open task manager by pressing alt+ctrl+delete and end the process(es) which are infected by the virus. If a warning comes out saying source in use or something saying that the file is current open, just reboot your PC and end them before you do anything.
   
4. Delete the virus using the free online virus scan.
5. Finally, go to run from start, type in regedit.
6. Go to, HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE, Software, Microsoft, Windows, CurrentVersion, Run and delete the file which have virus in it. Doing this should prevent the virus from coming out after you restart you PC.

Nothing much happened in school these few days...
Hope that helps~ SweetDreams... ...